Entry #308 February 15, 2015 7:35 pm
Yow! Its been 1 and a half month since my last post but MOTHERF*CKER lots of things have happened.. I cant promise to actually give You a detailed flashback of the events but Ill do my best.. and You know why I use the vulgar phrase, I have just watched Deadpool last Feb 14.. huehue.. You know I say vulgar stuff out of habit so yeah.. Nwei, that pic above was the first date of the Misaki*Usui counterpart here in the Philippines, at least on our imagination.. That date only lasted for less than an hour, and Ill be talking about the details latuuur.. :)
Lets start with the last thing I can remember since New Year..
January 1, I was duty at the lying in that time, had 2 deliveries so it was a tiring day for me.. Also started building my RG Destiny..
January 2, a member of LAVA tried to play prank with me by pretending shes a hot chick and stuff.. But Im a professional stalker thats why he was already busted earlier on. I also am not sure if this was the day when Lianne reacted to my previous entry thru Jroy.. Oh well, as far as I remember she put me on that place of my life, and I think she has no right to judge or criticize my methods of moving on.. I dont care how low the methods I use to move on, what is important to me is I move on, so I can be of equal standing with her since she moved on from me on a very spectacular and fast manner, mabilis pa sa alas kwatro ang pagmove on..
January 5, I think I went to naga with ate Zyra to get our NBI Clearances.. no hit for me since I have a rare name to begin with.. hoho. :)
June 6, drug test.. hugot mode.. -3-
“So yun, nagpadrug test ako.. Pero sabi negative.. She was my Ecstasy, she was my Tetrahydrocannabinol, she was my metamphetamine hydrochloride..she was my addiction, my drugs. Pero the drug test said negative.. wala, move on na po.. -3-pero may mas disturbing na abnormal value sa Urinalysis ko:
Sperm Cell Count: TNTC”
Also started watching a promising Anime, called Prince of Stride.. So much handsome characters and parkour/relay sports.. -3-
January 7, I think there was no class on this day, so I went to the japanese resto I was eyeing for a long time and finally got to eat there.. yey for Yakisoba!
January 8, Bro Jett’s Bday.. like always, made a secret.. but no one is stopping us from celebratiiiing!
January 9, Im done with RG Destiny.. with full detailing and decals.. :)
January 11, start of my work for the NDP 2016 renewal.. Eyes set on the goal, earn and save money, then rock for the pursuit of the Japan dream.. Also started watching God Eater, and got the idea of playing PSP games.. remembered that I need to finish some games which are pretty much important to the game series that I am tuning in like Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep and Final Fantasy 7: Crisis Core.
January 14, my order came from Lazada using my credit card.. and this just means more games and programs to support my hobbies and sidelines..
January 15, some tried hacking my accounts on Paypal and FB.. surprise motherfucker, You cant touch my accounts.. :)
January 17, Fiesta ng Sto. Niño.. I was requested by my mom to carry our statue of Sto Niño for pilgrimage so yeah.. I prepared.
January 21, the scheduled Orientation for the new NDPs and the old ones.. me being the Coordinator and leader meant me introducing the Vinzons Municipal Health Office.. -3- and this was the time I was informed that my position was Nurse II.. -3- Also ate at Sakuragi some California Maki.. :)
January 27, Deworming day event.. I had so much frustrations about the event due to last year..
“Last year, supposedly mga teachers dapat ang magbibigay ng Deworming meds sa mga studyante nila.. pero dahil takot sila na pagmaymangyare daw dun sa bata eh sila ang liable, ako ang ginawa nilang tagabigay at tagasubo ng meds.. Take note, buong School ako ang nagbigay, paisa isa sa bawat classrooms..NOT THIS YEAR MATES, NOT THIS YEAR.”
Pero sige, dahil mabait ako, oh well..
January 29, Finally, I finished playng Dangan Ronpa.. an amazing game for aspiring lawyers and detectives.. :)
January 31, I started with Kingdom Hearts Birth by Sleep.. :) and I actually finished Ventus storyline on the same day..
