#emotionallydead

[marisolislovely]

aquarius 😒 #horoscope #aquarius #emotionallydead #lol #accurate

[redeyesaphfire]

Revelations

Someone once told me I was once close to told me one of the reasons they respected/ enjoyed my company was because I had my shit together. That I didn't let things phase me. That couldn't be further from the truth. EVERYTHING bothers me in life. I always feel as though it's all my fault, every failure, every mistake is something I should have prevented. I should have seen it coming, I could have done better or made a different choice. It all piles up, suffocating me and eating away at me until I either collapse inward or explode out. I've lost what little respect I've made with my peers and it kills me bit by bit. I've come to a point where I don't want to live. Don't get it wrong, I don't intend to kill myself but I almost welcome death. This shit never ends and it never will. Everyone always says it gets better. When? When does it get better? I'm 33 years old and I haven't seen it getting better. Every year is the same shit, the same utter bullshit weighing me down. I want to give up but just trudge forward out of habit. Go through the motions. Smile, nod and keep going. Maybe getting this out will help. I don't know and I don't want to care.

[awesomelilwings]

I died

u know you died when you hurt but dont cry anymore, 

when u have gotten so tired of shit that u just dont care no more,

when u smile but ur just not happy anymore

[heavy-air]

ik I'm an idiot to want this but it would be v nice to find someone who actually genuinely loves and cares for me w/o some ulterior motive......

[what-the-ass]

Im dope #emotionallydead

[firstclasssassqueen-blog]

All it took and all it takes Is three words he never made. Out of love with a girl he never even kissed, Now he regrets all the chances missed. So when he drowns her memories into another girl's mouth He knows it's unfair to the new girl without a doubt. But what can he do cept search for refuge, A place to forget the pain and bid it adieu. Heart beats but it doesnt flutter.

All it takes, and all it took Is one guy, to change her entire outlook. She opened her heart wide and let the feelings flow. Now there's nothing left for anyone anymore. All spent weary and tired, she can't seem to turn on the faucet And it feels like the ability to love she once had, she's lost it. Walls so high armor so thick You can make cracks and you can make chinks But her core is protected

[princ3sskb]

everyone wants someone to love them and i'm here like, "i've got my dog and wine." i'm emotionally dead LAWLZ

[sensationgone-blog]

Why this Exists.

This blog exists as I need an outlet for my thoughts that won't have people close to me worrying about me. I am slowly losing my mind and I can feel nothing, towards anyone. I use to think dead inside was just a saying, but recently I have noticed it can occur without your knowledge of it. 

I'm dead because I choose to be, no one truly knows me. Nor do I think they care about me. I hide my being away from people close to me because I can't trust anyone. My prior relationships have seen to that. 

I laugh, but every meaningful relationship I have ever had, I have been cheated on. Yeah, I know "Oh Wow is me" right? Though this has caused me to hate human contact. People touching me literally causes me pain and uncomfort. Which is especially funny as most people who know me would label me: Social and Charismatic. 

I am truly just waiting out this life to see what happens as I feel like I just wait for death as it stands. As if I can't stand humanity, not even my own (what little is left) what hope is there for me in this world?

Signed, 

Someone who fears Humanity