#emiliana posts personal things

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WIP update -- ‘warrior’ ch 10 and epilogue are at 13.5k written, 1.5k outline left to flesh out. Of that 15k, about 10k is beta read.

It’s getting so close, but not quite. Almost there.

I was hoping that ‘warrior’ would be complete by March 1 before new canon aired, but due to RL work pressures it’s going to be a few more days before Chapter 10 and epilogue will be ready for posting. 💖💔 

In the meantime, I’ve blacklisted “the mandalorian” and “mandalorian” on tumblr, and have muted the DinLuke server in an attempt to avoid expectation spoilers. Hoping to get this final installment out as soon as possible so I can relax once again.

Almost there.............................

[emilianadarling]

continuing my slow and health issue-compromised effort to respond to comments on the last few chapters of ‘warrior' this afternoon with some occasional pauses for pain and body management. 

wish me luck. 👍

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I went to go buy weed from the government weed website and you would not believe how fast I screenshotted the landing page:

The artistically styled bud and floral combo with the ‘enjoy all the flowers of spring’ seasonal slogan I cannot. 

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A story in several parts.

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The fact that this is my partner's favourite emoji combination I think says so much about him as a person.

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Sooo my work is approaching levels of insanity where I genuinely barely have time to function at the moment. Mr. D is taking an extra day off this week to help support me because I’m running myself so ragged. In a few days, I am scheduled to work 13 days in a row. 

My mind usually feels like it has fathomless depths to put on the page, but right now there are only shallows. Fandom can be such a source of stress and anxiety for me, because I am so aware of the fics I haven’t been able to finish in the past and I have so much guilt tangled up in them. 

I’m not worried about not finishing This Body Overflowing -- I have over 30k more of the fic already written, and my friend and beta AubreyLi is helping to support me so that I know I’ll get there -- but I’m coming to realize it’s going to take longer than I wanted it to. I’d hoped so badly to get it all posted and done before this wild and frantic period at work began, but unfortunately that just wasn’t possible. It will come, but it will be slower than I would like. 

Real life is incredibly exhausting for me right now, and I have a bad tendency to beat myself up when it come to fandom things and feeling like I’m letting people down. Intellectually I know that writing fic is something I do for free because I love it, and because I love sharing it with other people, but that knowledge has never stopped me from worrying about it in the past.  

I know I will get there, but I wanted to let you guys know what’s up with me right now. There are things I badly want to write and share -- that I'm so close to sharing -- that might take a little longer than expected, but I have to remember that I’m only human. I’m so grateful that you guys know that, too. 

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