Feb 3, I finished Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep.. and finally understood the chapter before the Kingdom Hearts series.
and look at my face during work.. the face of an exhausted and a guy who lacks sleep. -3-
I decided to add more spice to my 2 year old Gundam Meijimbo.. Lianne doesnt want to pilot it anymore so I had to change it in a way.. so I decided to put decals on it.
Feb 4, my PC started acting up due to my experiment.. I tried using my 2 gig ram with my 4 gig ram to achieve a 6 gig ram for the board, but the unit started acting up in the morning so I had to fix em up during lunch and dinner.
Feb 5, the LSS’s scheduled mini-jam at Naga.. I was already prepared by 9 am when my DMO supervisor called in for some super important stuff.. I was supposed to be off on that day but I was really needed to I had to make a short detour at the MHO and smoothen things up, then went to the terminal straight for Naga.. I arrived around 1 I think and met up at Flit’s dorm.. There, Tenten and Jroy intercepted me along with Flitsu.
we then ate our lunch at Rai Rai Ken at SM Naga and had talked about so much..
After roaming around SM and watching some kids at the big hall, we decided to go back to Flit’s dorm and just chill, we visited the 7-11 there and I bought some stuff for my collection.. yeah. :)
Ate Ten had to go back to Legazpi by 5 pm so me and Jroy had to accompany her to the Van terminal, then bid our goodbyes to her.. as for flit, he had to do his laundry, yes, his laundry so he gave us a spoiling gift for making an effort to jam at naga and checked us in at a hotel super duper close to us. Im amazed since the hotel was managed with a frequency card technology. huehuehue. and we hanged out and played and did stuff. Jroy and Flit played all the way until 4 am, and meet Jason, Flit’s fellow intern, also from Camarines Norte..
Feb 6, here’s me in the morning due to foursome.. -3-
Another aftermath Groufie..
After our preparations, we decided to go home since we need to check out before 12 pm.. I bid my farewell and arrived at Daet around 12 or 1 pm.. I immediately went to Sakuragi and bought some sweet deals for myself..
Feb 7, resumed playing PSP, this time I tried finishing FF7: Crisis Core.. And this is how I am being a Mama’s boy.. -3-
and at 9 pm I finally finished the whole Crisis Core.. TT_TT
naconceive pala ang Final Fantasy 7 dahil sa punyetang tula na LOVELESS na yan at dahil sa gusto lang pala bigyan ni Genesis si Sephiroth ng mansanas. Hayuf. TT_TT
Tapos ko na ang FF7, Advent Children, Dirge of Cerberus (Si Vincent Valentine ang pinakamalakas sa FF7), Last Order at finally ang Crisis Core.. Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. Well see kung makakalaro ako ng Remake ng FF7 where rumors ay if you pay, you can opt to select an alternate story where Aerith is alive..
Feb 8, just attended the class for Masters.. and have cleaned my workplace for an upcoming project.. :)
Feb 11, 1st day of the seminar for the Polio End Game plan.. I travelled along with Jeewani and Ryan to Legazpi. Left at 7 am and arrived at legazpi around 11:30 am.. then went to proceed my business..
after the seminar, we were accommodated at Tanchuling Hotel in the evening.. I didnt do much and just stared at the city which held so much memories for me.
Next day, Feb 12, just wrapped up the topics to be covered and then discussed about our reporting system.. plus finally, I get to introduce to you her.. Ive mentioned her in one of my entries here, regarding a cute lady with so much intelligence and stuff during our performance evaluation review at Sto Domingo Albay..
She is Dra Rita, the family cluster head of DOH Region 5, and shes my greatest crush. Baket? Kasi she is so intelligent, bubbly at napakabrutally deadly ng jokes nya..literal. I like how she technically explain things and comprehensively discuss them.. But why am I so fond of her? Because she reminds me of someone.. Short at maputi, pero matalino.. Sad kasi ikakasal na sya but oh well.. (just so you know, she is more than 30 years old but if given the chance, Id marry her.. -3-)
Anyway, around noon, my professor during my college days, Sir Vhoye PMed me and told me the college has a special request from me.. Its been 4 years since I graduated and still they remember me for my skill set and stuff.. So after our release from Ysabelle, I immediately went to the DOH Regional Office, its actually super duper near Miss Serrano’s house that is why I am very cautious on going to that street, I dont want to get caught.. after claiming the License to Operate Certificate of our Birthing Facility which its 55% was my effort, I rushed to Bicol University to visit my requesting prof.. Upon arrival, I tried mesmerizing some memories during the college days..
