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Day 15: Ego-Busting & Wisdom Against it.

I'm still absolutely shattered from work as I had only 4 hours of sleep and spent today at our first day of our 40-day promotions  and have only just made it back home after a quick supper. But nevertheless, a daily blog is a daily blog and if I don't do it, nobody will! 

As you've noticed, I decided to make an effort since I will be doing direct sales so I actually put some makeup on to the point my sister didn't recognise me when I went to start my shift. Too much makeup maybe? Sometimes I feel that our local trannies are a lot better dressed and made up that most women these days. I found that the benefits of the top ceramic braces are that they're not very noticeable until up close, which is absolutely brilliant since a few of my family members have approached me wondering where my braces were. My braces are slightly more obvious in this picture but still not too bad considering how self-conscious I am about them.

It was indeed, however, a test on how self-conscious I was about them today whilst interacting with customers. I felt that I wasn't as confident as I used to be and I wasn't able to sell as well out of worry of slobbering on customers and feared how they'd judge me on my looks even though I know that my braces are not as obvious as I think they are. At the same time, I know that it's been a blow on my ego because guys walk away when they see me talk or smile when they approach me during my shift.  

"Holy shit I know what she ate for lunch and more." 

It kind of became a disintegration of self confidence from then on: I then began to worry about the weight I gained, and also whether my clothes were nice enough, and then I started to doubt my sales skills. It's funny how braces can really lead a chain-reaction in reducing your ego. But I must remember that there were many other factors that could have affected my sales and I must remember how important it is to not obsess about my looks.

So tomorrow will be a day of new goals:

1. I will firstly not try to hide my braces. If I try to smile without my braces, I truly look like a duck. Smiling with teeth baring out may just look alright since my braces have been told to be not that noticeable. You better not be lying bitches or I'll come get you.

More this:

Less this:

2. Less snacking. Ever since I've moved home, it's so easy to eat so much all the time. And age doesn't help with my metabolism. It's Ramadhan tomorrow so I know that will help but probably the least healthy way to lose weight. Healthy food to break fast and to not fall for desires so much. Yes that dress I bought today will be the last thing I buy. 

3. Remember that I'm trying to sell products and not myself. If you can present your product well enough, you will look godly in the eyes of the customer.  If you can shine as a person, you will shine everywhere. Even out of your ass. Less duck face, more product selling. Avoid slobbering on customers.

Beautiful.

4. Also remember that there are always assholes whom might make a fuss about your braces. You'll feel a bit down, but you know what - you are who you are and don't you forget it and braces won't change that. 

And you're sexy, that's what. 

Hopefully that I will heed my own advice and have a more successful day of promotions. As I mentioned, it's also the start of Ramadhan so it will be interesting how this will affect my braces care. I predict dry lips, ulcers, and my increased obsession to brush my teeth to avoid bad breath. But first, let's see if I can overcome my exhaustion during fasting month!

Ramadhan Kareem to all whom are fasting and go Team Braces for those who've have had their ego busted! We are that fucking awesome. 

It truly is bedtime now.