*banging my head against the wall repeatedly* ow ow ow ow again. ow ow ow ow ow ow
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*banging my head against the wall repeatedly* ow ow ow ow again. ow ow ow ow ow ow
aorry for not posting much today i am. not feeling well physically or mentally
agonizing over the doctor fic for no good reason
its becoming MUCH longer than i intended and i really wanted part 2 to be roughly around the same length as part 1. but at how im writing rn either the next few chapters will be over 20k each or i divide em into more chapters.
but im overtly worried im just dragging this on and its not 'entertaining'. specifically that part 1 is so. different from the second half a the fic. first part was much more body horror and anxiety and intense shit so i worry this part is inadequate or is just not worth so many words. like the wip i have rn is around 14k and it covers 2 scenes, lynx meeting sampo and gep dealing with his grief and anger. i had a LOT of other scenes i wanted to write in this ch like... jus looked at my draft n i had 9 other scenes i wanted to do in this chapter. thats a lot. and i wanted all of these to be short scenes but thats lookin like it aint possible.
so i could a) say fuckit and post this wip as a chapter and just have more chapters (what i prob should do), b) keep writing all these scenes in one mega chapter and maybe whittle down the word count, or c) delete some of the scenes i had in mind for the ones more central to the plot and maybe write them as one shots posted seperately (tempting, but i dont wanna do it)
i really hate the allmother. not as characters, but as, like, a subject to read about. there's just something so uncanny about their sameface situation and their constant tiny smiles. feels like i'm facing an army of clones or something. awful. please stop making me look at them
noticing small errors on my drawing is making me want to cave my head in but it's okay we stay silly
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUGHHHHHHH.
goddamn i wish i was better at, like, People.
qui veut deviner qui a des problèmes technicales avec son ordinateur ENCORE et doit faire une pause dans son écriture de fictions ENCORE!!! 🙃