I wake with a start as I hear the baby crying and sit up in the bed startled as I look around the unfamiliar room. Then it dawns on me I had sex with Taecyeon…again. And this time I jumped him. – “Oh…my god!” – I bury my face in my hands and then hear the baby cry again. I look to the side and Taecyeon is not there. I get out of the bed and dress with my shirt and make my way to the nursery. I peek in and find Taecyeon holding the baby to his chest and talking to him soothingly.
Taecyeon has his sweatpants on but they hang dangerously low on his hips, so low I can see the dimples of his lower back as the rise of his ass start. I bite my lips because he looks so delicious. I close my eyes and shake my head.
“I got him.” – He says really close to me and my eyes shoot open. He is standing in front of me and I swallow hard as he gives me a very sensual smile. Well at least that is what it looks like to me. I must be losing my mind. – “I already fed him” – His voice vibrates over me and I want him again. My mouth becomes dry and I lick my lips.
I clear my throat and nod. – “What about your fever?”
“I’m fine. I took some pills again. My fever is gone.” – He murmurs as he looks down at the baby and realizes he is asleep. He then puts the baby in the cribs and I realizing he was free to talk to me I ran down to the kitchen and served myself some water and gulped it down quickly. I was trying to gain some time…for what? I don’t know! I groan and shake my head. Stop being stupid.
“There you are” – I squeak surprised and drop the glass and it shatters at my feet. – “Whoa! Don’t move. Why didn’t you put on some slippers or something?” – He asks as he moves cautiously closer. Avoiding the glass with his slippered feet. He then grabs me by the waist and hoists my up onto the counter and then turns to find the broom and sweep the glass up. I watch him silently.
When he is done he turns to me and I say – “Sorry. You startled me.”
“You disappeared on me.” - He says as he slips between my legs and lean into me, his hands on either side of my hips. I lean back trying to avoid being too close to him. – “Are you avoiding me?”
I look away and sigh. – “Last time didn’t end so well.”
“Because it was your first time and I took advantage of you as well. It was awkward and I am sorry for scaring you like I did.” – He leaned in closer and kissed me. My hands were suddenly on his shoulders and my eyes fluttered shut as I let him. – “This time you took advantage of me…”- He whispers and my eyes widen. He chuckles sexily. – “I didn’t mind one bit. Actually it was a pleasant surprise and a welcomed one at that. I didn’t want to think about my dreams anymore. I only wanted to be with you.”
He then kisses me again and pulls me closer to him. His hands slide up my thighs and discover I have nothing underneath and he groans – “I want you again.” – He says and pushes his sweats out of the way and sinks his hard length into my heat. I mewl and wrap my legs around his waist and press my hips against his taking him in deeper.
He lifts me up and presses me against the refrigerator and begins to pound into me and the whole thing starts to bounce, move and screech as he thrusts into me and I can’t help but moan loudly as he does. – “Taecyeon…”- I whisper in rapture as I feel him fill me over and over.
He turns with me in his arms and carries me to the living room and lays me on the couch his body drapes over me. He hooks an arm under my leg and raises it over his shoulder. Pushing rapidly into me. He leans back and watches how his body enters mine over and over. The raw look of desire on his face has me going over the edge.
He continues to thrust into me this time his eyes roam my face as I pant harshly trying to regain my breath but it’s hard as another wave of pleasure washes over me. I gasp as it becomes even more difficult to breath and he pauses. I shake my head and pull at his hips urging him to continue. – “Don’t…stop”! – I beg him as I feel the next wave approach. He lifts me up and leans back onto the couch turning me away from him, pulling me onto his lap.
I impale myself over him and lean against his chest as his hands come up under my shirt and cups my breast and massage them making me mewl as he twists my nipples between his fingers. My back arches as I lift my hips and impale myself again, pressing my breast firmly into his hands. – “Oh god!” – I yell as I lean over spreading my legs taking him in deeper and place my hands on his knees to help myself move over his length faster and harder.
“Shit!” – Taecyeon curses as he hold on to my hips and slams me over his member over and over. I finally scream my release for the last time as he to reaches his own. – “Uhh! Fuck!”
He then collapses back and heaves a huge sigh then pulls me back against his chest in a tight embrace. I then wonder, what happens after this? But I am too tired to really ask him and I close my eyes tiredly and let the relaxation take me away into a dream world.
