Helen: Do you ever drink so much coffee that you feel kinda dizzy, and then everything starts moving in slow motion, and you start drifting in space and time, and then you can see everything and nothing while being lost in The Void?
We really were. Are we surprised? No. But disappointed?? For sure. And while we're on it we all also got mayla baited and yeah I know that this season wasn't just about them but they are so underdeveloped and badly written by now. Imagine they would have used all this time they spent with the Tiff and Char drama, thrown these plots out of the window and given us more time with Eliott and Lola, actually developed their friendship and Eliott's character and clips of Mayla getting to know eachother and being actual girlfriends in some clips... Imagine skam france would have had the range😕😞
Two words. But whenever I hear them I want to scream. I thought I was harder and this time I won’t cry.
How wrong I was.
I was reading this chapter like blah blah blah (feeling sad already) blah bla-bLUE SKY and in this moment I couldn’t stop my tears and convulsions. Still can’t.
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John had always thought relationships were hard. Two people having to communicate and find common ground and connection. It just didn't seem worth the effort, especially in his world.
But Helen made it easy.
They fell quickly into a relationship, complete with shared meals and hand holding and pillow talk.
He learned that before Helen had coffee, she could barely form a coherent sentence. That she lived in high heels but tripped walking barefoot. That she had a handful of dainty tattoos that included a small daisy on her ankle, a sun on the inside of her middle finger, and a coffee bean just below her ear.
He learned that spring was her favorite season but she adored fall almost as much.
When he offered to take her apple picking, she had thrown her arms around him and kissed him nearly senseless. She made apple fritters and crisp and muffins for the cafe and he was given the privilege of helping and tasting.
That even after she showered, she still smelled vaguely of coffee.
And she had a collection of old books that rivaled his own.
Sometimes he imagined what it would be like to build more shelves in his personal library and mix their collections together the way her dresses and sweaters now hung with his suits.
It was too soon to discuss such things, however. The last thing he wanted to do was scare her off.
Not when he had her in his life and, most nights, in his bed.
What was most surprising, however, was her utter contentment in not knowing what he did for a living.
As far as her friends and employees knew, John was an independent contractor. Helen knew there was more to it. Her employees joked around calling him thr super spy but… even though they didn't talk about it, he knew that she knew there was more to it.
On more than one occasion, he had shown up to dinner or to a date with unexplained cuts or bruises. Helen had said nothing of it but she began carrying around a first aid kit and kept it stocked with butterfly bandages and gauze.
She would assess him then tend to him, and then hold him.
And he loved her, wholly and completely.
He loved the way she favored cheap wine and how she fell asleep watching cooking shows. He loved that she insisted everything she serve either be local or fair trade. He loved the way she lit up when he picked her up off the ground. More than anything, he loved to earn her smile.
Hence why he spent half the morning, after Helen left for work, individually picking daisies at the flower shop down the street before heading to the shop.
He walked in, searching for Helen, but not seeing her behind the counter. So consumed in looking for her, he almost didn't notice the man walking in behind him with a wide, shit-eating grin.
"Hiya, John. Nice flowers."
John blinks, “Aurelio. What are you doing here?”
“Always notice you’re carrying the to-go cups from here. Figured I’d give it a try since you favor the joint so much. Now I’m wondering if it’s the coffee that’s bringing you here.”
He isn’t quite sure what to say to that but he isn’t able to say much because that’s when Aurelio spots it. The special board.
“What the hell is the Wick? John, do you have a coffee named after you?” Aurelio doesn’t leave him time to answer, narrowing his eyes and reading off, “Latte with dark chocolate and raspberry? Raspberry, John?”
John opens his mouth to respond just as Eve calls out loudly.
“Coffee’s ready, Super Spy.”
And John wishes he had been ten minutes earlier or ten minutes later and that Aurelio was not witnessing this.
Instead, John skips the line and grabs his coffee as Aurelio calls, “Super spy?”
John shoots him a look as he takes his coffee.
Eve sees the flowers and makes a loud, “Awww. Boss lady is out back dealing with a shipment. Let me go grab her.”
“If she’s busy, I’ll just put them in her office.” John says quickly.
“Nonsense! You know she’d want to see you.” And Eve disappears behind the counter.
John makes his way to the side so Jamie can finish taking the orders of the short queue and Aurelio steps out of line to follow him.
“What the hell is this place?” Aurelio asks, “Super spy?”