After that, I intercepted Sir Vhoye, then I was invited to the faculty room, there I was greeted by my professors from different year levels, saying “Oh, Mr Baclili”.. I cant help but feel proud, that I made dents to the school, me being remembered, I know I will live forever.. Sir Livica calling me JimmyBoi, Maam Palencia calling me by my surname, Sir Vhoye calling me bro.. Things have been different eversince I graduated.. hahahahaha. On to business, Maam Barela, Maam Ludovice and the Dean, Maam Alcala called upon me to actually do their Manual’s layout and proof reading.. which happens to be one of my skill sets as a Community health nurse.. I was starting to think I was brought there by God for a reason.. So I accepted the side job and was offered a big amount.. I told them no, this is for the alma matter, its for free, but they insisted so I had no choice.. Maam Recierdo, my so called professor girlfriend during the college days was there too. I told them that I will work on it till 6 pm today and continue the next day, and the first manual will be finished by 12 nn.. Im just that work focused and dangerous.. after finalizing my works, I then went to Gaisano to actually surprise someone.. Roxanne. Actually, weve been talking for almost 1 month and 12 days, straight, even beating me and Ashley’s record. She calls me Usui, of course due to my recent cosplay, and becoz I have actually mimicked some of Usui’s traits, like his pervetedness and his cool talking factor, that is according to her. In turn, I call her Misaki, thus making the UsuixMisaki partnership. We started talking since new year.. I was to spy and observe here and give her my present.. but first I needed to disguise as a costumer so she wont notice that I already have intercepted her.. :)
I ordered from them donuts then went on and ate em like a normal costumer.. I was texting her during this time and she still had no clue it was me.. So I texted her that Ill be leaving the pandecillos at the table and for her to get it.. :) I got the reaction I need from her.. Haha. Afterwards, I went home at Tita Sarah’s place.
Feb 13, I was expecting for my Itinerary to be lax on this day, but due to a special request, my morning will be dedicated to BUCN’s task for me. Anyhows, I did make a little stroll at BU before I went to CN around 8 am.. One pic with the centree at the back..
And me while working at the Research Extension Room of BUCN..
The peculiar thing while I was working there, everytime my professors ask me of my current career status, they always get shocked when I say I am working as a Nurse II, a Community Health Nurse under the DOH NDP Program.. I tell them its no biggie (although the the best of the best nurses being screened are accepted as NDP on each province). Eitherway, I continued working on their project and in just 4 hours, I was already done with their Manual layout, and have also improved the performance of their computer.. easy as pie.. :) after meeting up with Sir Vhoye who kept on bugging me for my talent fee, I told them I still need to finish the english version so I cant name my price yet..(althoug I really can put a price on it). After giving sir my bank account details, I immediately went to the BU College of Medicine and had a good stare at the school I dreamed to go to.. but again I cant coz we dont have that money.. I mean, we do have the money now but its too late for me to study medicine..
After that detour at BUCM, I went to Gai to take my lunch.. went to Biggs and finally after many visits they are now serving Mixed Veggies.. -3-
they also have this hype for Valentines.. urghhhhhhhhhh..
After lunch, I then watched the movie being screened at Gai, called “How to be Single”.. and I finished watching em at 4:30 pm.. It was a great movie, with Dakota and all.. plus some lesson and insights about being Single.. we really should cherish it until the right one arrives. I then positioned myself to spy upon Misaki at the 3rd floor, but for some grim twist of fate again, I saw Miss Serrano and her group of friends from the Accountancy.. I was staring at her for a few seconds, then changed my direction since I cant bear to see her face. After a few moments, I resumed my original mission and observed Misaki for a while, then again ambushed her so I can buy coffee and her donuts.. Then I went to Dellicas to eat some California Maki.. :) went home around 8:30 pm..
