Changes in Self
Change. We are surrounded by it. We live in a constant state of flux where nothing is ever like we left it. Life and people are ever changing. They grow, evolve, and transform whether you want them to or not. Nothing ever stands still. Nor should it. Change makes the world interesting. It allows people to better who they are and develop who they really are.
Three months ago I looked at who I was and what design meant. Three months ago I thought I had a pretty good idea of what I was doing as a designer and what this field that I belonged to was all about. Since then I have seen and experienced so much that what I thought three months ago, it's just not the same as what I think now. And I'm a different designer because of it.
When I think about my experiences and how I've changed over the last three months, it looks like this. With ups and downs, my journey has been that of a rollercoaster. From the "What is Design" revelation, to the realisation that design and advocacy often go hand in hand. From confusion of what was even meant by "Thoughtless Acts" to the clear understanding that followed. From brushing off brainstorming and logical ideation, to a comprehension knowledge of why they are so important to design. From the stressed overload that was the Minor Charrette, to the easy, free flowing event that was the Major Charrette, over this short period a lot about me has changed. When I started this journey the process of design was barely the process of getting out a pen and notebook and drawing something up. It was the concept of creativity and artistic nature of people. Since then I have come to realise that design is a process of problem solving and that it has the ability to affect many other branches of life, much like it does with advocacy. Not only that, but how planning, ideation and prototyping provide much needed tools within the process of design, making design much less of a two dimensional concept.
During the first week of my journey I was asked to draw up a tattoo that represented me as a designer. My design style was bright and colourful but also structured and purposeful. When I first started off as a designer and an artist, I was very focused on photography, specifically that of nature and flowers, so I wanted that to reflect in my tattoo. As both a creative graphic designer/ photographer and IT programmer, I wanted my tattoo to reflect both sides of me as a designer. With this in mind I drew up this tattoo. With a pink, flowing flower as the artistic nature and the green, sharp leaves as the IT influence, my tattoo was born.
Although my art style and influences haven't changed, my understanding of design has and thus the tattoo needed a revamp. Keeping with the same base design but simply adding more detail, representative of my deeper understanding of design itself, an updated tattoo was formed.
The change in design is not too extreme as to change my design roots and influences, but enough to signify the depth of change these three months have had on me. After re-designing my tattoo I revisited the definition of design my peers and I had created at the start of this three months. Long and wordy, the definition still summarised the overall concept of design as a whole, but as a personal definition, I found it very broad and unspecific. My goal now was to find a definition for design that fitted me and my personal understanding and beliefs. Using both my new tattoo and the original definition as a base, I made a more focused definition, entirely representative of me.
The definition still covered the major themes of communication and problem solving within design, but now also focused on the creative and technical aspects of it. This more concise definition conforms strongly to who I am as a designer and what my perception of design is for my work.
Armed, with my new understanding of who I am as a designer, I was asked to look at the future. Five years forward to what I wanted to be and to do as a designer. What my goals were for the next five years as a designer. Although advocacy and design are both strong parts of who I am, I find more joy in doing them as separate activities. Designing for creative purposes rather than designing practical items in solution to problems. Thus where I plan to be in five years focuses more on my graphic design work more than anything else.
Change happens. There is no avoiding that. Over the past three months I have seen a lot of change in both myself and my understanding of design. It has taken what I knew and expanded it. Allowed my personal ideologies and understandings to grow and develop into something much more than what they were. Allowed me to have a much more sophisticated and deepened understanding of design itself and what it means to be a designer. Design is a complex concept and now because of this journey I have taken, I have the ability to understand so much more of it.




