Sep 23, 2018
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#emotionallydone #mentallydrained #spirituallynumb #gottakeepsmiling https://www.instagram.com/p/BoDGJiYnUhKqK5a3Y75uNSjB9g3f4aKkb4WG0Q0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=7d7qvhbj4e7v
October 2
And here I am again, pondering the decision to try harder or simply let go. I can feel you pulling away from me day by day, and then there's the rare occasion where everything goes back to how it used to be with us. Do I stand by you while you figure things out or do I finally stand up for myself and say enough?
Someone save me from myself
Fuck I just want to be told that I am loved by you. Is that so fucking difficult. It's been a year and a half how do you not know if you fucking love me or not. Jesus fucking fuck...😡😢
Have you ever been so emotionally done that you just want to lay down and sleep forever?
I'm at that point.
I'm so done.
Its like he doesn't understand or doesn't want to understand why I do the things I do. It makes me so God damn frustrated that I wish he was here. I wish he was here so I could show him because telling him apparently doesn't work. He has Bo idea how crazy he makes me, crazy for him for life, crazy enough to give up everything I can for him. Crazy, in love. So when I get emails from 2 ex girlfriends calling me a hoe and a homewrecker telling me he's just using me because I'm some slut that he only keeps because he's to fucked up to actually keep a relationship. Maybe it is wrong of me to keep their identities from him, but when it cones down to it no matter what happens those girls will stay anonymous, because they are the worthless dipshits that have no life and no confidence in themselves, so they blame their bad end to their relationship on me. I'm not sorry that I want to give then their last shred of dignity. But I still love you.
I've made a lot of mistakes i'm not proud of and sometimes i feel lost and alone. sometimes i give up on everything...