#entry two

[letters-to-revali]

Revali,

I shared with Zelda that I took her advice and began writing to you... I figure my expression was not what I believed it to be. She tried to hide away a frown but lately I've found myself paying attention to the smallest details-- maybe another side effect of not having the weight of the world upon my shoulders. Do you remember when you told me I worried too much and overburdened myself? I'm beginning to realize that I must have done it to keep my own thoughts at bay. At least that is what I'm assuming my self from all those years ago would have done the same.

A hundred years... waking up in a place I did not know to a voice I should have known, taking my first renewed steps into a world I grew up in but did not recognize. Could I really be the same person from before? Would you still feel about me the way you did? Plenty of times I find myself regretting that I never spoke my feelings for you with clear intent but the princess continues to assure me that my memories of us together were far more than friendly fondness. How I would give moments of my life to feel my fingers burrowed into your feathers again. A thought that instills so much light in me can be quickly taken over by fear as again I worry you may not see me the same.

Our last conversations... I replay them when my mind is silent. I believe you were putting up your confident facade then but were hurt by the lack of recognition that must have appeared in my eyes. I'm continuing to remember things even now all these months later, things that I wish I could reminisce with you about. A light that I am trying to hold onto is that regaining these memories I can find myself capable of hearing you with clarity. Your laugh, your voice and all its tones-- the click of your tongue that I'm learning I heard far too often.

I wonder if in the afterlife you are capable of forgetting... if you will forget about me just as I did you. My chest hurts now at the thought-- is that how you felt when we were finally reunited?

Revali... I'm sorry.

- Link

[astraeajackson]

GUYS THIS ENTRY TWO OF MY RANT SERIES ☆rei's rantdays☆... ENJOY THE BS

tell me why me and these two girls in my class (we're gonna call them asparagus and nori) are talking about the future and they're going "oh, i wanna have kids! i wanna get married!" and when I SAY:

"i don't wanna have kids. they're painful to get out, they cost a lot of money, and why would i spend my life looking after someone else?" AND "i wanna date, but i don't wanna get married. marriage sounds too restrictive for me."

YEAH when I SAY that asparagus and nori go: "ew, but you're gonna be lonely and sad. you'll be like those old ladies with only cats for company. sucks to be you."

LIKE GIRL. I DON'T GET IT. FIRST OF ALL, KEEP YOUR NASTY OPINIONS TO YOURSELF. SECOND OF ALL, WHY THE HELL WOULD I BE SAD? YOU WILL BE STRESSED AS FUCK RAISING YOUR LIL KIDS. YOUR HUSBAND'S GONNA STRESS YOU OUT. BEING A MOM AND A WIFE IS GONNA STRESS YOU OUT.

AND I DID SAY I WOULD LOVE TO DATE PEOPLE. JUST NOT GET MARRIED. AND I HAVE FRIENDS, FOR GOODNESS SAKE. WHAT DO YOU THINK, I'M GONNA SIT AROUND IN MY LITTLE FLAT ALL MY LIFE WITH FOURTEEN CATS???

and getting married means tying your identity to someone else, especially if you're a woman. when people see me with my potential husband they're gonna go "hi, mrs. _____!" my husband's name is gonna go first in all the legal stuff we do together and shit. IF I DON'T WANT THAT MY LIFE IS NOT YOURS TO CRITICISE. SEE YOU IN 30 YEARS WITH YOUR UTERUS STRETCHED AND YOUR JERK HUSBAND, ASPARAGUS

[deer-knight]

rapier journal - entry two

 oh goodness was i tired today. i had our final overnight camping with the middle school kids last night, complete with temperatures nearing freezing in the early morning. i struggled with sleep some as the kids stayed up late and had trouble quieting down in their tents. i could’ve used another layer too. as such, i wasn’t in the best fighting shape today. i still attended practice though!

full journal entry will be under the cut.

generally speaking, i think i did better overall this week than last week. i wasn’t quite so stuck in the headspace i had found myself in last week, and for that i am grateful. despite feeling tired and weak in a physical sense from lack of good rest, my mind wasn’t quite so cloudy.

