#drunk vent

[weakanddependent]

I am standing on a lonsen train station at around 12 AM. I'm getting a reminisce about when I was when when when I was with my now, ex-girlfriend and Travel.

Ling And the only talks in my head of he's trying to go home no sorts of jumping from the train just and thoughts of getting home which is good. I guess my head is in a better place at the moment, I'm just getting drunk for the fun of it. Of course, I'm getting drunk just like the numb. Just the sense of pain that's still there. Obviously but it's better than a war up what it was couple of like 12 years ago, when it's just like every time most heroes just uh, hope she's okay. I hope I still I still obviously hope that she is OK, but Ever since we broke up, it's been better obviously.

I hope I still miss those times when I Wanna go on train right now. I'm gonna go home and then gonna get fall asleep. I'm drunk love you bye.

[felixwaffling]

I'm rocking back and forth and gagging rn bro this sucks. I hate it. I hate who I am so ficking much I just wanna be normal dude I can't this iscgonna get usedcagains5 me when I'm sober again so I'm REALLY sorry to future me I'd say don't hate me but I know you already hate me for not hanging myself rn

I hate my self and I hate my body And I hate that I do this to the people I love

[felixwaffling]

The random rushes of anxiety

The way my eyes hurt from crossing

The way my head is a jumbled mess of concerns and anger and sadness

The way I'm ALWAYS HORNY during it

The way my stomach hurts

The guilt.

The way I feel everyone hates me.

Every sound makes me feel sick.

Every movement makes me want to die.

I want to die.

I want to do something really really messed up.

I want to hurt people

I want people to hurt *me*

I'm seeing shit

My bones r locking up

I feel both tense and numb as the same time

I can't stop smiling

I can't stop staring

I can't stop thinking

I can't think

Everything hurts

Everything is numb

I need help but nobody can help me, I need to stop but I don't know if I believe the "no, but really, I could stop if it got bad lol"

I'm so fucking tired of every say being this cycle, I can't go a day without multiple drinks. I'd prolly have an apartment by now if I saved instead of giving M all my money for drinks.

I'm so tired.

I keep coughing

I can't like. Control my muscles

I feel so guilty

I feel so angry

I hate ppl who want me better, but I hate ppl who encourage me. I hate people who ignore me most.

I hate being blown off. My feelings are real. I didn't mean to hurt anyone but I was in pain I wanted to die so bad bro

I love his attention that fucking special kind I get when I'm drunk I love that shit I feed off of it

Oh my god I need him to rail me lol but like that's ever gonna happen he's probly repulsed by my body so like yknow sex is dumb anyways and nobody needs it least of all me I'm not needy hahah

[dracubellum]

So many people in my life talking about how many followers they have and how much views they get on tiktok and youtube and I really could give less of a shit. Just a bit irritated that I feel social pressure to strive for the same

[thatcoolpuppy]

Shoutout to the people that watched scott pilgrim vs the world before a relationship ended.

[mr-brightside-is-a-chick]

I did the free trial of Apple TV just for Wolfwalkers, and. Man

I’ve watched it five times now and cried every time. I can’t explain why it means so much to me, but between my favorite animation studio and such a lovely story- Shit idunno man, maybe I’m easily pleased but it’s so gorgeous...

Like it has the highly detailed background of cartoons of old, but it looks like it could move at any moment. The moving elements blend right in, and everything is conveyed between background and art styles and character expression! I.. It’s been a deep experience for me every time. I’m so happy to see their studio doing well.

Now I’m gonna cry into a corner on the soundtrack. Man I wish I could explain how it makes me feel, especially as a person who hates crying.

[bemineunderthestars]

You know I sit here wine drunk and I’m like suffering a lot with my mental illness lately and I’ve been whining about it to people and I am trying to help myself though it might not seem like it especiallysinceimdrinkingabottleofwinebymyselfthisdoesntcount but then I see on the TV what’s happening about 6 hours away from me in NorCal and all these people’s homes being devastated by wild fire and yeah we have wild fires down here in SoCal but they’re so bad up there and I sit here and I’m like “Bibi you dumbass. There’s people dying and losing their livelihoods up there yet you’re sitting on your bed feeling sorry for yourself because you’re having a hard time controlling your mental health. Buck up moron!” And I’m like these people are worse off than me I don’t have the right to be bitching about my mental health and what it’s doing to me when these people have nothing left at all. Ugh someone smack me

[black-thot]

It also sucks when when one of your closest friends can't even be happy for you but I'm sleep. Ima have a Mike Jones moment and glo up n shit.