Every Moment Holy
I’m a Jesus follower. Lately I haven’t been engaged in my relationship with Him. It’s like when your friend stops texting you first, doesn’t ask you to hang, and doesn’t tag you in memes anymore. I’m that friend. It’s interesting how much losing that time with Jesus has effected me. Lot’s of people would think, why does it matter? You still believe in God right? For sure! But the last couple of weeks when I’ve been ghosting Jesus, I’ve been grumpy, rude, and passive-aggressive to the people I love. I’ve hated everyone and hated myself. It’s not that the rest of my life is stressful or even boring. I’m working my dream job for the summer with my best friend and a lot of my other favourite people. My life is actually pretty perfect right now, but without Jesus? It’s all crap. I’ve been finding it hard to get back into hanging out with God. The liturgy book, Every Moment Holy, has really helped me engage in conversation with Him. At least once a day I open that beautiful little leather book and read a prayer. It feels very personal, even though I’m reading someone else’s words. These liturgies lead me to scripture, personal prayer, and reflection. Some days I feel like I’m going through the motions, but some days I feel the peace and presence of Jesus surrounding me and going with me. My biggest challenge lately is staying present. If you’re familiar with the Enneagram, then you’ll know what I mean when as say as a 9, I’m prone to disassociating to keep false peace. I’ve been doing that a lot lately. I feel like I’m being challenged to stay present in every moment and experience the day God has put before me, even the boring or uncomfortable parts. Now when I feel myself slipping into a world of my own imagination or turning to my phone to drown out the world, I can catch myself and be in the moment instead. Every. Moment. Holy.
