#dta dean

[chitaquahq]

Endverse Cas couldn't stop looking at past Dean in that meeting. He was amused and happy to see this Dean trying to defend them, but buried deep beneath all that... He was so worried.

Can't believe DTA Dean ever believed that Cas didn't care about him because he wasn't his Dean. Baby boy, he kept stealing glances at you every chance he got.

[princessmadelines]

IN NOMINE DEAN ;

“Stand up, Dean Winchester. You kneel to no one and nothing. That was your right from the moment of your birth, and you took it back. All of it.”

— Map Of The World, Seperis

dean’s version of this. i’ll post them side by side soon!

[gayangelcrimes]

In honor of what'll be happening tonight/tomorrow in dta,

[deanhisnippleisout]

dta besties, looking for answers in the replies/tags as a very informal survey re dean. under the cut for late book 1 spoilers reasons

either the first time or on a reread, after the brownie bite, did you read dean as someone with a disability? if not, how do you personally classify his condition caused by the injury and illness? how do you define what a disability is? do you yourself have any disabilities?

just trying to understand how different life experiences & understanding of living with a disability might influence how someone would describe what’s happening with dean from that point on.

had a lot of good chats today unpacking how reads of dean are influenced when you have disabilities/chronic health conditions, and how that shaped our enjoyment of dta. just looking for a few more points of view.

i might elaborate on my thoughts if i get any feedback lmao but for now i’m sleeby. been thinking about dta dean all day (even more than usual somehow) and as someone who currently has a similar physical condition, i’m curious how that might be affecting my opinion/emotions. unforch my illness didn’t involve getting a gnarly animal bite, conversing with deities and kissing an alternate version of my best friend/current only friend because i think I have to seal a magical deal. tooth infections are a little less interesting (although i’m sure sep’s prose could change that)

*edit* just adding because i don't think i was clear the first time, i'm not willing to engage in any ableist discussions around this. if someone doesn't read dean as disabled at all after these kinds of discussions, that isn't the kind of discourse i want to platform.

i'm hoping to be able to collate points of view about the semantics of the classification the word disability, to gain some knowledge i don't personally have. most people aren’t maliciously ableist about this, and ideally in the future, discussing how impactful dean being disabled has been to me and many others, will help all dta fans have a better understanding & a richer reader experience together.

thanks!

[latinocas]

The way DTA Dean is convinced no one in Chitaqua truly sees through his charade and they only see the other (dead) Dean when they talk to him, but most things they new about dead Dean were like myths and tales, while they know this Dean so well, they are so comfortable around him, it's like they're family.

Where is the "I don't need to know your entire story to know who you are" quote. I need it now.

[chitaquahq]

🦋 DTA FAMOUS QUOTES

“You can't see me, can you?”

“That depends,” Castiel answers shakily, “on how you interpret 'see'.”

Map of the World by Seperis, ch. 8.

[chitaquahq]

We have Castiel of Chitaqua and Dean, right?

But have you ever thought about endverse Dean and Godstiel? "Chronically straight" Dean and "I'd become a god to obtain him" Castiel?

Mr. "I created an apocalyptic cult to run my army to fight Lucifer" and Mr. "I opened the gates of Purgatory and ate souls to get the power to fight heaven"?

Just saying.

[chitaquahq]

Dean was upgraded from realizing Castiel went behind their backs to become a god after Dean had defended him with all he got —> to almost losing Sam and being subjected to Cas abusing his power to get Dean to profess his loyalty and love forever —> to losing Cas and obsessing over finding a body and drinking himself to death to avoid the grief —> to becoming the ghost of the shitty apocalyptic version of himself that he saw died and therefore should be being mourned by his followers but no one knows he is dead —> to being forced by Chuck's survival paranoia to act forever as the dead Dean, depriving dead Dean of being properly mourned and himself of ever being seen as himself and not someone else.

Cas went from being sent to Kansas City to die as a distraction for endverse Dean to get a chance to shoot Lucifer —> to feeling Dean die and being completely sure he'd died because there is no him without Dean —> to being forced by principle to survive to rescue another fucking Dean that was cruelly sent to a dying world while his Dean was dead —> to witnessing Dean's body, having to deal with Lucifer, getting a personal funeral that is as much as he'll ever get —> to lying through his teeth about his Dean being dead and being unable to properly mourn because he needs to keep the hopes high for Chitaqua and he needs to keep this other Dean alive and he wants to fucking die and he can't —> to being forced to run Chitaqua now and wrestle with the knowledge that in his grief he almost lose another Dean and he wouldn't even know if it wasn't for Vera —> to being betrayed by one of the only people he knew and trusted before Chitaqua, so now he has to pretend his Dean is not dead, he is not mourning because Dean is not dead he's right there, they didn't lose at least once already, there is not some crazy dark plot that he can't begin to understand to keep the apocalypse from happening...

And that's like, just the very first four chapters of Map of the World.