That’s What I Get
You walked into my life at a crazy time. You walked in as my world seemed like it was crumbling, and to you I clung like a child to their mother, for comfort and safety, because I knew you wouldn’t drop me. And my world did crumble, for a minute; and just as I predicted, you didn’t drop me. But as my world started to rebuild from rock bottom, I had to choose between you and the life that I had been living, the life that I love. and I of course chose the life I love. And now you’re dropping me. Change is terrifying, especially for those like me who get change forced upon them. I didn’t know how to embrace the kind of change that would mean you staying in my life, like I very much want you to. But the way you want to be in my life is impossible, at least with the path I see my life going in. So here you are, dropping me like I haven’t been there for you when your ‘best friend’ was treating you like shit, like I wasn’t checking in on you every hour when I knew you were suicidal. So here I am, invisible, lost, and broken, because when you drop glass, it shatters.