It's been a really long time that I've told my friends what they mean to me and I don't want you all to forget that behind all the jokes and taunting, I'm extremely grateful to have you guys in my life.
I wanted to write separate letters for everyone and expand upon my thoughts and feelings but I don't have much time today and even though I will one day, that day is not today, not yet. I'm hoping this post could somewhat bring a smile on your faces, and reassure you that I never did nor will I ever purposely hurt you.
I'll be pretty busy this semester with my classes and I want to focus on my studies so I can keep my scholarships and have good grades. So I probably will be online very rarely and only for short amount of time. I don't want to fade away from your lives like I will slowly disappear from your dashboards. Even more, I don't want you guys to think I'll forget you because even though I'll be drowning in endless paperwork and books, it's nothing that can replace or cover companionship.
I need all of my followers to know that I love you and care about you. Even if we've never talked or you have less than nice things to say about me. If I ever seemed to be unapproachable, it's probably because I'm irritated by other things or that my sarcasm went too far. If I've ever offended you, I'm sorry. I don't take myself seriously most of the time so I hope you guys will forgive my tone of voice.
To all the people who I share a mutual following with but don't converse much with, it's probably because you're really cool and I'm not cool enough to be friends with you. I wish we could be closer but I don't think now is the best time to begin friendships since I'll reply to you very late and you might take it personally. I probably also really like your theme and/or graphics and visit your blog more than normal. I think about writing you a message but decide against it later then repeat the process.
To those who have drifted away from me, I miss you. Whether it was distance, time or other differences that drifted us apart, I wish it didn't have to be this way. I still consider us friends even if it's been a while since we've talked. Please understand my silence. I will always be here to comfort you and even if you've forgotten about me, I still think of you.
And here, I will write different letters addressed to specific people. I can't write a letter for everyone since my space is limited and my joints have problems, but I will continue in another post later on.
Dear padre Liz,
thank you so much for being my friend and talking to me about every subject under the sun, moon and stars. What with my family issues, it's hard for me to open up to someone without feeling like I'm being a burden and I really appreciate you listening to me and giving me advice. Your calmness is something my life really needs because both my parents have explosive tempers. While you're only a few years older, I feel truly protected with you around just like a family member. I've received a lot more from you than I've given but I don't know how to repay all the tears you've saved me from shedding and all the laughter you've given me. I always look forward to whatever links you tweet to me and every time I remind you how old you are is really equal to a "thank you and i love you i'm sorry". I can't think of anyone else in life who is even close to your level of maturity, wit and understanding. You're truly a blessing my life, I don't think I would have stayed on tumblr if it wasn't for you and I'm extremely glad I decided to follow you and talk to you. I really could go on and go forever but I'll save for the package that I'll be sending you soon.
Sweet Misha,
your insecurities cut me open sometimes and I hurt for you because you are beautiful in so many ways. You're so gentle and caring but you don't let yourself think that. I wish I could cradle you in a rocking chair and help you forget people's judgments about you and tell you over and over that you are wonderful and irreplaceable. Your presence in my life was a refreshing change initially but now it's a necessity because even if you're silent during our group skype chats, I need to know you're there and that you're okay. I want to include you in everything so you know how important you are to me even if I can't really because you're invaluable.
Dumb Jeremy,
even now, I can't think of anything sweet to say to you because I think it's clear by now that we're in a heechul and sohee kind of relationship despite our forced marriage. I'm pretty sure I first followed you and when you followed me back, we somehow became spouses one day randomly because I don't recall receiving a proposal ever. But if I really didn't like you I would have stopped giving you so much attention a very long time ago. I'm not sure what kind of relationship we truly have but it's one where I think about you a lot and worry about you whenever I hear news of the Philippines; where it doesn't really matter what we label us because I've told you that I love you because of your everything. I cringe at a lot of things you tell me but I really appreciate you being there like my shadow even if you're so far away physically. I wouldn't mind being really married to you.
Baby Xin,
I've seen so much of the real you and even though you're confused of a lot things and have gotten attention for some not so great things, I'm proud of your growth here on tumblr and in real life. I've watched over you for a long time and I still like the fact that you have so many things in my tag on your blog. You're really special to me because we are able to troll each other without boundaries yet be sincere about everything. I can't be around you to give you encouragement but know that I will love and support you always. I know you're very stressed about tumblr and you also help your friends out whenever you can but it's a side a lot of people don't know and I feel the need to protect you from all the people who misunderstand you.
My Sehun Nancy,
we are almost as tragic as hunhan, aren't me? Separated by thousands of miles yet still located in the same country. Sometimes I feel so distant from you because you are always away and I don't know much about you beside exo related things. I wish we could talk more personally but I really appreciate the time you confided in me with your family problems. Your trust in me is something I treasure because I know you don't easily give it to anyone and having been your loyal follower and faithful friend for so long, People treat you like a resource blog and demand a lot of things from you but ignore the fact that you have your own life to attend to. I wish you'd know that you don't have to hold it all in, it's okay to take breaks and get personal once in a while. Maybe you've been hurt and don't want outsiders to know too much about you but I'm here to offer you a shoulder to always lean on and I want you to know you can share anything with me. Whether it's pain, stress, happiness, embarrassment, or anger, I'm here to listen.
