#endofundergrad

[arrrogant]

😔👉👈

hahahahaha lol i’m sorry about how non serious i’ve been these past hmm two weeks i guess, we’ll now the pressure is building up and i am here 1:25am, 15 April 2020,

i’m going to push out an hour or two of more studying since things are quieter and less hot in the night, mate it’s so hot

i’ve been finding that i’m a lot more productive if i record myself studying so that’s what i’ve been doing slowly accumulating my study footage folder in the other hard drive

lizards have been driving my crazy please don’t enter my room please

had a chem class today and i studied a lot of english, mr chips to be precise, working on chem conversions, going to practice chapter 9 and 10, so that when sir asks me tomorrow i’ll have some goddamn answers, physics class on friday, saturday and sunday! let’s go ive got this, be grateful, things have been hard lately but i’ve got this, we’ve got this, alhumdulillah

Look at my feet, look down

The shadow resembles me

Is it the shadow that's shaking

Or is it my feet that are trembling

Of course I‘m not unafraid

Of course it's not all okay

But I know

Awkwardly I flow

I fly together with that black wind

[arrrogant]

day what/30

man ive been full on wasting these past days, gotta change something waking up at 8 just isnt good for me so today ive been up since 4:48am which i think is my preferred time, lets turn this around, no more excuses, ive got things to do and uh i forgot where i was going with this, anyway steady on, please dont fall off again 

[arrrogant]

day 3/30

today was a bit weird and hectic of course, i had my peer support training session (that never ended up happening) as well as a mod session (also didn’t happen) it retrospect it wasnt super busy but my schedule was filled however all that time was wasted TT i didn’t complete everything on my list because i didn’t feel like it and staying up late isn’t really my forte so early tomorrow morning hopefully. also been feeling the need to shop, curse you lockdown

[arrrogant]

day 2 of 30

well, ok it was good i mean i wanted like memorize everything thing, it wasn’t that but a solid 7-8 hours, so that was good i forgot to update tumblr last night, i’m an idiot but printed extra info for bio yesterday - for just that extra bit of effort, it’ll pay off hopefully ~

let’s just keep going

[arrrogant]

day 1 of 30!

ahhhhh bit of a rough day, still feeling a bit unmotivated and hmm “first-gear” not to worry a bit of progress has been made *confetti* wanted to go to bed, as usual, but forced myself to make a proper study plan that i could come back to, it has come to my attention that if my study plans arent pretty i wont bother following them, so this one is meccha pretty and follows my O3 pattern, so fingers crossed future nawaal follows it properly 

mama and i have vowed to watch no other k-drama except school 2017

daewi please give some top student vibes my man

[nuhel]

Documentation done! Now only the formalities to say goodbye. #thesis #CSE #BRACUniversity #EndOfUndergrad (at Department of Computer Science and Engineering, BRAC University)

[jsuaverthanyou-blog-blog]

I wish we could go back to the days of the working-class intellectual.  When you could work in a factory or the shipyards and still be a writer or scholar.  I guess it's still possible to do that (though the lack of actual factories or shipyards in the US is kind of a problem), but it seems like everything now is internship this, two years experience that, go to grad school after some-odd years, when I just wanna say 'efff that' to the whole damn process.  Maybe it's just me being ambivalent or unsure about my personal goals, but right now I'm just not that comfortable with the whole proscribed, singular course of career and life.  Or maybe I'm just afraid to start something and see what happens.