As I rest in my bed, I cant help but think about the things that happened between me and Miss Serrano.. There were real flashbacks, both happy and sad moments.. and I was really determined to do my final rites.. She had moved on so fast that me catching up was near impossible.. despite that, I closed my eyes and waited for me to fall asleep.. The Epilogue of my love story is about to start..
February 14.. around 1 am I woke up for feeling heavy.. I dont know, maybe its my heart or its just gravity.. I told myself that its a day to let people know of their true feelings, so I PMed Ashley and told her what I truly felt all the while.. I confessed to her that during the times that we were that kinda close, I liked her.. but I had to back away for reason, one being is that I was broken so yeah.. it was a long message but that would be between me and her..
10 am, I was already prepared for the pilgrimage, it was dark and rainy, the exact same weather 3 years ago.. despite that, my mind was set that I will go and finish this, rain or shine.. a test of conviction.. along with me, was the greatest gift I ever gave to her, the Akali Kamas..
I first went to Daraga.. to the very first place we met, Hearts and Crafts.. as I near the vicinity, I cant help but get sad, because the place was turned to a department store/bazaar..
I still entered and went to the spot where me and Miss Serrano had our first scene, 2nd floor.. the very same place and position I was when she arrived..
“ This used to be the Hearts n Crafts.. I buy my cheesy stuff here before. Now its just a dept store. I only remember calling myself Daniel Padilla on that date, pero bakit sya inimpersonate ko when in fact mas pogi ako sakanya.. ”
After smelling the place, I went out and decided to visit Colonial Grill near UI.. I arrived around 11 am and I wanted the exact seat we had when me and Miss Serrano dated there, so I waited for an hour.. yes, I waited for an hour for the ones eating there to be done, I told the waitresses there to reserve that place for me, that I needed that place for me to celebrate Valentines.. and I got what I wanted..
“ Hindi talaga ito part ng date na yun pero dumaan n lng din ako, this place is at colonial grill sa may UI, the same seat where we had our greatest stare selfie and my first try of sili ice cream lvl 2.. ”
I only ate the ice cream for 5 minutes and mesmerized the memories there.. after finishing an early dessert, I went to Gaisano for my lunch..
“This was the spot where we had our lunch sa Jolibee, if I remember nahuli pa nga kame dito ng classmates nya ata eh..”
I literally had to watch over the seat so I can get the place then reserved it by placing the kamas on the seats.. After eating my lunch, I rushed to the 2nd floor to see Misaki and buy some dough nuts since I plan to eat them during my viewing of Deadpool.. I did a little stop over at Shakeys though..
“ Me crush kame dito na guy sa shakeys.. Gwapo talaga. Kaso hindi na sya nagwowork dun. ”
After saying my goodbyes, I rushed to Bitchara Silverscreens, had a break, and watched the movie Ive been waiting for.. :)
“ Bawal magpic sa loob eh. But on that day, we watched a movie called a moment in time, starring coco and julia.. But the important part there is I was able to steal a kiss.. ”
I finished watching Deadpool on time so I was on my way, bought a can of beer at 7-11 then went to St. Rafael since it was a Sunday..
“ I have to pay respects.. This is where we usually go to church, she used to sing here tsaka sa St Jude.. This is also the place where I cry my probs away, mostly lovelife probs since acads are easy.. ”
I was en route to Embarcadero after the mass, and the wind was getting stronger and colder, with drizzles turned to heavy droplets.. the path to Embarcadero was getting longer and heavier to bear.. but I held the kamas in my hand firmly and proceeded still.. I went to its 2nd floor, full of lovers and partners and couples and the like.. I was the only one there to be with only himself.. I stared at the distance, and I realized that the journey is coming to a close..
No matter the odds, I will get there.. there was no turning back.. the insurmountable pain had to end.. I only had the kamas and sheer force of will to get to that final destination.. that place had stories to tell.. I will get to that place, the resting place of my feelings, for I needed to let go..