“I will give you a hundred coins if you leave right now and never mention this again.”
“Not on your life.” Aurelio says, completely in awe. He pulls out his cell phone and quickly snaps a shot of John with coffee and flowers.
“What the hell?” John hisses.
“I need photographic evidence of what is happening right now.”
“You don’t need shit.”
“I need an explanation.” Aurelio fires back, “I never see you without a coffee cup from this place so I decide to give it a try and find you here with flowers and a drink named after you? John, please, I will give you six new cars if you tell me what’s going on?”
And John is saved from needing to say anything as the door to the kitchen opens and Helen comes out.
Her dress today is a pale pink with sleeves that extend just to her elbow. Hours ago, it had been hiked up over her hips as he took her in the hallway before she left for work. Her hair is, as usual, held up by a pencil in a loose bun.
“Hi baby.” She greets, coming around the counter. Helen reaches up and wraps an arm around his neck and stands on her tiptoes to give him a kiss.
John hands her the flowers which she takes with a beaming smile and plants a kiss on his cheek.
“You spoil me.” She says as John wraps an arm around her back. He is aware of Aurelio and the expressions his old ally is making but he has no idea what to say.
“And make the rest of us look bad.” Jamie calls over from where he’s making espresso. “I swear, Helen, we should get hazard pay for having to watch the two of you make eyes at each other all day. It’s so sweet, I swear it could make me sick.”
“I’ll take them being mushy over the months and months of pining any day.” Eve adds, “that was so much worse.”
And Aurelio is never going to let him live this down.
As he thinks it, Aurelio steps forward and offers a hand to Helen, “Hi, I’m John’s old friend Aurelio.”
And John could kill him. He had a lot of respect for Aurelio. He liked the man. He trusted the man, as much as he trusted anyone. But Aurelio finding Deja Brew might have been the worst thing that has ever happened to him, John muses. That includes dozens of stab wounds, gun shots, homeless years, and every other shitty thing that he has gone through.
Helen, being Helen, smiles and takes his hand, unwrapping her right arm from around John to shake Aurelio’s hand and the removal of her touch is enough to make John want to stab the mechanic.
But he doesn’t and he keeps his grip on Helen as she reaches forward.
“Hi, Aurelio. I’m Helen.”
“An absolute pleasure to meet you, Helen.” He looks over at Jamie, “And I would love to hear more about these months and months of pining.”
Helen rolls her eyes, “It wasn’t that bad--”
“Wasn’t that bad?” Jamie says, leaning forward, “I swear to christ, man, John came in for months before they started talking and we had to deal with months of them just staring at each other over the counters. Making eyes every damn day while Mister Tall, dark roast, and handsome would just--”
“I’m sorry,” Aurelio is grinning like a mad man. “Tall, dark roast, and handsome?”
“It’s one of the few nicknames for John that boss lady hasn’t vetoed. Other forbidden options included sugarless daddy,...”
“Jamie.” Helen warns.
“Aaaand, she signs my checks so I’m going to stop. But the magical day came when Helen got held up at gunpoint and John finally made a move so now life is good.”
John wonders if it’s possible to erase Aurelio’s mind of the past hour. Doc probably had some good meds somewhere that could do the trick. Or a bad concussion. Maybe an entire bottle of bourbon…
Aurelio looks like he’s about to say something and John can’t risk him saying anything. Quickly, he jumps in, “Weren’t you going to order a coffee, Aurelio?”
“I was.” Aurelio nods with a smile, “I was thinking about trying the Wick.”
Or maybe it wouldn’t be so bad to kill Aurelio. Sure, it was hard to find an honest mechanic but he’d gladly overpay for maintenance the rest of his life so long as he didn’t have to deal with this.
“Eve,” Helen says, “Get Aurelio a Wick and an apple muffin.” She turns to Aurelio with a smile, “John and I made the muffins on Saturday.”
And 聁urelio is beaming, utterly delighted at the timage of John Wick baking.
“Did you wear an apron?” Aurelio asks John, who promptly responds:
“I will kill you.”
Helen taps him on the chest, “Be nice!”
And he can’t deny her anything, even if it means playing nice with his asshole of a friend. Even as his friend is pushing every ounce of patience that John has to its limit.
Helen looks up at John, “I need to go finish moving the boxes into the deep freeze, but I’ll be out in just a few minutes.”
“I can help.”
“No, go sit down with your friend. It shouldn’t be more than five minutes.”
