#emptyorfull

[emorull]

I fought for you to the bitter end, and rest assured, my end will be bitter. I stood by you till the fall, when you  took me down. I ran toward you with an open heart, and now I cower with a broken one. I knew all the things good about you, and now I remember the bad things too.

Why did you go, I asked you to stay, you should be here with me for the rest of my days, a part of me still waits for you, come back and fix it all.

Before you I had no joy, and after you I have only hunger. I was a statue passing through time, but you breathed me to life. I was a cold creature of greed, you made it all so pointless for me. I was something to be feared and now I’m more than I’ve ever been before.

Why did you go, I asked you to stay, you should be here with me for the rest of my days, a part of me still waits for you, come back and fix it all.

Terrible people wake the monster in me, but you weren’t bad at all, you had a smile so soft that I couldn’t fake a flinch at your bite, I never loved but for you I did, and I drowned in things I had never known, but now I can breath and I’ll admit I want to drowned.

Why did you go, I asked you to stay, you should be here with me for the rest of my days, a part of me still waits for you, come back and fix it all.

I was fine all alone, but your love has crippled me, you took this queen and you stole her might, it’s still hard to believe I lost my will to fight, I have claws and vicious fangs that I don’t even want to bare again, you left me bare and pained in the wake of your leaving.

Why did you go, I asked you to stay, you should be here with me for the rest of my days, a part of me still waits for you, come back and fix it all.

I’ve become a new monster my dear, one worse than the one I was, you tamed this beast, but beloved, it rose in rage at your death, you left me and the poison came, it filled my eyes and choked my mind, but oh love of my life, it’s alright that this happened., but it’s still your fault.

Why did you go, I asked you to stay, you should be here with me for the rest of my days, a part of me still waits for you, come back and fix it all.

If it weren’t for you I wouldn’t have had this pain, I would never have gone this far, I hunted down the one who took you from me, and I sent him to you to apologize, I painted myself on time itself with blood, but if you come back my dear. I swear I’d stop it all.

Why did you go, I asked you to stay, you should be here with me for the rest of my days, a part of me still waits for you, come back and fix it all.

The world is a dancing fall, and for the spring I can not wait. The summer was so kind to me, but the coming winter will  freeze me sour. Leaves fall around my head, a forbidding shower of yellow and red. The flowers wilt, the strong just wither, they plan to stand through the winter.  

[emorull]

I am loneliness,

I am rage,

I am more than,

Just my age.

See these eyes,

How tired and still,

Hard chips of ice,

Your soul they chill.

I am so tired,

I am so mad,

But I know that really,

I am just so sad.

[emorull]

Oh most nights I simply weep,

Bitter tears and silent pain,

Ah but tonight child,

I curse my own special bane,

I curse the dratted thing locked behind my ribs,

The throbbing heart in my chest,

The fickled creature that ruined me,

That made my life a mess,

I started out with bravery,

But there is no bravery now,

Just a desperation to end the pain,

But I guess I don’t know how,

Money makes the pain sharper,

And parties are only temporary fixes,

I need a real solution,

One that’ll end this sickness.

Oh look at what my heart did,

To the brave, strong person I was,

It made me so pathetic,

But I guess that’s what a starving heart does.

[emorull]

There's no one here,

They left last year,

I stayed behind,

For you are mine,

I knew you'd come,

For what I've done,

Ask me why,

Asking for me not to lie,

But I would lie,

I always lie,

And you will leave,

And things will be the way they were meant to be.

[emorull]

I am laughter,

i am tears,

I am safety,

and all your fears,

You can not,

Just be fine,

For I am life,

And you are mine!

[emorull]

I feel you next to me,

Breathing,

Softly,

So hopeful you are,

So trusting and sweet,

I curl protectively around you,

Pretending I can chase off nightmares,

I have protected you, 

But perhaps I have only chased off your dreams.

[emorull]

I will die with a scream on my lips,

My final battle cry! Shrill and high,

Shattering the ears of the living with my rage,

 How dare Life vanquish me,

How dare it put me down,

I who break the crown,

Who melts it’s royal metals into swords,

How dare it put an end to my tale,

Even though it’s insignificant,

I am a warrior of most rare,

My mind is dark and deep,

A treacherous place where many have broken

My heart is sharp as glass and bitter like poison,

Many have cut themselves on it,

My teeth gleam red,

 Red with the blood,

My skin is skin a burgundy,

And my eyes shine with killing,

I am a monster,

A warrior fierce,

How dare life end me,

I do the ending,

Not life,

and yet...

It ended me.

[emorull]

I am a monster, 

my wings ice white, 

my voice inviting, 

my smile so bright, 

call me what you wish, 

I'm a monster supreme, 

I am who I want, 

no one had time for me, 

so I made time for myself,