#emo jo

[jovvest]

@vazula ha dicho: ¿cómo estuvo tu día explorando el resort? ¿descubriste algo interesante?

VILLA PRIVADA // la voz de su compañera le sacó de un pequeño trance, haciéndole dejar en la mesa su diario íntimo. dentro de este se camuflaban los expedientes que repetía una y otra vez, además de algunos pensamientos que podrían sonar desalentadores. ʻ ¿a qué nos estamos refiriendo con interesante? ʼ preguntó, alzando una ceja con picardía. ʻ diría que nada, pero todavía nos quedan un par de horas para finalizar el día. ʼ soltó una débil risa, haciendo espacio para que azula tomara asiento a su lado. ʻ ¿qué hay de ti?, quizás santorini te haya tratado mejor. ʼ

[sephirajo]

I want to work on my writing but I can’t get over the feeling I suck at everything forever.

[sephirajo]

Bad day is bad.  First, migraine.  Second: hyper senstive.  Third: our perpetual poverty means we haven't been able to pay the cleaning lady.  So I lost that.  So my pain riddled, sick and weak rear has to do the cleaning.

Also, feel like I don't exist.  And the social anxiety is making trying to poke for things insanely stressful.

[sephirajo]

I'm always so terrified that I've annoyed people, upset people or that people are angry with me that I'm surprised I can function in a friendship at all. <__<

[sephirajo]

I've written one sentence the past two months. I'm going to go cry in my pillow now.  Both because I can't write and only three people have noticed. :/ 

[sephirajo]

Ugh pt 2

And my fingers are three times their usual size right now.  I need my BP meds.  And maybe to just vanish for awhile. :/ 

[ryulove]

It's just...

Why do I suck at maintaining friendships.

It starts and we're super close and I love them to pieces, but over time everything just...fades. It's happened one too many times now and now I just miss people.

Maybe I'm just bad at having friends?

It makes me feel bad whenever I make new friends. Like, I'm leaving the others behind or something.

......Need more pet rabbits.