i fought the captain and a new person in single sword, the dustman i fought with sword and dagger, and i fought the frenchman in case (case of rapier - two swords). much of the time was spent teaching two new people, and so i didn’t get to fight everyone i wanted to, but teaching is valuable practice.

i asked the captain for advice from our bouts, and her only recommendation was that i was getting in too close when i had her on the ground. (i took out her legs and she was fighting from her knees.) she said i should have used my distance as an advantage since she was immobilized. i had been trying to get in close on purpose because i find her easier to fight on the inside; she’s got incredibly good defense, and attacking from the outside seems impossible sometimes. i’ll try to keep that in mind for next time and ask about specific outside strategies for fighting someone on their knees. it doesn’t happen very often because i don’t usually aim for the legs. maybe i’ll experiment with that.

other than that, i only took one shot to the neck and no shots to the head, but i’m not sure if that’s because i was blocking those shots or if people weren’t throwing them. i’ll have to pay more attention to that next time.

as for things i did well, i was more aware of my footwork than usual because we were drilling the new people. i like to hang around when the captain is teaching the youth group or new folks - it never ever hurts to hear the basics again and again. drilling footwork is so important.

fighting sword and dagger was more challenging than i remember. it used to be my go-to for offhand devices, but it felt so foreign today. i definitely have to play with that more. dustman is still pretty new so it wasn’t too much of a challenge to beat him, but we did have some simultaneous kills.

case is so much fun! i hadn’t really ever played with it before, and i was hesitant to do so today because i had been splitting a lot of wood lately (stocking up for winter) and my arms are lacking in rest, but it was epic! i felt myself straining most in my forearms, which i don’t usually struggle with - my upper arms are where i’m lacking - so that was a welcome burn. i did better than i thought i would, and the frenchman had praise for me. i think it’s safe to say we’ll do more of that again soon.

next time, i want to play more with case and dagger, and go over fighting someone on the ground with the captain. hopefully i’ll be better rested next week too.

[uglypages]

First journaling lesson: Pick a notebook with thick pages next time! Or like. Less powerful pens and markers.

But! I would not be defeated by the realization of my most recent fuck-up. And so, after a good eye roll at how WEAK the pages of my STUPID notebook are, I rolled up my sleeves and just. Glued the rest of the blue sheet of paper I used on the last page.

I think I did a pretty good job. You can barely see it. Of course, since, much like the pages of my stupid notebook, I’m all about TRANSPARENCY, I had to come clean.

(Also @ Forbidden Planet HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DO AN EFFICIENT JOB WITH YOUR STUPID MARVEL NOTEBOOK???? I WANT MY £10 BACK. DM FOR MY PAYPAL INFO.)

[elsasadventure]

entry number two: insecurity

If my life were a hero’s epic, my tragic flaw would indubitably be my insatiable need to feel acknowledged and recognized for intelligence and hard work.

***

This is difficult to write.

I recognize that I am obsessed with important names and rankings and that I want to be the best I can be, or at the very least, feel that others see me that way. I try consciously to battle this all the time, but a lump still forms in my throat when I feel I made a wrong turn somewhere and didn’t get to where I wanted to be. The college app and selection process last year brought this horrible fear up to the surface and nearly drowned me in it.

I grew up with the idea that if I just worked hard enough and was smart enough, I could go to Harvard. And as I hopped to bigger and bigger ponds I realized how foolish that ideal is, but I still clung (cling) to it desperately. I wanted to go to a big name school. One where when I told people where I went I could feel proud. I wanted awe. I wanted praise.

I know it’s shallow. I know. But it’s true.

I got in to a variety of good schools, but none of them ivies. None of them names.

One however, was a name. UC Berkeley. But as I read about horrible stress, plummeting GPAs and enormous class sizes, I grew terrified. For a month before my final decision was due, I grappled the fence. Did I want a name or did I want a place where I would be happy? In a way I equated the two. Ultimately, my soul inside of me begged to let the pressure go.