When I wake the next morning he is gone. I am in my own bed and I wonder if I dreamed it all. I reluctantly get up and notice that I ached everywhere so I know it must be true. But why was I in my bed? Why did he just leave and say nothing?
Did he regret it? I shake my head and scold myself for wondering so much. I get up and go to the nursery to find In-Su was sleeping peacefully. He was already sleeping for longer periods of time which was good. He barely woke up in the middle of the night so there was no reason I should stay over now. The thought of not sleeping at Taecyeon’s anymore left me feeling empty. There was no way I could stay away from the men that invaded my every thought and my heart as well.
No matter what I was going to stay until Taecyeon said otherwise. It would still hurt. The day he no longer needs me, what would I do? Why did I let my heart get involved so much? I was so stupid. I shook my head and sighed.
My cellphone rang and I jump startled and run to my room to answer without thinking. – "Hello?"
“Hey sleepyhead.” – I blush as I realize its Taecyeon.
“Hi”- I say shyly and hear him chuckle.
“Why so shy? You were another story last night.” – He says and I just want to die of embarrassment. I say nothing. – “Anyway how is In-Su? I fed him and put him to sleep before leaving.”
“He’s fine, still sleeping. Why did you go to work anyway? Weren’t you sick?” – I scold him. – “You should be resting.”
“Do you think I would be resting if I was there now?” – He asks in a husky tone.
A shiver runs through me and I close my eyes savoring it and his voice. – “No. But do you feel better?”
“I still feel nauseous. But I am okay.” – He says and I just know he won’t eat anything in fear of getting sick while at work.
“You are an idiot Ok Taecyeon. You have to eat!” – I say angrily.
“I’ll be fine. Or did you just want me to stay home for you to take advantage of?” – He teases me and I stutter.
“I…I-I…Shut up OK Taecyeon!” – I hear him chuckle and end the call flustered. I take a deep breath and sit on the bed. My phone chimes and I look at it.
Message from Ok Taecyeon. I tap on the screen to read the message.
We need to talk. I know. But we will do that
later on when you are more comfortable
with the notion of us being together.
I sigh. He was right about how I felt. The whole situation was fucked up. I sometimes I even felt like his whore. He was paying me. So since I was taking care of his baby. It was okay but it wasn’t only that now I was also taking care of him in all ways possible so what did that make me?
I shake my head. I feel miserable and just moped the whole day. In-Su made me laugh throughout the day with his funny antics but during his naps I would think about my mess.
Soon Taecyeon was home and I was a nervous wreck. It was already late when In-Su finally went to sleep and I sat in the living room avoiding Taec who had finished his chicken soup dinner and had gone upstairs to shower and work some more before going to sleep.
I was twisting my fingers and biting my lips incessantly when a hand touched mine. I looked up startled and Taecyeon smiled gently at me.
“A penny for your thoughts. What’s going through you mind? What’s wrong?” – He asks a worried look upon his face.
“Everything! Everything's wrong Taec.” – I blurted out and he frowned.
“Why do you say that?” – He asks frowning and looking confused as he sat beside me.
“This is fucked up! This relationship we have is fucked up!” – I laugh a little hysterical. – “We are fucked up and because of it we are seeking for something that we can’t find, something we can’t keep away. It’s like this huge gaping hole swallowing everything that comes by that gives us a sense of peace, a false sense of love. What are we doing? Huh? You are my boss. You pay me to take care of your son. But I also am taking care of you. At first it was fine because you were paying me to take care of you, your son and make dinner.
But somewhere along the way I somehow became your whore and I just can’t do this. We…we…we are wrong. This is wrong. I love In-Su like if he were mine and I would die before I let something happen to him. I would fight teeth and nail for him. You know that! But this…I just can’t do this. We have to stop or I will have to quit.” – I finished and all I wanted to do was kill myself. The look he had on his face was like I had taken something very important to him away from him. Like if I had slapped him. – “I’m sorry.” – I finally whispered.
We remain silent for a few minutes and I watched him close his eyes and lean back on the couch. The couch we had sex on the night before. I stood up because I couldn’t stand the thought of us sitting close to each other on the same couch we were intimate on. I began to pace back and forth trying not to cry.
