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Holding your gaze for moments longer than normal, that familiar vulnerable feeling catches me off guard. A spark of energy, a rythmic vibe, a glimpse of the wild. Both of us tired, run down, lost in the wilderness that is life. Probably, we will never find out what each of us were thinking, destined to interpret the exchange in our own way. Could you read my face, my body language...my truth set out in front of you like an instruction manual. Did I read your intentions, emotions, and needs correctly or was I simply projecting. I strive to truly know you, to find you as you are without my clouded subconscious, your companionship valued for exactly what it is. #emformdesign #eyes #seethrough

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As we hiked down the steep muddy trail , i was thnkful for the thick bamboo to hold onto. Even though bamboo is not native to #maui, it sure was a beautiful to experience these dense forests. I have always wanted to get the classic, wide angle looking up, bamboo forest shot! Goal achieved! #emformdesign #bambooforest

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The peak here in #sonora CA. What an amazing universe! #emformdesign #eclipse2017 #eclipse

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Thunder clouds quickly build up over the Clarks Fork valley. I'm always amazed at how it can go from being a completely clear day to this, in no time at all. This morning I was reading and learning about anger, resentment, and excessive thought...as well as the opposites... benevolence and integrity. I was amazed to realize just how out of balance I have been and currently am. This week has been full of heavy moments, culminating with a nice panic attack. All the changes, percieved and actual, seemed to be too much for my mind and body. It felt a lot like these clouds, came out of nowhere and loomed darkly over my life. But I know they came from somewhere and I know they came from something. Part of me I have been neglecting, failing to visit, hiding from...an imbalance. To everyone who follows this account and reads the words I write, please remember I am as fallible as any. What I write is my feelings, honest and true. If you find value or connection, I appreciate and recognize. But please dont take them as whole advice. I often write in the form of double meanings. Using landscapes and elements to help me describe the issues I face in life and in my mind. Lately that has gotten a bit negative and now that I am aware, I know that as a whole my life and my thought processes need some balance. If you read this far...i am ever so grateful...Namaste!! So here is to learning how to find my positive energy once again. I hope you will continue to join me. #emformdesign #creativewriting #chooselove #findyourself #landscapes #creativejourney #seektogrow #embracechange https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz5535hBK4W/?igshid=1xxifki4hg0tr

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Amidst the swirl of life and emotion, remember to find your way, out of your own head. . Seek those places that calm and soothe, surround yourself with visual peace. . Reconnect with the realities and let go of the what if's, take solace in remembering who you truly are. . Be present and feel the sea breeze blowing, take comfort in knowing you are exactly where you are supposed to be. . #emformdesign #beachtherapy #practicemindfulness #seascape #santacruzwaves (at Santa Cruz, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz3sIV0BQ6g/?igshid=14lpcz9d2t8bn

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Wishing the bright color of the sunset would remain, is a feeble notion, yet I hope it does every time. Trying to recreate perfect moments, almost always results in disappointment, but I push harder to make them happen. Holding on to those exhilarating personal connections even after the flames have burnt you both, will probably be my undoing, even so I still seek a deeper understanding. #emformdesign #creativewriting #landscapephotography #lifelessons #monolake https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz1T-Vshrm0/?igshid=auyjhkavszix

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No matter how hard we may try to deny it, that moon is still going down. Even if you strongly hope, think hard enough, or wished it would change, time marches forward. . With it comes more decisions, from quick and easy to painful and challenging. You can let things happen as they will or try to make informed choices, make them all by yourself or seek to confide in friends and confidants. . Just remember that whatever you choose, there is no going back. ______________<<<>>>____________ One thing from my past that I have always thought of when making choices, is to ask myself Am I drinking wine out of a coffee cup? And if I am is there good reason to be doing so. . When my son was young, he would get concerned if I had too much to drink. So one night we were having a barbecue with friends and I went to the fridge for a second beer. My son asked, "how many drinks have you had?" Innocently trying to keep track. I instantly felt a tinge of guilt and put the beer back. Soon enough I craved the beer and waited for him to leave the room, I snuck in and poured the beer in a big mug so he wouldnt be concerned. I figured it would just be easier that way, I could enjoy another beer and he wouldn't have to worry about me. . Later that evening he sat beside me and smelled the beer in my cup. I will never forget him asking me, in a confused and disappointed tone, if it was another beer in there. I will also never forget how much worse that felt than just being forward with him about wanting another beer and explaining my choice. . So my rule of thumb goes, if you have to put the beer in a coffee cup, you need to ask yourself some deeper questions about why you might be afraid to face that decision. Perhaps it is warranted and you must remain confidential, but perhaps your subconcious is speaking louder than you think. . Not to say you cant have the second beer...just that there shouldn't be any reason to hide it. #emformdesign #creativewriting #inspiredbylife #writewhatyoufeel #landscape #crescentmoon #moonset https://www.instagram.com/p/BzzJwDuh42i/?igshid=1e3lp9tuqbqub

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Finding your place is not easy, these mountains have always felt like home to me. Part of me wonders though, is the idea that we only truly love one place, a complete myth. Are we actually capable of falling head over heels, for two, or even more, places at any given time? . When I think of pitching my tent and snuggling up for warmth, where do I actually picture it. Are the surroundings filled with Jeffery Pines or Eucalyptus trees, Coastal Redwoods or Giant Sequoias? Is it the sound of a rushing river or waterfall, the waves crashing or the wind blowing. . Perhaps, in order to thrive, we must not spend too much time in one place. Although I think the deepest connection comes with time, choosing a place to stay and get to know better, should not limit the beauty to be found in visiting and loving other places. We just need to return home often and make sure our connection continues to be deeper than any other. . #emformdesign #creativewriting #lovedeeper #splitbetween #landscapephotography https://www.instagram.com/p/BzyMtF9hCeE/?igshid=16gfn4fpepzg7