Go where you’ll be you. You’ll find smart friends everywhere. You’ll find people like you. You’ll be okay wherever you go.

My inner voice made the decision for me, screaming, tearing at my emotions and my toxic rational brain to choose life and happiness. To give up superficial praise.

So I chose UCLA. I decided that while it wouldn’t elicit the awe and admiration that Berkeley would, I would still be okay.

***

Sometimes I think my soul jumped the gun, being more ready to let go of my flaws than my brain is. Or perhaps I’ve always acted with my rational brain, and to act on anything else terrifies the inner me. Like my brain is on fire and my inner soul, my inner mother, has to hush it and remind it that it’s safe and it will be still be great.

The act of writing this is catharsis enough, almost as if my inner voice sings the words in writing before my brain has a chance to digest them.

[johnargbuckle]

Entry 2- Comment Section

there’s someone called sumeriancoppermerchant650 who frequently replies to comments about the changing title and gaslights them that the title has always been the same ? i don’t know if this is related to the arg or just silly lol

one time sumeriacoppermerchant replied to a comment about this and someone called eggmilkshake2701 accused them of being juniper’s alt account. jujiper replied to this saying “my name is eggmilkshake2700 im the original account hahhaahhah u all just got SOOO rekt 😆”

i’ve tried looking through jujiper’s interactions in the comments and a lot of them seem pretty normal (mostly just liking posts or responding kindly to comments) but i’ll compile ones that stick out to me

under a comment saying “officer i swear the name keeps changing!!” jujiper replies “do not call for law enforcement they will do nothing for you”

they respond to a lot of comments about the title change by saying things like this (either avoiding or disputing the accusation)

under one comment about the title change they say “whattya gonna do about it Pelts you with salt rocks” and the they go into a tangent about horse salt licks??? and how they thought the world was running out of salt???

under a comment mentioning the view count going up jujiper replies that the view count is going down

under a comment from TennaFromDeltarune-q5f saying “i can’t tell if the title changing is just meant to be a joke or if they’re trying to stat an ARG 😭” (a/n exactly what i’m thinking lmaooo) jujiper replies “LOLhey haha is tha. is that tenna. haha. haahahaa. oh my gosh… a celebertiry…. woww..!can i have autopgepagh? Frkm you? Tennar tv time? The Only Arg Here is PIRATEs BABY!!! GO MY ONE PIECE

under a comment from isabelle9812 saying “me if you even care tbh” jujiper replies “if you are the isabelle i think you are. i will find you”

isabelle replies: wait who r u

jujiper replies: meowwwww meeeeooowww mmmmmmeeeoeoowww i’m wary of any isabelle that crosses my path

under comment from jonarbucklehastakenovermylife asking why the title keeps changing jujiper replies:

REALLY? Hold on i’m checking this oute

also? the title hasn’t changed lol i don’t have the ability to change anything in this video once it’s posted

ALL OF ARBUCKLE AMV GOES CRAZY. OH MY GOD

jonarbucklehastakenover replies:

wait really? i swear to god this video used to be called “mr.jarkle in the fluor” or something but i have terrible memory

jujiper replies:

a lit of people think im changing the title but i have no idea what they mean by that 😭😭

[doodblebob]

The house heads are a bit docile, I feel that they’re like Safe havens. When near them, the other creepy crawlies don’t come near. As if they know not to mess with these being.

I’ll show a video on how I took these pictures. Ghoghurt was a big help. Also! I actually found a house head that let me live in them! They’re very nice. I’ll show you why you shouldn’t live in the houses on the ground or live in houses already occupied.

[doodblebob]

Duawolves, the adults have two heads… and they’re pretty large …

Start of Entry

Location: idk , I went into a hopper puddle and then I was around a lot vegetation.

This dimension is very world.

Anyways, the duawolves are the same as milky way galaxies wolves. Can be tamed as a pup. You can pet them. But make sure they have large spaces to live.