Motherfucking poetry while I eat me chocolate.. :) Anyway, although it was raining, I continued.. each step was done with a meaningful step.. at the fork road, I stopped, and had a good gaze at that point.. It was raining slowly.. The wind blowing cold streams of memories as I slowly start walking towards the end. before I knew it, I was at that spot, the same place, position where I asked a question which started the roller coaster love story that I had.. as time passed, the crying sky slowly halted its sorrow.. He was giving me a chance to remaster the sequence of memories that started from that point.. I sat at the edge despite the wet concrete floor, placed the kamas in front of me, took out my beer and drank it with sincerity.. I took a snapshot of what was happening right on that moment.. I wanted that moment preserved in a photograph like how Ed Sheeran described it..
“ I built these Kamas with my heart and soul, I poured my feelings in making them.. But it was turned away and was returned.. Now Im putting it in its proper resting place.. Along with my feelings.. I dont say this much but I guess it will be the first time here.. Sayonara.. ”
I bid my goodbyes to the things which was included in that mastered art.. a weapon made of rubber and metal, forged using the heat of my feelings, constructed with her image on my mind.. I drank my beer still.. and as time flew each second, my eyes began to become a spring.. I was holding myself up, I tried to stop from crying.. But given that the situation was so surreal, I surrendered, I gave in.. I cried..
Well, I picked myself up and finished my beer. On that point, I kinda felt light, somewhat the heavy feeling was removed.. I took out my phone again and contacted Miss Serrano via PM on FB.. I gave her a long message.. and greeted her Happy Valentines..
I know for a fact that I have experienced love.. for if it didnt hurt, it wont be.. but it did. And yes, I am still glad that love happened to me, I know something in me changed from that moment.. I will remember her always.. I will love her always and she will always have a special place in my heart.. Aside from the fact that she took something from me last December 20, 2013, Ill carry some of her genetic composition with me.. Pure Science.. -3- And maybe that is why I am able to smile again..
After reminiscing, I officially ended the Pilgrimage at 6 pm.. I decided to go back to Gaisano since my date for the day is still at work.. On the way, near the legazpi port, I saw a glimpse of what looked like Miss Serrano, the figure was with 2 girls, she was wearing a back pack.. I cannot ascertain if it was her, due to the darkness covering us from evening.. I continued to walk a little further, then looked back and stared at the figure for a few more minutes.. the hair, the short height, the way she walked.. I knew it was her.. I knew from that point, that Lianne was going to Embarcadero..
I immediately rushed to Gai and waited for Misaki to finish work.. I actually had a massage session at one of the machines at the 3rd floor, spent time at Misaki’ stall while I drank coffee until it was 9 pm.. Me and Roxanne dated for the remaining 1 hour since I had to be back home by 10 pm.. We talked about a lot of things, we walked and talked towards 7-11 at Legazpi, of course took our selfie, then went back to Ayala mall and spent our quality time at the seats there talking about each other since it was the first time we actually talked in person.. :) then at 10 pm, we decided to part ways.. I made her feel that Usui is protecting her, and before I left at the jeep, I gave her a kiss at the cheek which Im sure stunned her.. -3-
I went home, and spent my night remembering everything that happened on February 14.. Also, Ashley replied finally.. the content, secreeeeeeeeeet.. -3- My first girlfriend also made her presence felt, she messaged me and we talked for a long time as well.
feb 15, I prepared for my departure home..
this place held a lot of memories.. I dont know when I will be back.. maybe never, or for a long time.. so I said my goodbyes to Tita and Sir, and I was on my way home.. arrived at Daet around 1 pm then immediately went to my work place to deliver the important document to my supervisor.. then went home and rested.
Feb 16, early morning I got a belated greeting from Donnalyn, my 6th and a reply from Miss Serrano.. I told her I will try my best to do the Substance over Form principle as much as possible.. then the busy sched for my work took place..
Soul, You have seen that a lot of things happened.. Thank You very much.. I always pray to You and You know my prayers very well.. Please continue to guide me and forgive me for whatever reason that I might have upset You.. now I can proceed with my life.. I closed a chapter in my life, but Youve opened new ones.. You opened Roxanne and Elly’s chapters.. and its going to be difficult sooner or later since once again, I might need to break a heart and choose among the candidates..
I just dont know what big events will happen next, but I might not be able to attend the last Anigaiden.. with that said, I can have more money saved in preparation for my Japan plans..
