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[elthewriteronly]

❝Huling Gabi❞

Ang gabi ay puno ng ilaw. Ilaw na kung saan minsan galing sa mga bituin pero madalas galing sayo. Ang gabi ay malamig, sing lamig ng ihip ng hangin ng pighati pero madalas sing lamig ng mga tingin mo sa aking mga mata. 

Ang gabi ay minsa'y masaya pero madalas malungkot dahil ang gabi na ito ay pakakawalan na talaga kita mahal. Bibitawan ko na ang mga alaala ukol sa mga tawa ko dahil sayo at ngiti mo dahil sakin. 

Papakawalan ko na ang mga kamay na hindi na sa akin kumakapit. 

Mahal, salamat. Ang gabi na ito ay sigurado na ako na iiwan na kita gaya ng pag-iwan mo sakin. Ang gabi na ito ay malaya ka na mahal. 

Malaya ka na simula sa gabi na ito mula sa puso kong durog na durog pero handang buuin para sa sarili. Mahal ang gabi na ito ay ang huli kong pagngiti at pagtawa sayo. 

Ang gabing ito ay ang huli. Wala ng isa, dalawa, tatlo, dahil wala ng bibilanging bituin kasama ka. Wala na. Ito na ang huling gabi, mahal. 

Paalam, aking prinsipe sa panaginip. 

|spoken poetry⁰¹|

[glimpseofstardust]

What More?

I dont know what more to hold onto.

Even when someone who promised never going, they eventually go. Even someone who told me repeatedly that he loves me, he eventually go. The same someone who promised to love me dearly, but now it is no more other than three-meaningless-words.

What more to hold onto?

When he changed, when he being someone I dont even know anymore. Even when he had a chance to be with me, he doesn’t want to.

What more to hold onto? When you love someone but he is no longer feel the same way.

It’s hurt. When you had your days with them. Glorious days indeed. But now there’s no more to expect, to look forward to.

What more to hold onto? When you had no-one next to you? No one to lean your shoulder to. No one to wipe out your tears.

What if we’re all actually alone? We already know that there’s no happily ever after. So what are we chase after?

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[glimpseofstardust]

LENGSER!

Akhirnya resmi lengser dari OSIS.

ga kerasa ya udah 2 tahun.

tadi pas apel pagi, gw sempet merefleksikan..

tentang 2 tahun terakhir gw di OSIS, dan mungkin di SMA.

well, banyak banget yang udah lewat..

banyak kesalahan yang harusnya ga terjadi, banyak air mata, banyak tawa, banyak kemarahan.

dan gw baru bisa melihat.. seberapa jauhnya gw udah melangkah. gw bukan lah seorang anak ABG yang pake kacamata dan pemberontak. kacamata gw udah digantikan dengan softlens. dan sikap pemberontak gw makin lama makin berkurang.

dan segampang itulah gw menyadari.. SMA adalah titik balik hidup gw. Gw inget dari praktikum biologi daun. Gw inget rapat OSIS pertama gw di perpustakaan. Masih dengan bu Yeni. Gw inget perpisahan kecil-kecilan dengan bu Yeni, sampe tangisan gw yang ga ada abis-abisnya pas Bu Yeni menghadap Tuhan. Gw juga inget setiap rapat yang bikin gw ketawa mati-matian. sampe sakit hati pas acara ga sukses. Dan akhirnya, pelantikan OSIS 2013-2014. Semua terekam dengan baik di memori gw

akhirnya gw menyimpulkan.. gw ternyata sudah beranjak dewasa bung. 

dan gw inget apa kata bu nuri.. "Perubahan akan selalu ada. Satu-satunya yang ga akan berubah di bumi ini, adalah perubahan itu sendiri."

[glimpseofstardust]

Sweet 17th birthday dinner

Thankyou :""")) that's what I could say.. First of all, for mommy and Elsa, who have spent lots of time to prepare my dinner.. Thank youuu :') Second, Sally, Mega, and Rieva who have literally spent all of your efforts to organize everything :') including the unending surprises :3 Third, Chris, who have helped Sally so muchhh, thank you for organizing the surprise :3 and thank you for the video and the gift :3 Forth, Ko Darwin, Ci Beatrice, Rere, Toto, Mary, Pohan, Dudu, Ko Recca, Sebastian, Ci Didi, Ci Yolen, and Ronald for coming and thank you for the surprises :3 especially ko Darwin who have spent lots of time captured the photos and recorded the video :3 Fifth, Mike, Ci Nita, Ci Nur, Ci Neneng, Tata for the flashmob :3 couldnt ask for more surprising surprise :3 thank you for every efforts you've put on <3 Sixth, Bonita, Chrisanti, Michael Lee, and Marla who have agreed to cherish the situation with your beautiful voices :3 Seventh, my classmates from XI Social, Grace, Cynmag, Vivian, Sindy, Hanna, Vero, Farhan, Angel, Marla, Kalef, Davit, Septyan, Astrid, Hera, Tari etc for the video suprise :3 Eighth, my other student council friend, for the surprises :3 and including David! Hahahahaha Ninth, Cella, Irene, and their family for coming, thank you so much soul sisters :* tenth, Vhelenthynchietha, thank you for cherish this moment with me :3 Eleventh, CIYOP family, Luci, Chika, Sally, and Nesia, thank you for coming and cherish the situation :3 Twelfth, Andi and Billy who have came and kongkow again :3 it has been almost 2 years since the last time :P Thirteenth, my whole family, thank you for coming and for the videos :3 couldnt ask for a better gifts :3 Fourteenth, my teachers who also have put their efforts on making the videos, in between your busy schedules :3:3 The last but not least, thank you God who have given me such lovely people around me, who have been there with me thru rainy days and storms, who have accepted me for who I really am, and who have cherish every precious moments with me. Thank you God for your blessings thru all these years, bless and guide us thru years ahead, so that we can be what we want to rejoice Your name even more. Amen.

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[glimpseofstardust]

Grateful🙏

Grateful. I'm grateful. To those who left, thank you. You left me. It brought me down, it destroyed me. But I bounced back, I fought. I moved on, I learned to let go. I learned to forget things. I know I'll be better. And now I am. Thank you for making me stronger and tougher. Thank you for making me learned new thing To never trust people easily, to never fall to deep, to never have my feelings carry myself. Thank you for opening my eyes :)