#dr kells

[maradyertheories]

this is pretty weird but i was reading teomd and i reached the part where mara's at horizons, trying to sleep but phoebe wakes her up and says that she (mara) was going to get out of bed so they go to drink water and barney (one of the counselors) is reading silence of the lambs. i haven't seen it but i was thinking that clarice is mara and hannibal might be noah or kells or someone else? and the murderer might be jude or whoever the villian turns out to be?

hmm this is pretty interesting, i never really gave thought to what Barney was reading at Horizon’s when Mara and Phoebe step out to get a drink. I’ve seen Silence of the Lambs and from what I remember, I don’t really see a connection between TEOMD and SOL but then again there really aren’t any coincidences. If anything, I would actually say the reverse that Kells is Clarice and one of the other characters is Hannibal. Clarice is trying to help Hannibal but at the same time she’s trying to figure out his secrets, which is similar to what Kells is inevitably doing with her “studies”.  (take this with a grain of salt, it’s been awhile since I’ve seen the film!!)

-Ashlee 

[issabellelightwoods]

YA LIT MEME:

Two Antagonists » Dr. Kells (1/2)

"I had wanted to know what we were and now I did. We weren’t students. We weren’t patients. We were subjects. Victims, and perfect ones. If we cried wolf, Dr. Kells would cry crazy, and there were hundreds of pages of psychological records to back her up. If any of us told the truth, the world would call it fiction."

[livingasaghost]

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"Help Me (Dead and Gone)" - Original Song 

based on the Mara Dyer series by Michelle Hodkin

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You don’t know my name You don’t know my face The more things you know the more  You’ll be disgraced

I was born and raised for  Better things I was made to be so Lovely

But even after all I’ve done I’m dead and gone, I’m dead and gone

Help me, help me I can feel the madness, cut me free Save me, save me Shield me from the things I’ve seen I was laughing and crying Screaming and dying And now I can see your eyes You always wore the best disguise

They don’t know I’m here They don’t know my fear The more things they know the more They’ll disappear

I am just a  Teenage girl Born to kill, born to  Change the world

But even after all I’ve done I’m dead and gone, I’m dead and gone

Chorus

My blood is boiling My head is spinning Is this my end or A new beginning

Wherever you are Wherever you go You have my heart You took my soul

[shitpostingqueennn]

WHAAAAT!?!?!? *SCREAMING SO LOUD THAT EARTH ITSELF EXPLODES* SHE KNEW JUDE WAS ALIVE WTF MAN. THAT BITCH. MOTHERFUCKER.

[octaviusblackthorn]

HERE'S SOMETHING THAT KEEP ME AWAKE (and sobbing endlessly) AT NIGHT 

the evolution of mara dyer spoilers tho so hollaaaaah away from here if you havent read it 

BASICALLY

on page 414 in the evolution of mara dyer, mara's talking with her mother and their coversation goes:

"He [Jude] died in the asylum" -(Mara's mother.)

She didn't understand. No. No. 

"The building collapsed." 

And after that, she says that neither Jude, Clare or Rachel survived.

AND THEN

on page 525, Dr Kells is talking about how she tried to sedate Mara before she collapsed the building. And then she says she tried very hard to save all of her friends, but they just couldn't get Noah Shaw.

So, whereas on page 414, where none of them survives, it'll be the opposite where all of them survives - But then that leaves me to believe that it will be like what happened to Jude, but with Noah. 

Jude turned out to be alive. He had survived.

Maybe Noah just turns out to be dead. 

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO THINK ANYMORE

[jaseyrage]

WHAT IS GOING ON?!???!

[octaviusblackthorn]

Mara Dyer Fanfic - And alone I die, Chapter 2.

Chpater 1 here (X)

Noah is lost.

I am scared he won't find his way back again.

And I hear a twig snap.

Snap.

Snap.

Snap.

“Noah?” I turn quickly, looking to where the noise came from.

Not Noah.

Kells.

“Give up. He won't come back to you, sweetie.” I see her smile in the dark as she emerges from behind a tree.

The on thing she doesn't know is that I have already given up.

On Noah.

On myself.

“Why can't he hear my heart beating?” I ask her, my feet moving me backwards ever so slowly.

“He can't heal any longer.” Her voice is rough. Too rough.

“Why? What have you done to him?”

“We told you that you were an experiment. You along with Noah, Jamie and Stella.” She says calmly, looking at me for a reaction. I refuse to give her one.

“And?” I spit out the word. Yes I remember. I remember the lie. Deceased written under Noah's name.

“And we decided to work on him first.”

“You told me he was dead.” And a sudden thought comes to my mind. The day when I set the animal free. The day when the screams of others did not matter. The day when the animal was free.

I remember it so clearly.

And I feel like those who are screaming.

Those who do not matter.

Noah is the animal that has been let out of his cage.

Has been let free.

And he kills.

His first victim?

Me.

