#dta cas

[chitaquahq]

Dean was upgraded from realizing Castiel went behind their backs to become a god after Dean had defended him with all he got —> to almost losing Sam and being subjected to Cas abusing his power to get Dean to profess his loyalty and love forever —> to losing Cas and obsessing over finding a body and drinking himself to death to avoid the grief —> to becoming the ghost of the shitty apocalyptic version of himself that he saw died and therefore should be being mourned by his followers but no one knows he is dead —> to being forced by Chuck's survival paranoia to act forever as the dead Dean, depriving dead Dean of being properly mourned and himself of ever being seen as himself and not someone else.

Cas went from being sent to Kansas City to die as a distraction for endverse Dean to get a chance to shoot Lucifer —> to feeling Dean die and being completely sure he'd died because there is no him without Dean —> to being forced by principle to survive to rescue another fucking Dean that was cruelly sent to a dying world while his Dean was dead —> to witnessing Dean's body, having to deal with Lucifer, getting a personal funeral that is as much as he'll ever get —> to lying through his teeth about his Dean being dead and being unable to properly mourn because he needs to keep the hopes high for Chitaqua and he needs to keep this other Dean alive and he wants to fucking die and he can't —> to being forced to run Chitaqua now and wrestle with the knowledge that in his grief he almost lose another Dean and he wouldn't even know if it wasn't for Vera —> to being betrayed by one of the only people he knew and trusted before Chitaqua, so now he has to pretend his Dean is not dead, he is not mourning because Dean is not dead he's right there, they didn't lose at least once already, there is not some crazy dark plot that he can't begin to understand to keep the apocalypse from happening...

And that's like, just the very first four chapters of Map of the World.

[mayonnaisetoffees]

I'm aware this is a niche post but the parallels between DtA Cas and Halandil Fang like

Our story begins with the death of someone so close to me, where the tragedies of it didn't have to happen like this and it always had to end this way meet

I'm drowning in grief but we have a world to save so I have to squash it as best as I can

Nothing is the same as it was and everything is still happening as if his death meant nothing

Crashing out for the briefest moment but still then having to keep going because the sun comes up and another day is happening whether I'm ready or not

I'm being looked to as a leader when I handed back the mantle so long ago, do I even remember how to do this?

[casteeyell]

reckless/insouciant

my best friend

i miss my best friend so i have to listen to dad rock about it

[gayangelcrimes]

In honor of what'll be happening tonight/tomorrow in dta,

[latinocas]

🦋 FROM MY DTA CASTIEL PLAYLIST

TAKE THIS LONELY HEART by nothing but thieves

“All you have to do,” Cas says softly, “is remember how to stand up.”

The Game of God by Seperis, ch. 14.

[alecscudder1987]

all this excel spreadsheet talk and not one mention of dta cas. you know not the earth upon which you tread

[chitaquahq]

Godstiel thinking of Dean as is most loyal subject, his love for Dean being amplified yet distorted by his pseudo godhood, Cas being tormented by his need to reach to Dean and be in his presence and ultimately not daring to do so (he fell for him as an angel, but as a god he didn't dare disturb his humanity), just to sacrifice himself in the end anyway 'cause 1) he's crumbling under the weight of his failures and 2) because of Dean, yes Dean, the only person that will always get him to turn his fate around and change his mind.

Dta Cas having Dean as his only god, doing the impossible that is not dying but rather living for Dean when all he wanted to do was die, actually demanding and correcting Dean when he is sure about their bond in the way a subject would ask those things of their god, dta Cas being devoted to this Dean in a completely different way that he was devoted to his own Dean, them fading into each other until they are viewed as one and the same, therefore achieving the ultimate overlap / never being quiet apart or alone.

Dta Cas being in the worst possible scenario and yet getting everything Godstiel wanted while he lived in the world that did win the apocalypse.

[chitaquahq]

I love how much DTA plays on the actual episode.

The unsettling idea of someone clearing a space or the city of crotes to open a path for Dean? Or maybe it's the tiny fact that they want Dean to do something and they knew Dean would connect the dots for them?

Also, here you can visualize how much DTA Cas was trained and conditioned by endverse Dean. Of course Cas sees the absence of threats where no one else did —his Dean did that too.