He sighed. – “You’re right. Don’t apologize and Joo you are not a whore. I would never think that of you. Please don’t think so low of yourself. I will stop trying to pursue this. But only because In-Su is involved and he is my priority after all. But don’t ever think I never took you seriously. Yes I am lonely. Yes I miss my wife because I loved her. But I never thought of her while being with you.”
“Not even the first time?” – I ask resentful. Because he couldn’t lie to me I heard him say her name loud and clear.
He looked away ashamed. – “Yes.” – He nodded. – “ I admit that first time I thought of her but last night it was you. I knew it was you. You were the one who clouded my judgment. It was you who made me feel like a man again. You made me whole. You helped me mourn her. You helped me let her go!”– His voice trembled but he kept steady. I couldn’t hold back the tears anymore and I just buried my face in my hands and sobbed. – “I like you a lot Joo. You. Not my wife, Sun Mi. You! But I will respect your decision.” – He says softly and I could hear the hurt and sadness in his tone. He walked out of the room and up the stairs. I heard him slam the door to his room shut and I wonder if I had made a mistake when I told him we should stop.
The Nanny - Chapter 1: The Interview
The Nanny - Chapter 4: Fever
The Nanny - Chapter 6: Shaken
I wandered far from the house away from both Chansung and Khunnie they were both overwhelming. They were alike in some ways that it was actually scary. I sighed. I just wanted to cry and scream and just let out all my anger, my fears and frustrations out. I made my way to the back of the house just wondering what would be there.
It was a huge house and a huge estate and I wondered just who lived here. It was basically a mansion but a bit smaller. There was a huge garden maze and a fountain with a mermaid statue in the middle pouring water into it.
I wish I had my mother so I could asked for advice and just talk to her like my friends did with their mothers. I always envied that. I didn't know my mother but I truly missed not having her in my life. – “Oh mom I really need you.” - I whispered as I sat in the very secluded and huge backyard of the house caressing the pendant that hung around my neck.
My pendant suddenly got warmer and started to glow then the glow became brighter. It was too bright from me to keep my eyes opened. – “My baby.” - I heard a soft pleasant voice say.
I gasped and opened my eyes to see a young woman smiling at me as she approached me. Then I realized she looked exactly like the woman my aunt had said was my mother in many of the pictures she had in the family album. – “Mom?” - I asked barely audible. My heart in my throat and eyes widen in disbelief. I closed my eyes and rubbed them trying to erase the image but when I looked again she was still there standing in front of me.
“Yes baby. My beautiful Kyung Mi. You have grown into a beautiful young woman.” – Sais the woman standing before me.
I just kept staring in awe. How was it possible. She was dead right? She looked young. If she was my mom wouldn't she look older? I guess Chansung sensed my turmoil because he was instantly in my head. KyMi are you alright? Babe why are you so agitated. I didn't answer I just kept staring at my mother. Kyung Mi!
“I know this must come as a surprise to you but it's really me sweetie.” - My mother said.
“How?” - I asked still not sure if what I was seeing was real. – “How is this possible?”
“I asked a friend of mine to cast a spell on that pendant you have, to call to me when you were in need. Since we cannot use magic for personal gain. I had to ask someone else for it to work. So every time you need me I will come to you. Yes I am dead. But my spirit is still very much alive. I am watching over you my love. You called for me and here I am.” - I listened to her and then everything she said, everything that has been happening to me just came all crashing down in one huge heap of emotion and then a torrent of tears needed to be released as I began to cry.
“I'm so scared mom!” - I cried out it could hardly be understood.
“Hush my baby. Everything will be just fine.” - I felt her embrace me and it just made it worse all the longing I had felt for her came through and I cried even harder. Just knowing that I could touch her and feel her warmth was unreal.
I heard uneven shuffling and then heard Chansung. – “KyMi!” - I heard the shuffling stop and then Chansung's incredulous tone. – “Lim Myung Hee!”
“Chansung! Oh you have grown into a handsome young man. Thank you for keeping my baby safe.” - Myung Hee smiled tenderly at Chansung who gawked at her.
“Oh. I wondered about that. But how did she summon you?” - Chansung inquired still a bit confused.