When he let me go.

I do not hear Kells' next words.

I can only think of that day when I found my letter in Daniel's room. Help me. Written over and over.

I need someone to help me now.

I need Noah to help me.

Noah is gone.

No.

Not gone.

Lost.

“Mara!” Kells' voice rings out through the quiet forest. My head snaps up and my eyes meet hers.

“He will come back.” I furrow my eyebrows.

She only laughs.

“He will come back and I will kill you.”

A bark of laughter comes from behind me. It makes my spine stiffen and goosebumps to run up and down my arms, on my legs and along my neck.

Jude.

“Your attempts at threats are quite the amuser, Mara.” He whispers, his breath fanning across my neck.

I am not afraid. Not afraid. Not afraid. Not afraid. Not afraid. Not afraid. Not afraid. Not afraid. Not afraid. Not afraid. Not afraid. Not afraid. Not afraid. Not afraid. Not afraid. Not afraid. Not afraid.

I am afraid.

“Why can't he heal?” I ask again, my eyes trained on Kells.

“I did some tests on him. They went wrong.” It was not her who spoke.

It was Jude.

“Undo them.”

“Can't.” He clicks his tongue and I turn back to him.

“I said undo them.” I hope my voice is deadly.

He looks at me as if I'm a kicked puppy.

“Stop it.” I whisper. And then I turn to go. Away from them all.

I want to be back with Noah.

I want to kiss him.

Hug him.

Have sex with him.

Have kids.

Get married.

Grow old.

But I cannot.

He thinks I am dead.

He thinks I am not the Mara Dyer he once thought I was.

He thinks I am afraid of him.

He is right.

[octaviusblackthorn]

A Mara Dyer fanfiction. - I am scarred.

“Kells, please-” I am not one to beg. I do not like begging. I force myself not to beg. Not be weak. To be strong for Noah.

I am being weak.

And I don’t care anymore.

“Please, Kells!” My voice comes out in a strangled cry. Noah was stood against the wall. He wore no smile on his face – It was serious. Yet the glint in his eyes told me otherwise.

I willed myself to kill her. She has a heart attack. Asthma attack. Chokes on her tongue like the Spanish teacher. Just die. Find a way to die. She must have seen my struggle. Noah, too. He furrowed his eyebrows in annoyance. He didn’t want me to try. He knew he was going to be okay.

“Mara,” Dr Kells sighed, her voice echoing through the large hall we were stood in. “There’s no point, Mara. You’re wearing yourself out. I need to you for this.” She shrugged, and the gun to Noah’s head grew closer. So much closer. Although he wouldn’t let me see – Me or Dr Kells, I could see the pain she caused him. The discomfort.

“No.” Is all that comes out from me. I’m stood near a wall. Close enough so I ccan touch it. To far to touch her though.

So I move closer.

Step by step.

Shuffle by shuffle.

She notices. She grabs his shirt from the back and drags. She cocks the gun.

I stand frozen.

“No, please-”

“Mara,” Noah’s voice rings out. It was the first time he has spoke. Kells seems to enjoy that. My fear. Anxiousness. Sadness.

“No. Don’t speak Noah, don’t speak.” My voice is soft. It is as if I am singing him a lullaby. No. Singing myself a lullaby.

“Mara, she won’t.” Was all he says. I shake my head.

“No-No she will. Noah, shut up.” I am snapping at him. Kells laughs. It echoes in my ears. Like venom. My vision fees blurry. I feel scarred.

“Mara,” He breathes. Kells seems to be having enough.

“Listen to your girlfriend, Noah, dear. She’s right sometimes.” I want to fall to the floor and cry.

To fall against the wall and knock myself out.

To feel my knees giving in and my breath knocked out of me.

She won’t.

Can’t.

Surely he can heal himself. Surely.

Hopefully.

“Kells, no-” My voice is a whisper as she moves closer to him.

His eyes seem to darken.

No.

No.

No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No.

He can’t.

Won’t.

“Please! Please, I’m begging!” I’m desperate now. My voice is a cry.

She only smiles.

“No.” Is all I say. Please no. No. He can heal himself. He can. He has to.

And he gives me one more look – A smile, to be exact. Hi eyes light up for less than a second with something that would always be there when I am around him. Something he keeps for me only. Something to say goodbye with.

The loud bang echoes through the halls.

I’m against the wall. My eyes have always been on him.

The light that was there is now gone.

Replaced by

nothing

“Why? No! Please, no!” My eyes feel wet. I will not cry in front of her. I will not be weak.

No.

She has seen to much.

I can’t.

But I do.

I am against the wall – I want to die.

“Shoot me. Please.” I whisper, looking up through my clouded eyelashes.

She’s smiling.

The witch is smiling.

“Please.”

“I’m sorry Mara. You know it had to be done.

And it hits me.

He’s dead.

Noah Shaw.

The Noah Shaw.

Is dead.