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One Year in the Workforce
Where has the year?
This time last year, I was getting ready to start my first, real, grown-up job. I just left an internship which was the best and worst of times, and to be perfectly honest, the last few months were horrendous. I was excited, thankful, and most importantly TERRIFIED.
As busy season picked up and commenced, I kept my nose down and did my job; however, as the months progressed, the fear of being a failure and having the same horrendous experience happen again consumed me. I was constantly in my head, consumed with doubt and dread, all the while attempting to learn and provide a quality product. Sadly, my fears took over and my confidence took ANOTHER blow.
Which brings me to my oh so awesome mid year review.
The feedback was I'm easy to work with and eager to learn, but my technical skills aren't up to par in comparison to my peers. However, after meeting wtih my coach and completing several assignments, it hit me that I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING!
what?
Not only that, butl also the mistakes I made were silly.
Like for real?
What I learned was this: FEAR is extremely powerful and detrimental to my confidence. If my confidence is blown, then it is very difficult for me ot produce quality work. Also, I'm smart. What happened before was a result of fools that thought too much of themselves and wanted to force me to conform to what they wanted. (IRONY: The company had a big push for diversity, especially in the accounting/finance field. Yet, with my more sales/PR personality, it was deemed I wasn't a good fit by a few managers - NOT ALL. Just a few).
Although it is still difficult for me to completely forget about what happened during my internship, I've made a concientous decision to (a) not care what other people want me to be, (b) not allow FEAR (that sob) to rule my thoughts, dictate my actions and decisions, and affect my mood, and (c) make my dreams into plans, once and for all.
CPA
Friendships
Travel
Love
I'm excited to see what this year has in store, but I know that its what I make of it.
I'm ready