“She wished I was here. It was something I asked my friend to do. When Kyung Mi voiced that she needed me it would be the key to summon me. She did so just now and here I am. I wonder what took her so long she never needed me until now. But I'm here only for an hour or so. I cannot be here for long the laws make it so.” - She explained.
“Oh. I see.” - He said wincing as he sat down beside me.
“What are you doing here Chansung? You are still weak and hurt.” - I asked in a little voice still thick with tears and despair.
“I felt what you were feeling and I couldn't stay away.” - He said as he caressed my cheek.
I leaned against him. – “I'm sorry I worried you...again.”
“I'll always worry about you even when you are with me silly. It's my job. Well not my job but it's what I feel...I just have the need to protect you always.” - He smiled gently as pressed his head against mine.
“Ah you both together is all I ever wanted. I am glad it has come to happen as it was meant to.” - Said my mother as she sat on the ground before us. We listened to what she had to say. – “Kyung Mi I am so sorry that you have had to go through this. He found you, didn't he? After all I tried to do to keep you hidden and safe. He found you.” - She seemed distressed.
“Who is he?” - I asked. After all I didn't even know that man's name.
“His name is Kim Young Shik. He is a very powerful Sorcerer.” - My mother explained.
“Sorcerer? Why not Wizard or Warlock or just plain witch? I mean I understand Chansung is a witch who prefers to be called Warlock but what really is the difference?” – I asked confused.
He is a man that creates magic and uses this magic to control anything and everything he desires. What he sets to do he can make happen.” - My mother said and it made me think about the time he had actually managed to control me and almost made me kill Chansung. I looked over to the man I had learned to love and saw he too was thinking about the same exact thing.
“No wonder he had control over me.” - I whispered.
“He took control of you?” - My mother asked shocked and turned to look at Chansung sternly. – “Did you not cast a protective spell? Did you not bond further?” - She asked a little forcefully.
“Yes, I temporarily lost my way and forgot to cast the spell but it has been casted and we are completely bonded. Nothing will happen to her. I promise Myung Hee.” - Chansung assured her and she nodded relieved - “Good. Good. Now you need to move. You cannot stay in one place for too long or he will find you. You need to get to Seong-Yeog chambers. This sanctuary will protect you from him and aid you in his defeat. You must get there quick! It is located up further north high up in the mountains of Hallasan in Jeju-do.” - I just listened and stared and drank in every detail of my mother’s face hoping to etch her features into my mind and try to remember her when she left me again. We talked for half an hour more then I began to notice how she slowly became weak.
She seems pale and tired and it was obvious her time was running out. – “Mom.” - I whispered in a shaky tone. –“I missed you and I will miss you when you leave again. I've missed you so much...”- My tone faded as I began to cry silently.
“Oh my baby!” - My mother embraced me tightly and kissed my forehead. – “I love you so much...”- Her tone was faded as well and I knew her time was up.
“Mom...I love you even if I never had the chance to know you. Aunt Seo Ji spoke a lot about you so it's like I know you. You’re leaving too fast and there is so much I need to ask.” - I sobbed into her neck as I clawed at her back tightly trying to keep her form with me longer.
“I know. You can summon me again in a few days...I love you but I have to go now...”- It was all a whisper as gold light flared all around me and my mother’s body became transparent. Then shimmered and disappeared within second.
“Mom!” - I sobbed as I collapsed to the ground.
“Shh...it's okay.” - Chansung was instantly beside me and took me into his arms to rock me as he tried to comfort me.
“It's not fair.” - I said after I calmed down tears still pooling in my eyes.
“Life is never fair but you got the best of it. You should count yourself lucky in a way you get to see your mother whereas others can't.” - He said with a wry smile.
"True. But it still hurts. I may be selfish wanting to have her by my side but I never asked to be a witch or be pursued by some creepy ass guy with bad breath." - I laughed halfheartedly then sobered up as I promised myself something - "I will destroy him for destroying my life and my family that is a promise." - I said with conviction feeling anger surround me."
Chansung laughed out loud - "Ah my feisty witch and I promise to help you destroy him."
My Protector, The Warlock: Chapter 1 - “The Awakening”
My Protector, The Warlock: Chapter 10 - “Energy Restoration Process
My Protector, The Warlock: Chapter 12 - The Contract
