She's Got You Mesmerized (Part I?)
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Unrequited!Embry Call x fem!shifter!reader
Summary (based on the song Heather): Y/N's time spent with Embry and pack leads to romantic feelings that she develops but Embry has his eyes for another girl, a girl that she won't compare to.
Warnings: Angst, injuries, blood, depression(?), mentions of death
A/N: SURPRISE YALL!!! Just felt like writing an angst piece very quickly 😩COMMENT if you want a part 2 where maybe Embry does reciprocate her feelings 😉
Two peas in a pod, that's what Embry and I were. We did everything together, napping, running in the forest, pranking Paul, mocking Jacob, ditching patrol and so much more.
His bright smile always resonated with my shrill laughs as we joked around about stupid stuff. We fit together like two puzzle pieces, we just felt right together. A shocking realization came to me, I was madly in love with Embry Call
There was never a dull moment with him, it was bliss. It felt like a dream but dreams can't last forever.
The dream turned into a nightmare when a new girl came to school. She was, breathtakingly beautiful. She was perfect. Flawless skin, gorgeous hands, the right height, perfect hair. She turned heads wherever she strutted and it wasn't shocking that she was the new "it" girl at school.
Embry adored her, he longed for her, and I could tell. His looks in class told the story. He would smile every time she waved at him. He chose her over me when it was group projects leaving me with Jared. He smiled an awkward grin at me and I sent him a reassuring smile as a heartstring tugged.
Jared looked at me with solemn eyes as I kept my head down, disappointed that he had chosen a new girl over his lifelong friend. I scribbled on the paper and handed it to Jared before requesting to leave the room.
I stood in front of the mirror, my reflection staring back. I had to reassure myself that Embry was only being friendly and we were still the best of friends.
Reentering the class I saw them joking around. She lightly slapped him on the arm as he cracked some stupid joke, his smile beaming. I grimaced at the sight before reseating myself next to Jared and refocusing on the task at hand.
The day seemed to drag by. Embry had said that he needed to show her around the school and classes which I understood but once more I felt my heart tug as I sat alone at the lunch table.
From then on, things took a turn for the worse.
The sight of her clinging to his arms greeted me every morning, every passing period, and every lunchtime. He'd notice me and wave hi with his bright smile and I'd return it with a half-hearted grin, heartbroken by their closeness.
He'd started ditching patrols and casual strolls to spend time with her. 'I need to show her around town' my ass. Sam and everyone else brushed it off and let it slide but I was devastated by the distance between us. I felt like I was being beaten by waves of jealousy as I struggled on my jagged cliff of emotions.
After what felt like months, we finally had a normal patrol. Embry and I were partners. Just us. No her.
I shifted quickly and Embry followed suit.
"It's been so long Y/N!" He said while trotting alongside me.
"Yeah, you've been spending a lot of time with the new girl huh?" Teasing him over his infatuation with her masking my resentment.
"Yeah, you should hang out with us sometime, she's really nice and smart," I mentally eye-rolled at him being awestruck over her capabilities, "Oh yeah, I forgot to tell you but we've been flirting back and forth and I honestly think I'm ready to ask her out, what do you think y/n?"
What.
I stopped dead in my tracks, my paw not moving an inch further. The wind rustled my fur as I repeated the sudden words in my head.
"You're going to...ask her out?" I asked slowly, not letting my emotions take a grip on me.
"Yeah, we both really like-"
"Go ahead, be my guest, Embry." Scoffing as I trotted away from him, creating more distance between us.
He jogged to catch up with me, stupefied by my sudden change in demeanor.
"What's got you so worked up oh wait let me guess, you're jealous?" He asked jokingly, I stayed silent. I really did wish it was a joke, all of it.
"It's not like we've ever spent any time together these past few weeks lover boy. All because you were too busy with Ms. Perfect over there." I spat, annoyed by the joke and how close it hit.
Upset by my sudden mood change, he bit back.
"Maybe I'm with her because she's better than you, ever thought about that?"
