2019 is coming!
Yes, new year i coming. Another year, another experience.
Next year, you will be a full-time medical student, studying in Malang.
Just want to remind you, my 19 years old self,
I want 2019 to be the year of change, because i’m not a kid anymore. Change isn’t scary at all, we all change a bit everyday. BUT i want the change is to more like me. I want to be my truest self this year.
Nineteen, is the last year of my teen year. i will be 20 in 2020, such a scary part of life, so i want to be strict to myself.
A little hard on myself wouldn’t kill me, just make me stronger.
i want to follow my dream of becoming a doctor and i wont let anyone getting on my way, including myself. So i should really spend more time alone in 2019.
1. Please stop spending too much time on social media. Instagram is such a toxic app for a teenage girl who are struggling to bettering herself.
You will compare yourself with other girls of your age, or even younger. Wishing you have that kinda faces, body, social life. Not everything should be known by everyone. Private life is a happy life. Stop over sharing your joy to the world, they don’t care. People who hate you will use your information against you (remember how Greace treated you in high school? yes, that is because of you overshared things to the wrong bitch).
You will crave attention from people who don’t even know your true self. Yes you are allowed to share some moment of joy to remember in the future, but do not use instagram as your diary. Stick to the books, who will never bring hate and jealousy out of people. Don’t try to impress anyone by a social media, i am sure the right guy will love you through their eyes than through their phones.
2. Start reading books, valuable books.
Read people mind through what they write on pages, especially great people. Adopt a good mindset and practice making new concepts from reading books. You will find joy and great feelings by reading book.
Why? Because reading books mean entering a new world, of words. Through words you can learn something new, whether it is a fact, or opinions. That will make you understand of how you should live and feel about yourself, you will be more creative and imaginative. it will keep your inner child.
Spend some times of the day reading in your room, thinking about others, than yourself. Believe me, i think we both agree that we spent too much time thinking about useless things. Stop caring about those fuckboys who don’t even care about your needs and don’t respect you and your space. They don’t deserve you.
3. Be picky
yes, picky at EVERYTHING. Don’t be stupid.
Choose your surrounding. Please, you have to filtrate what you allow to enter your life. Not everyone are meant to be your friend as much as not every word have to enter your brain.
If a guy likes you, but you don’t like them, stop trying to like them because of pityness. Let them be. Let you be. Just follow your heart but always bring your brain with you.
Learn to say no, to the stuff you feel guilty about. Because you are a nice person. Just do your things, not others. Be the girl you have a vision of succeed, not the girl people expected from you. Not everyone want to see you succeed, believe me, people want you to be good, but not better than them.
Be picky about your food, eat only the healthy that brings your body good health. Be picky about your outfits, wear clothings that are comfortable for you and says enough good things about your personality. Be picky about your places, choose to be where you feel most you, experience things that you feel will bring the best of you. And lastly,
Be picky about how you act.
You are allowed to be angry, but you’re not allowed to hurt anyone in order to make them know that you are upset. You are allowed to be sad, but you are not allowed to drag somebody else into tears. You are allowed to be happy, but you have to only be happy when it brings out good in life.