This isn't easy at all. I thought once I broke it off I would miss you once in a while but not like this. Not every second I give myself time to miss you. I've been babysitting in the mornings. And every time I hold that little baby, or I see a cute family at work, I think of us. I think of our future. God I miss you. I thought saying we were on a break and that we could still talk and wanting to talk about things when you get home... I thought that meant something. But I can't even get a text back. It's like you never actually loved me at all... Well I could have assumed that myself. But I just can't understand why you'd change so drastically like this. I miss my sweet, amazing, caring, and attentive boyfriend. I miss the way I'd hold your hand and arm close to me while we walked. Or when you had your arm around me and would kiss every inch of my face just because you felt like it. I miss tracing the tattoos on your arm. God damnit Chris, you're an ass hole. You came home and didn't even make time for me when you realized you wouldn't get any. But fuck I miss you. This sucks. I need to get over it.