much talk about how essek is mentally ill in the gifted kid sense but let’s really quickly go back to the part where he holds himself responsible for his father’s death(?) and considers this to be the worst thing he’s ever done(?) but it’s fine don’t worry about it ahaha he didn’t like him all that much anyway. so it’s okay. maybe he’ll be reborn soon anyway. and the part about how his experimental magic is dangerous as in it could obliterate him entirely in an instant dangerous but it’s okay don’t worry that’s why he makes sure no one else is around before he tries anything. and the part about being careful because what you just said could be taken as blasphemy by the dynasty and that could be very dangerous all on its own (he says, while he is the closest thing you can be to an atheist in a dnd setting and while his mother is a prominent religious figure)