Ting Ting,
I think we've known each other for over a year and since we live in the same state, it's as if we are friends in real life as well and just live far away. I will await the wondrous day that you come to UGA so we can hang out, go shopping and be roommates. We have so much in common and even though sometimes we don't talk for days, I want you to know I still consider you one of my closest friends. I really miss when you and Marie and I used to have tinychats and talk about dumb things and beast. Since you are both seniors this year, work hard and we'll all reunite one day! I hope you know that I'm here for you no matter what. If you want to talk about anything, I'm all ears~!
Beautiful Flora,
you're seriously one of my favorite people on tumblr because you are so sweet all the time and have no flaws. I'm glad we've bonded over the months and it feels like we've known each other for so long. I still have that reply you made me once when you told me to take a break from tumblr because I was getting stressed over all the anonymous messages and how you want to take a break too because people are disrespectful with reposting. I can tell you just enjoy making gifs and love Infinite but don't have to ability to be mean to people who can't just reblog things. Your beautiful personality shines through your responses and the way you interact with others. I know you do have a busy schedule yet you still set aside time to talk to me as well as answering questions in detail. You're a ray of sunshine for my dashboard and inbox, thank you.
1. First impression: "omg, please be in my grade, please be in my grade."2. Truth is: I miss youu3. How old do you look: 74. Have you ever made me laugh: yes5. Have you ever made me mad: no6. Best feature: Your hardworking at-ti-tood7. Have I ever had a crush on you: noo8. You’re my: lil asian. 9. Name in my phone: Meziah 10. Should you post this too?..yea eue
1.) PUT YOUR IPOD , WINDOWS MEDIA PLAYER, ETC. ON SHUFFLE.
2.) FOR EACH QUESTION, PRESS THE NEXT BUTTON TO GET YOUR ANSWER.
3.) YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4.) TAG 5 FRIENDS. (INCLUDING THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS)
5.) EVERYONE TAGGED HAS TO DO THE SAME THING.
6.) HAVE FUN!
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Who Dat- J.cole. i can already tell this will make no sense
2.) HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Fast Lane- Royce da 5'9. when did i even dl this
3.) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Hate Sleeping Alone- Drake. sex?
4.) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
I Wanna Be- Chris Brown
5.) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Rest Of My Life- Kevin McCall. wat
6.) WHAT’S YOUR MOTTO?
Lets Go- Cartel- WHERE DID MY KPOP SONGS SO OMG
7.) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Foreplay- Tank. um.
8.) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
I Need A Dollar- Aloe Black. asdfghjkhgfdfghjk
9.) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Lemonade- Jeremy Passion. WAHT
10.) WHAT IS 2+2?
Melt My Heart to Stone- Adele & Kanye & Jayz. cause that just makes so much sense.
11.) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT YOUR BESTFRIEND?
MAMA- exo k. why
12.) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Sweet Life- Frank Ocean. yes.
13.) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
level 1000- Jay Park. lolol
14.) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Know Your Name (R&B version)- Jay bby.
15.) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
P.I.M.P- 50 cent. IM CRYING GERG/WFGU
P.I16.) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
너 없이 안돼- Jay Park. My family would be so confused.
17.) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY?
Hey You-CN BLUE. okay.
18.) WHAT ARE YOU SCARED OF?
She- Tyler The Creator. makes sense.
19.) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
I Love You- Jay park. :'''c
20.) WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Grade 8- Ed Sheeran. no. never going back.
21.) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
ABANDONED- JAY PARK LOL. what is happening to my kpop honestly. you'd think i just had jay.
22.) WHAT WILL YOU NAME THIS POST?
Give Me Love- Ed Sheeran. lOVE ME
23.) HOW MATURE ARE YOU ?
Ain't no fun- BIGBANG. oh.
24.) WHATS YOURE FAVORITE THING TO DO ?
Sherlock- SHINee. okay.
25.) WHAT DO YOU DO WITH YOUR FAVORITE PERSON ?
History- exo k. *confused face*
26.) WHAT WOULD YOU SAY TO A STRANGER IF THEY TOLD YOU THEY LOVED YOU?
Honestly- SHINee. lets hope they speak korean.
27.) WHATS THE LAST THING ON YOUR MIND BEFORE FALLING ASLEEP?
MOSTER-BIGBANG. dammit you guys.
28.) WHATS THE FIRST THING ON YOUR MIND WHEN YOU WAKE UP?
Tonight- Jay Park. K.
29.) WHAT ARE YOUR GOALS IN LIFE ?
Lovely Day @SS4 Osaka- Super Junior. anything with SJ is fine by me.
30.) IF I TOLD YOU I LOVED YOU WHAT WOULD YOU SAY ?