#disassociation

[desirebecomesher]

A crowded room, too many voices. My heart is racing and eyes flitting, darting from item to item - wow that thing looks great, the paint is chipping…how long has that stain been there?

The faces around me featureless, blurred and melting. My vision tunnelled the world around me growing tall as I am shrinking, disappearing into myself, my hands grip the fabric atop my thighs

Breathe

Just

Breathe

I can hear my own heartbeat in my ears, my voice strangled in my own throat.

A question is asked

Smile

Nod

Smile again

Look through them

Pretend to engage

‘They can’t see that you’re not here’

I’m gone with the wind, my body present but I’m elsewhere, stuck somewhere in the sea of my thoughts and the rushed blood in my veins.

My leg bouncing frantically being the only thing keeping me from sinking.

Another question

All eyes are on me

I’m back in the room

“I’m sorry, can you repeat that?”

[alilweirddragon]

Tw: mental health issues ahead

Sometimes I don’t think I even know how big my emotions can get cuz my brain has just learned to “switch it off” when necessary.

Like when I had to put my cat down, I was non stop crying the whole day. I didn’t want to say goodbye to my son. I felt so so nauseous as time ran out I nearly threw up when it had finally been done. Then literally seconds later, I just felt nothing. Sure I was still crying, I couldn’t stop that. but I couldn’t feel that overwhelming grief anymore.

Then other times I will spiral over the stupidest of things (a crush) when my brain is literally telling me why this is happening and is being all logical, but I just can’t calm down.

It’s just all so fucking stupid I hate my brain sometimes lmao

[disasterbisexualandco]

Just opened a fortune cookie that said “Love and romance will bloom in October”. Who wants to join my small army if the yearnings are still going hard in November?

Out first stop is the fortune cookie factory to complain and stock up and then we proceed to a wonderful place full of pints of ice cream and playlists ready to be made. Poetry and music stations available too, equipped with moody shower for peak yearning media creation. Any additions to our yearning ppl paradise?

[beastoftreaure]

[cmweller]

Challenge #04929-M180: In Daydreams of Daisies

"I disassociate for one afternoon and now I'm MARRIED?!" -- Your Humble Author

Princess Felicitee Miette Trajydiegh Parleighview de Maunterazz had a habit of retreating into her rich fantasy world and letting her body do what Lithonesse trained it to do. It was much more pleasant in her fantasy world, where she did little more but weave daisy crowns for a long, long queue of creatures happy to wait for her next daisy crown.

Everyone who was schooled in Lithonesse had their methods for surviving its stresses. It didn't matter what it was because Lithonesse only cared that its students did what was proper at all times. Many had the Lithonesse Twitch. Some broke into fragments.

Princess Felicitee had her fantasy meadow of daisies. Which she startled out of when she felt someone's lips on hers.

[Check the source for the rest of the story]

[id-unfuck-u-if-i-could]

Dissociating in my 30 year old car on my lunch break listening to the impression that I get while eating veggie sticks

[bisexual-maelstrom12]

Serious thoughts time but can't believe the worst disassociation/depersonalization of my life so far is being caused just by the stress of dealing with an insurance company after a car accident 🫠

[venuscurse]

i wish i wasn’t me anymore , i wouldn’t want anyone to be so miserable