#ellys.txt

[extradimensionalsystem]

ive been trying to write the same trauma journal entry all day but just describing WHERE it happened made me literally lie down feeling sick for over 6 hours

[godgavemenoname]

psa:

just because someone calls you out for bigotry in a way that makes you feel guilty, anxious, sad, defensive, uncomfortable, etc does NOT mean that they're wrong or that they're unfairly 'attacking' you.

your emotions < marginalized people's safety and wellbeing❤

[extradimensionalsystem]

@ DID/OSDD systems with differing genders/sexualities between alters

how do you describe your gender and sexuality to people outside of the DID/OSDD community??? how do you label yourself to the world at large, especially if you’re LGBT+?

we’ve been getting involved in our local lgbt+ scene again and when people ask us our gender/sexuality, we’re never sure how to respond...

[godgavemenoname]

the worst part of being disabled is how, when i talk to medical professionals, i have to all but suck their fucking dicks to get them to treat me with basic human rights and dignity. even when i would suffer or possibly literally die without their care.

[godgavemenoname]

sometimes i just think about how the ONLY things that survived of michael shelley were betrayal and self-loathing... a pain and fury so devastating it LITERALLY constrained a god of madness incarnate, and in the end unmade both it and himself .........  i just hrmsbdfghfdsghghj gysdyfkskbfb rhbkjyjujrh

[godgavemenoname]

lol the “who can use what lgbt+ term” discourse is so funny to me as someone with DID. it just all falls apart so fucking fast hjkgdsgjkgh

like what do you want me to do, keep 100% careful track of who is fronting and only use The Right Terms(tm) that apply to each specific alter? when it’s literally impossible to always know who i am? because surprise surprise, a person with a dissociative disorder tends to dissociate sometimes?

for the record, i think that pointless semantics do a disservice even to people who don’t have DID. i just think it’s a good example of one of the many reasons why that line of thinking doesnt rly hold up

[godgavemenoname]

this isnt really funny but i just went to go make a ‘music to watch your life fall apart to’ playlist and i realized all the songs were already on my jon archivist playlist and im laughing

[godgavemenoname]