#elle thoughts

[animetrashandotheraesthetics]

hi chat am I insane for wanting to write a baby saja x f!reader where f!reader is jinu's sister that he abandoned who ended up making a deal w the devil, i.e., gwi-ma, to try and get her brother back because she could tell that he was taken by something else by the way he kind of devolved into this selfish jerk but then surprise when saja boys show up!! and she's like oh, there you are and tries to reconcile and then separately something about a plotline with baby saja lmao

[ellearts]

I wish some people were interested in my art process or how I did smth or like. Asking stuff. But I'm no writer sadly

[elle--nic]

I think one of the incredible components of Killing Eve is not just that Eve is getting darker or that Villanelle is getting softer... It’s that, on a characteristic  level, they are both moving towards one another. Villanelle has, in the first season especially, established herself as emotionally detached (both due to her line of ‘work’ and her psychopathy) excluding a few moments whenever Eve is involved (even her relationship with Konstantin is only one of circumstance). Eve, in the first season, was introduced as a character with an unacknowledged brilliance and was quite a bit more reserved, both in her work and with her husband, than she has been in this second season. 

But it’s in season two, namely the latest episode ‘Desperate Times’ that has really revealed, in an almost tangible way, that these women are so attuned to one another that they are changing themselves from thousands of kilometres away from the other. Eve is, allegedly, stood firmly on the right-hand side of this spectrum of darkness (where she is a good wife and a good worker and does not fiddle with knives or stab people and is conflicted by wearing gifts she has received from a known assassin). Villanelle is, contrarily, stood firmly of the left-side (where she does not feel remorse, does not express genuine emotion and does not think twice about killing someone to suit her own agenda). But during the second season, we the viewers are privy to the delicate shuffle both are making closer to the centre of the spectrum; Eve away from the right, and Villanelle away from the left. 

Eve is embracing her obsession, she is becoming more detached from her husband, she grows more restless in her marriage where before she found at least some contentment. Villanelle is more and more desperate for Eve’s attention, she is more genuinely emotional than we have ever seen her, enough so that she openly weeps and stares at herself as she does so, and finds some hopeful joy at the end of it. She cries for her genuine pain in not seeing Eve, being so far away from someone that she, in an admittedly twisted way, loves. 

So, yes, I think these two characters are metamorphosing before our eyes, but no, I don’t think that Eve is simply growing dark, or Villanelle is simply getting softer. I think they are, episode by episode, becoming like each other. And if that is not an indication of mutual love (or at least obsession), then I’m not sure what is.

[animetrashandotheraesthetics]

don't mind tofu (cat) in the background lol

I'm crying at how much I love these stickers and springy Sunarin 🖤 omg omg tysm for making what you make @awaari !!

[ellearts]

I cant belive you used to be everything to me and now..

[ellearts]

Goodbye Shatzi. I love you. I always will 💖

[animetrashandotheraesthetics]

Heyyy!!! I just wanted to pop by here and say thank you again for your baby saja series, I just reread it on ao3, and fell back in love with all the characters 😭 Your writing style is so so good, and I just love everything about that series.

(Also, I was just in a rut from fics to read cause I was lwk bored of most of my fandoms, but your reposts got me into lads!! I literally have never played before, but I know all the characters and some of the lore now 😭)

Anyways, thanks again for your beautiful writing, as well as lads stuff! <333

omg hiiii how are you!! I am so mad that my hyperfixation faded literally I KNOW how I want the series to end 😭 I'm so sorry 😭 one day, one day lol

you are so so so sweet thank u for ur kind words 🙂‍↕️🫶 and YAY I LOVE WHEN PEOPLE FIND NEW FANDOMS HOPE U ENJOY LADS pls feel free to come yap about lads always happy to!! 💛🌟 have a wonderful day!!!

[animetrashandotheraesthetics]

5–10 for the ask game!

HI HOW R UUUUUU hope ur well 💛 THANK UUUU

5. Drink of choice: Water, lmao. I had a friend comment recently being like "hey do you actually drink anything besides water? I've never seen you drink anything else. My go-to cafe order is honey oat milk latte or oat milk hot coco, though!! (My daily caffeine is one cup of green tea, been a big fan of genmaicha recently)

6. Hair routine: I recently went blonde after going abroad and being in a country where people actually knew how to cut/style/dye my hair!! So now I have three different shampoos and conditioners, and a hair mask routine. I'm not used to caring for my hair (I've always been a wash every 3-5 days, low maintenance person before bleaching the shit out of my hair a month and a half ago lmao)

7. Favorite way to travel: Bullet train, hands down. Flying is fine just because it gets me to places I want to go the fastest. Is there a mode of travel I haven't done that I want to try? Not really? I never learned to ride a bike, lmao, so I keep debating learning to do that, maybe?

8. Favorite month of the year: This is the hardest question!! I like all months!! I'm not partial to any particular month, honestly.

9. Favorite time of day: 5-6am. I love being awake before most of the world, everything is still quiet, and I feel like I can exist in peace. I like going to the gym, reading/watching YouTube on my couch, drinking tea... it's the best time of day.

10. Sports? I mean. I watch sports anime, does that count? I didn't grow up playing sports at all, so I don't really do sports now. I like to go to the gym and lift, and run sometimes. I did archery for a bit, then went to a combat gym for a bit... I tried out a couple different styles of dance... I tend to switch around physical activity hobbies every 3-4 months honestly.

THANKS for letting me yap about myself though lmao 💛