Author’s Note: This is just a thing I came up with since it’s how I’m feeling at the moment. I hope you all enjoy it! It will be angsty and fluffy, so :)
I sat on my couch watching Ghost Adventures in the dark which is the only way you should really watch this show. Luke had been messaging me pictures of Calum drunk for the past hour and it’s actually been entertaining. The four boys had gone out since they had the next week off from promoting their new album. Calum was begging me to tag along, but I wasn’t really in the mood to go out and didn’t want to damper on their night. Although the bassist was reluctant of leaving me alone, he went with the boys anyway, yelling to me that he’d have a drink for me while he was heading out the door.
That was about three hours ago.
I was hugging my pillow as the GA crew walked through the abandoned prison, getting a lot of creepy noises and EVP’s when my phone began to ring. I jumped a bit at my ringtone, pausing the show before grabbing my phone, seeing that Calum was calling me. “Oh, Jesus,” I mumbled to myself, chuckling a bit at how this conversation’s going to go as I answered it, holding the phone to my ear. “Hello, Cal.”
“Y/N/N! Hi my sweet girl,” He slurred and I shook my head, biting my bottom lip.
“You feelin’ good, Cal?” I asked, grinning ear to ear as I heard the music booming in the background.
“I’m feeling pretty good, but it’d be so much better if you were here…” Calum mumbled and I frowned, twirling a piece of hair between my fingers.
“I know. I’m sorry, but I haven’t been feeling too great and you know I didn’t wanna ruin your guys’ night,” I told him again in case he forgot when I told him earlier. “Did you have a drink for me?” I asked, leaning my head against the palm of my hand.
“I did and boy, it was delicious. You would’ve loved it,” he muttered and I almost couldn’t hear him due to being in a loud bar. “I love you, Y/N.”
“You know I love you too, Cal,” I smiled sadly, knowing that I meant it way more than he did.
“N-No, I love love you. I have for so long,” the bassist slurred and my eyes widened, feeling my heartbeat beginning to pick up. My stomach churned, staying quiet for a moment as I replayed his words in my head, wondering if he meant it or not. I couldn’t hear any background noise and I furrowed my brows.
“Calum, where are you? I don’t hear anyone around you,” I mumbled not mentioning anything about what he just said as he sighed on the other end.
“I’m in the bathroom and I’m having so much trouble trying to get this belt off,” Calum told me and I couldn’t help but giggle, covering my mouth with my hand. “I have to go before I end up pissing my pants. Remember that I do love you, okay?”
“I love you too, Calum. Be safe,” I quietly spoke before he hung up. I set my phone back on the armrest, gnawing on my lower lip as I just thought about everything he told me. I rubbed my temples, groaning a bit as I continued my show, just needing to forget about it at the moment.
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I woke up to the sound of my front door opening, slowly sitting up on the couch as another episode of Ghost Adventures was playing on the tv, illuminating the dark room. I ran a hand through my hair, pushing the home button on my phone to see what time it was. 3:30 am. I let out a small yawn, getting up from the couch as Luke and Ashton walked into the living room, holding onto Calum as the brunette was laughing at apparently nothing.
“Hey, Y/N,” Michael smiled from behind the boys. I moved out of the way as I motioned for Luke and Ash to put Cal on the couch.
“Hi, Mikey,” I grinned, walking past the red-head, going into the kitchen to get a glass of water and a couple aspirin.
“Where’s Y/N!? I wanna see my girl,” Calum called out as I laughed, grabbing the full glass of water and aspirin off the counter before heading back into the living room, setting it down on the coffee table.
“I’m right here, Cal,” I smiled, sitting on the edge of the couch as his arms wrapped around my waist, nuzzling his face into my stomach. “You guys can go. I’ll take it from here,” I told the three boys as they nodded, whispering a goodnight before leaving my apartment. I looked back down at the drunk boy who’s attached to me, running my fingers through his soft hair. “Hey, I need you to take this for me, okay?” I asked, grabbing the aspirin off of the table.
Calum nodded his head, sitting up as I handed him the glass of water, placing the pills in his other hand. He quickly took them, scrunching his face up a bit as I chuckled. He finished the glass of water, placing it back on the coffee table before returning to his position he was in before. “You’re just amazing, you know that?” He asked and I went back to combing his hair with my fingers, humming in response.
“Why don’t you get some sleep?” I asked, prying his arms off me as I laid the blanket I used earlier to cover him up.
“I don’t wanna sleep alone,” Calum mumbled, his hand grabbing mine as I sighed softly, rubbing the back of his hand with my thumb.
“Alright, come on then,” I smiled softly, helping him off of the couch as he did a little cheer. I chuckled at his drunkenness, wrapping an arm around his waist as his arm rested on my shoulders. I brought him to my room, pulling the covers off a bit before dropping him onto the mattress. “Man, you didn’t help me once there, bud,” I laughed, huffing a bit as I went to my dresser, pulling out a large t-shirt for me to wear.
After changing into my night clothes, I walked out of the bathroom to the sight of Calum lying on my bed in nothing but his boxers… something he’s always done. I blushed a bit, not used to seeing him so exposed even though I should be since we’ve been friends for almost six years. I slid into the space next to him, pulling the covers up to my chin as Calum moved to lay on his side, facing me. “God, you’re so beautiful,” he whispered, raising his hand to softly touch my cheek.
“Calum…” I trailed off, trying to figure out what to say when he cuts me off.
