Sep 6, 2020
HI I just found this song (”Nothing goes away” by Amy Bezunartea) and..... please consider.
#( ooc )#( tbd )#pleAS#E CONSIDER#just consider.#consider what? consider... ur muse.... and nestor....#nestor @ them.... likely....#this artist is makin me FEEL things .....#the MOST bittersweet shit I've heard in awhile#Wreckage is another gorgeous one and please gOD I recommend her.... pls let me scream @ u about#''Wreckage'' is another absolutely gorgeous and bittersweet one and.... please gOD I recommend her ....#.......just........gently nudges u............... please consider: the soft.. sort of angsty..... feeling that Nothing Goes Away brings#about >:'']c the whole... feeling of.. not wanting / being able to let go of smthng/a way of living/ etc and like#the...fear.... of doing so.... smthng holding them back..#a painful and clearly reluctant refusal or-- rather a.. whats the word...#REJECTION.. THATS THE WORD .... there we go#him: gently letting down ur muse.... or like. the whole .. painful. reluctant and fearful yet clearly reciprocated feelings that he feels#he should not or cannot accept or reciprocate and hfhf him bein full of shit but also... maybe.. not....#anyway here u go im . exhausted but THROWS this into ur lap and conks tf out#my words are jumbled and my thoughts are super disorganized tonight (i. apologize#jfudisk for doing so anyway and subjecting yall to the mess anyway only for the sake of pain)#( tldr nestor loving ur muse back but letting his fear get the better of him#and giving into it instead of working thru it#instead of changing and growing. and rejecting any further development (general or romantic rlly) of their relationship#>:[ i wish i could do words better rn....#this song makes up for it hydfgu explains it better#verbalization is difficult and idk how yall do it everyday