She reaches up and gives him a soft kiss that, even a month later, has his head reeling. And she turns back to the back, carrying her bouquet of daisies.
“Wow.” Aurelio says.
John turns and walks to his usual table in the back. He sits down, coffee in hand, and Aurelio follows, taking the seat across from him.
“So, that’s your girl? She’s sweet.”
“She is.” John agrees.
“Not what I pictured you going for.”
“Oh?”
Aurelio shakes his head, “I always pictured you for the femme fatale type.”
And John snorts. Because there is nothing to say to that. Bad girls had never been his thing. He had too much in common with them, too many of the same weaknesses. But then, good girls had never been his thing either. Because he was far too different from them.
Helen was as good as it got and she probably certainly fell towards the good girl end of the spectrum, but she was so much more than that. She was kind and sparing in her judgement. She was sweet but not weak.
Not too long ago, a fight nearly broke out in her shop when two patrons had each claimed that the other pushed them in line. There was some shoving and John was ready to stand up and interfere when Helen had marched in, got between them, and smiled.
He had never seen anything like her kindness but all it took was a smile and they were apologizing to one another and the rest of the patrons.
“I take it I’m wrong?” Aurelio says at John’s reaction.
John says nothing, noting that Eve is making her way around the counter with a cup of coffee and a small plate with a muffin. He waits until she drops it off and says a quick thank you to her.
“No problem, super spy.”
“Yes.” John says when Eve is back behind the counter, “You’re wrong.”
Aurelio nods, carefully, a smile on his face as he does so, “I gotta say, her staff are killing me with these nicknames. Sugarless Daddy? Super spy?”
“The latter came from the day Jamie referred to. It was just before closing and Helen and I were alone in the shop. Someone came in, with a gun, to rob her and I… interfered.”
“Meaning he’s six-feet-under?”
“He is now.”
Because, no, John hadn’t been willing to kill in front of Helen. She didn’t need to see that or experience that side of him. But he was going to be damned to let that man walk around after he made bail.
John had followed him home and used the man’s own gun to shoot him. The gun he had threatened Helen with after it was conveniently misfiled by Jimmy.
Of course, Helen did not know. Nor did he have any intention of telling her.
Aurelio nods and takes a bite of his apple muffin, “Damn, man! You made this?”
John shrugs, “I helped.”
Meaning he did exactly what Helen told him to do as they slowly turned his kitchen into Armageddon. He had been in war zones less chaotic then a kitchen when Helen was baking.
He also found out that flour was not as easy to remove from hair as he had thought.
And that… he loved that about her. He loved that she was dominating in the kitchen and that, when he got in her way, she used her ingredients as projectiles.
He loved that she spiked her coffee with irish cream and her apple cider with bourbon on days when she didn’t work.
He loved that he now had six kinds of coffee in his kitchen and Helen would randomly spit out facts about their origin or the process used to roast the beans.
He loved that she made him taste everything, while looking at him to gauge for any and every reaction.
And he couldn’t lose any of it.
Not the slowly growing pile of heels in his bedroom or the vast amounts of sugar that now resided in his kitchen cabinets.
Not Helen falling asleep on him watching ridiculous cooking shows or waking up with her completely tangled around him.
“You can’t tell anyone about her, Aurelio, I’m serious. I want to keep Helen as far away from that world as I can.”
“From our world, you mean? You live in that world, John. How do you expect to keep her away from it?”
“I exist in the underworld when I’m there. And when I’m not, I’m here.”
“You can’t walk in two worlds, John.”
He can’t leave the underworld but he would die before he left Helen.
“I don’t have much of a choice.” John says quietly. “I’m not letting her go. And I have to keep her safe, which means that you can’t go telling anyone about this. About her.”
Aurelio shifts uncomfortably. “It might be a little late for that.”
“Meaning what?”
“Meaning I already sent Marcus a picture of the drink board special and of you holding daisies, John.”
Of course he had.
That meant that Aurelio knew about Helen and Marcus would soon guess that John had a woman. That John Wick, a man often compared to a priest for his lengths of celibacy, had fallen hard for a woman beyond his reach.
Helen emerges from the back at that moment and walks to the back. There are no extra chairs but Helen simply chose to perch herself on John’s lap, leaning against the back wall. She wraps an arm around his shoulders and gives him a gentle kiss on his cheek.
“All good?” John asks and she nods, her fingers rubbing his neck gently.
John relaxes under her touch and inhales the scent of sweet coffee.