I turned back to look at him, our eyes locking. I felt the whole world around me cave in, why now. Why did I have to imprint now.
I turned around promptly, dashing into the forest. I could hear his distant voice shouting for me to wait but I ran. I ran until my body stopped me. Walking over to a tree trunk that hid my clothes, I shifted back and changed.
'Forever: Y/N + Embry Call'
Tears flooded my eyes as memories of our time spent together rushed through my mind.
I clasped a hand over my mouth as muffled sobs left my body, my knees colliding with the dead leaves. I wished it would be just us again, I just wanted it to be the same.
Nothing was the same ever again after that day.
Embry avoided me, each attempt I made to talk to him was taken by his new interest. I was dying, physically and mentally.
The pack saw my deteriorating condition firsthand, droopy eye bags, bloodshot eyes, my monotone voice. I'd become a shell of my former self, I had nothing left.
Sam didn't allow me to patrol anymore, my body was too weak to even handle the shifting. I would just collapse if I did. This relegated me to the bedroom where I spent most of my time curled under the sheets unless Emily brought me food.
Ironic that the boy that I love so much is killing me without knowing it, why would he know anyways, he's too busy with her. I'm just his friend, his friend who's hopelessly in love.
After weeks had passed, I forced myself to go to school one last time. Throwing on a random hoodie as I didn't care what I looked like anymore, I mean why would I? Arriving at school, I saw them there. Snuggling with each other.
What a sight for sore eyes.
A lump caught in my throat realizing she was wearing his hoodie. The same one I'd always wear whenever we had those campfires on the beach, grilling hotdogs over the campfire while laughing at stupid jokes. It's stupid really, it's just a hoodie but she looks better in it than I ever would.
She'd look good in a wedding gown with him right next to her too.
Swallowing the lump, I hurried my way past them, hoping Embry would be too preoccupied. How stupid of me to even show up to school.
"Hey, y/n wait up!" Embry yelled as he jogged after me while excusing himself from her. Refusing to make eye contact, I kept my eyes on the ground and sped up, praying and hoping he'd get the hint.
I felt a hand grip my wrist preventing me from moving any further, keeping my head down to avoid questions about my physical state.
"Hey, I'm really sorry about-"
Tears pelted the ground like hail, stunned by my sudden reaction, Embry pulled me to face him.
A stunned expression was all that wore on him, my pale face, hollow cheeks, lifeless eyes, dry cracked lips were too much for. He always saw me full of life, not a walking corpse.
"What's going on y/n, why do you look like this? Have you not been sleeping? Are you sick?" He rambled on while pressing a hand to my forehead. I yanked his hand away before speaking, my voice cracking.
"Go with her Embry, you've never cared about me." I scowled before backing away. "You don't need to care about me anymore either.:
"Are you serious right now? I've always cared for you, you're my best friend." Pleading with me as he took a step closer.
"If you were my best friend, you would've seen how much I loved you, how much I needed you," my voice wavering as I continued, "how I imprinted on you."
Dismayed by my sudden confession, he struggled to process it, giving me enough time to leave the school and walk to the forest. Sobs wracking my body as I stripped myself of my backpack and leaned against a tree.
Funny isn't it, a big wolf, wrecked mentally and physically by something stupid called love. Bitter laughter escaped my mouth, I would never compare to her. He had eyes for her and her only. She was his priority, I was his liability.
I laid down, arms spread out, exhaustion overtook me. I could feel myself fading, eyelids heavy as I felt the ache in my heart increase with each fleeting second.
Closing my eyes, I wished that it would relieve me of my pain, I wished it was just a bad nightmare. I could hear distant voices like that of the pack and Embry, yelling. I felt my consciousness slip away with each passing minute. I felt myself being hoisted up in the air, too weak to open my eyes, I thought that maybe if he had loved me like he loved her, we would've still been happy.
But I knew, he wouldn't.
I wasn't her.
I wished I was her.
Maybe in a different life, he'll love me the same way.
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