“I love you so much. I really do,” the brunette breathed, scooting closer to me as butterflies soared around in my stomach, gently gripping my pillow, trying to keep my breath steady.
“I love you too,” I told him and he smiled, closing the distance between us to press a short kiss to my lips. Once he pulled away from me his eyes drooped, falling asleep in a matter of seconds as I laid there, eyes wide, trying to comprehend what the fuck just happened. Did Calum seriously just kiss me? Holy shit.
I moved to lay on my back, staring at the ceiling as tonight's events just continued to play in my memories on repeat.
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I woke up to an empty bed that morning, hearing constant talking coming from outside of my room as I let out a sigh. I glanced towards the alarm clock on my nightstand, seeing it was almost eleven in the morning. I slid the covers off of me, putting on a pair of sweatpants before heading towards the living room, seeing the boys sitting on the couch, chatting away about last night. “Morning,” I mumbled, rubbing my eyes as all four heads turned to me.
“Morning,” they chorused and I chuckled, finding it strange at how well they can time their responses at the same time. I walked into the kitchen, seeing some coffee already made as I grinned, leaning on my tippy toes to take a coffee mug out of the cupboard. I poured some coffee into the porcelain mug, adding a bit of caramel creamer to it, stirring it.
“Hey, I need to talk to you,” I heard Luke mutter and I looked up, seeing the concerned look on his face as I nodded, moving my coffee towards the island, leaning against it.
“What’s up?” I asked, taking a sip of the hot liquid.
“Calum doesn’t remember anything from last night,” Luke mentioned quietly and my stomach dropped, feeling like I’m going to vomit as I glanced towards the living room, seeing Calum laughing at something Ashton told him. “What happened here after we left?”
“Uh-Uhm, well, I made him take the pills I set out for him and he did then he told me that I was amazing. I didn’t really answer him, I just hummed as I was playing with his hair then after a couple of minutes I told him to try to get some sleep. He said he didn’t want to sleep alone so I let him stay in my bed with me last night, which is something we’ve done before. L-Luke, he told me about three times last night that he loved me. He even kissed me before he fell asleep and now he doesn’t remember anything,” I explained, beginning to breathe a bit heavy as I gripped the edges of the island.
Luke rushed around the island, standing beside me as he rubbed my back, whispering reassuring words into my ear but none of it was working. He doesn’t remember anything… does he actually love me? “What’s that saying… drunk words are sober thoughts?” Luke mumbled and I scoffed, shaking my head.
“Luke, come on, that’s not a thing! Calum made me so vulnerable last night with his kind words and actions and now I’m just going to get my heart broken because there’s no way he feels that way towards me. I’m so stupid…” I mumbled, on the verge of tears as I tore myself from his grip, rushing back to my room but not without gaining the attention of the other three boys.
“What’s wrong with Y/N?” I heard Calum asked as I closed my door, locking it before sliding my back down it. I sat on the floor, hugging my knees as tears streamed down my cheeks, hearing their hushed whispers. I let out rigid breaths, running my fingers through my hair as I tried to forget about last night.
A soft knock on my door made me snap my head up, squeezing my eyes shut as I pressed my lips together. “Please just leave me alone…” I begged, sniffling a bit, wiping my nose.
“Y/N? Please open the door,” Calum softly spoke from the other side and I shook my head, not wanting to see him. My lip quivered as a small sob escaped my lips resulting in the doorknob jiggle a bit. “Y/N, please,” he tried again, hearing the crack in his voice as I let out a sigh, slowly getting up from the floor.
I opened the door and he came in immediately making me step away from the door as he closed it, locking it behind him. I swallowed thickly, playing with my fingers as Calum walked up to me, going to wipe the tears off my face when I moved away from his hand. “Calum… don’t,” I whispered, my heart clenching at the heartbroken look on his face.
“What’s going on? Why are you crying?” He asked and I stayed silent, wondering if Luke told him about last night. “Luke told me why you were upset and honestly, I wish I could’ve remembered it.”
“Why couldn’t you do all the stuff you did last night when you were sober? When you could remember it? So I didn’t have to wonder if you actually had feelings for me or not…” I trailed off, tears brimming my eyes again as he sighed, moving his hand up to wipe my tears again, but this time I don’t move away from him.
“Because I can’t control what I do when I’m drunk and apparently I thought it’d be better to do it that way in case you didn’t feel the same,” Calum muttered and my eyes widened a bit, my heart fluttering in my chest.
“W-Wait, you actually love me? Love love me?” I asked in a hushed whisper as Calum smiled softly, moving some of my hair out of my face, nodding his head yes.
“I’ve loved you for five years,” he whispered, closing the distance between our bodies as I could feel the heartbeat in my chest quicken. “I’m sorry for making you cry.” I laughed a bit, sniffling as I wrapped my arms around Calum’s shoulders, holding him close to me.
“It’s alright, Cal. The sadness has been consumed by happiness,” I muttered into his ear, his hands resting on my lower back, rubbing softly. Calum pulled away from me after about a minute, his hand resting on the nape of my neck as his thumb stroked my jawline. He leaned down, pressing his lips against mine as my eyes fluttered shut, my stomach churning as my hand played with the hairs on the back of my neck.
I pulled away after a while, needing oxygen as I panted a bit, feeling Calum brushing his lips against mine. He moved his hands to my hips, moving me back towards my bed as I fell onto it, Calum crawling on top of me. He hovered over me, placing small kisses on my face as I giggled, resting one of my hands on his bicep. “I love you, Y/N.”
