DOWNGRADE
Pairing: Mark Meachum x F. Reader
Summary: There it was. The beginning of the end, and neither of you saw it coming.
AN: Ahhh here we go! For the first time ever, Mark Meachum! Obviously I’m still learning this guy as a character, but this idea grabbed me and wouldn’t let me go. Thanks so much, @luci-in-trenchcoats for choosing this color prompt for the 5K Follower Celebration!
Word Count: 1.2K
Tags/Warnings: 18+ only. Fluff, implied smut, and rom-com vibes, until the angst sets in (lol). Medical diagnoses, implied cheating
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Spring
Mark set two mugs of coffee on his nightstand to free up his hands. He had to cut wide swaths through the bedsheets to reach you. As usual, you were a tangle of limbs and frizzy hair.
“Jesus, what’d you do here, woman?” he said, lips tugging at a smile when he heard your muffled giggle.
Eventually he unearthed your head and found your sleepy smile. You squinted at the sun glaring through the window behind him. It backlit that look of fond amusement on his face.
You clawed half-blind at the front of his shirt and pulled him down to you. He lost his footing and grunted as he fell, just barely catching himself from crushing you. Your laugh rang in his ear and forced a chest-shaking rumble out of him too.
You freed your own arms from the warm nest you created, just to take his face in your hands. Your thumbs caressed along the coarse edges of his beard.
“Getting scraggly, baby,” you remarked.
“Yeah, but you like your man all wild and caveman-like,” he said mischievously.
You shook your head, but you still couldn’t stop yourself from smiling.
“Only when he fucks me,” you said. A cheeky challenge in your eyes.
Mark’s brows popped high, his devilish grin showing teeth. It didn’t matter how long you’d been his, you still managed to keep him on the ropes.
“Well, he does aim to please.”
Summer
The sound of your laugh was like sweltering sunshine in his chest. After the wave finished dunking you both, you swept the salty sting of the ocean out of your eyes and clung to his shoulders in the water.
Santa Cruz agreed with you. It shone down on your glistening skin and caught in your eyes. You both needed this—taking a beat, just the two of you.
Finally, Mark had allowed himself to take some time off. He was reluctant at first, workhorse that he was. But the Captain—your father—insisted that Mark take a break. Wrapping up a triple homicide after four months of legwork, getting to see that motherfucker be denied bail until trial, and giving the victims’ families a sense of relief that the killer was off the streets was a decided win.
“You’ve got someone waiting for you,” the Captain reminded him. “Don’t take that for granted.”
Mark grabbed your left hand and pressed a kiss into your palm. He felt the coolness of metal against his lips. It reminded him to turn your hand over.
“Whoa!” He closed his eyes and playfully looked away as if he was being blinded. “Who gave you that fucking rock?”
The summer sun glinted off a modest stone. Your sister told him not to overthink it. Just get the classic square cut. But his instincts told him to go with something called a “cushion,” like the sales lady said at Jared’s.
Mark knew he made the right choice when you gasped, covering your mouth with shaky hands, your eyes filling with tears when you met his slightly nervous ones.
Now, you just laughed in his face. “Oh, nobody really. Just the love of my life.”
His smile quirked, even though his heart was double-timing.
“You’re so fuckin’ cheesy.”
“But you love it, though.”
(That day, you both spent an extra hour looking for the ring when it somehow slipped off your finger and fell into the sand.)
Fall
“I’m just saying, sweetheart,” Mark said, his tone deep and gentle while he steadied you in his arms. “Maybe it’s best we put off the wedding, just a few months. It’s a lot coming at you right now.”
You shook your head, covering your mouth with trembling fingers.
“No,” you said eventually, but your words faltered along with your unsteady breaths in between. “No, he wouldn’t have wanted that. I just wish he, uh…could be there.”
You were a pillar of a woman, but no one could fault you for falling apart. Your father had been a lifelong smoker. He quit ten years ago, but it still caught up to him in his sixties, a severe case of COPD that he’d been trying to hide for months. It eventually withered him down to weeks of degeneration in a hospital bed, relying on oxygen masks that could no longer sustain him.
Your mother and sister had left the room for just half an hour to grab some coffee. You stayed behind.
You were alone with your father when he died. All you could do was hold his hand.
Now, all Mark could do was hold you. But he had to blink past a sharp pain, almost like a sudden migraine. Aftershocks reverberated through his skull, radiating from the right to the left.
He’d been dealing with less intense versions of the feeling for a month, but this time, it was like a small shiv between the eyes. It took him enough by surprise that it forced a grunt out of him, making him grimace and blink hard.
You picked your head up from his chest and met him with tearful eyes, frowning in concern.
“You okay?” you asked.
“Yeah,” Mark said. “Just a little headache.”
Winter
“Mark, you need to go to the doctor. You’ve gone through three bottles of Advil. That’s not normal.”
“Look, I told you already. I’m fine.”
“Yeah. That’s really convincing.”
“…Look, that’s Rachel pulling up. You ready to go?”
You looked out the windows near the front door and saw your sister walking up the driveway. You blinked, like you both could and couldn't believe what you were seeing.
“Wow," you said. "She couldn’t have found a skimpier dress to check out the church. Who’s she trying to impress? The pastor’s already married.”
Mark snorted in amusement, but something soon occurred to him.
“Didn’t you tell me she and her boyfriend just broke up or something?”
“Yeah, but what does that have to do with it?”
He shrugged. “Eh, I don’t know. She’s probably just looking for attention.”
You sighed. You loved your younger sister, but there were times when you wished she’d just grow up a little.
One appointment with Mark’s primary doctor led him to the oncologist. His entire inner world was leveled with just two words:
Glioblastoma Multiforme.
Two words he couldn’t say to you.
It all rang between his ears…
The excitement in your voice when you told him how your last fitting went for the dress.
Faces he’d put behind bars. Years he’d scraped and clawed his way through bureaucratic bullshit, standing his ground against officers with more power than him, but never as much heart.
Your raw, broken grief when you watched your father waste away from the absolute monument of a man he’d been.
How was Mark supposed to level your world too?
He kept it all inside. And like the master of improv he was, he faked enthusiasm for a joint bachelor-bachelorette weekend.
One late night. One fifth of whiskey at the hotel bar turned into numbers he stopped counting—until the Captain reminded him.
You’ve got someone waiting for you. Don’t take that for granted.
He needed to find you.
Somehow, he made it to the elevator by himself. Third floor. Room 304, 305, 306. Fuck. Was it 309?
The door opened, and his addled fucking brain thought it was you at first. She almost had your eyes, if just half the sincerity of your smile.
Rachel welcomed him in and shut the door. He stumbled at the threshold, and she stopped him from falling completely onto the floral-patterned carpet.
“Oh my God, Mark. You okay?”
No. And he knew he wasn’t ever gonna be okay.
But her hands were warm, carving sensuous paths under his leather jacket without him realizing.
“Don’t worry. I’ve got you.”
AN: 🫣 I know, I know - I'm sorry it's not my usual happy ending. 💔 But! I am working on a second part to this for @waynes-multiverse, who also requested Mark Meachum for the 5K Celebration...though that one's gonna be even angstier than this one loll 😅 (but maaaybe with a kind of happy ending?)
In the meantime, what did you think of this drabble? Don't you wish we could've stayed in Summer? ❤️🩹
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