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zinnia: a memory of an absent friend.

Hmm, it’s cliché of course, but there was as a girl.

She was my first love, and I think she could’ve been my last, if things hadn’t gone the way they had. But they did, so there’s not much point thinking about it, is there? If you look back, all you’ll ever get is the dirt kicked up by the steps before.

She had the most beautiful eyes, like the moon. A smile like starlight.

Well… I’m sure a girl like that already found a new lover, so it’s better if I continue looking forward.

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Crocus, Begonia, Hyacinth

crocus: what makes you happy?

Hmm, it’ll probably sound like a cheap shot, but I think I’m happiest when I’m in The Little Penguin, seeing people’s faces brightening at the start of Magic Hours. To think that I can put those smiles and that wide-eyed wonder in someone’s eyes, to make adults feel like kids again on their first time in Disneyland, that makes me really happy!

Of course, I’m also happy when I can spend time with my friends, like you, or Amber or Eunji. Or when Jongkook hyung cracks a smile at my jokes! But that’s more like a miracle, I think.

begonia: what are you wary of?

People who think they can change the way things work. They’re just set up for disappointment. What can a handful of us do against the entire government of South Korea? Is it even that important? Life on the island isn’t so bad, so I would rather those rebellion groups don’t stir up trouble. I don’t mind Chrysantheum, they’re mostly nice and just do propo, which is just fine, but effort spend in vain, I’m afraid. (Sorry, Hayi, but you knew that already, of course. It’s sweet you’re trying to heal people though.)

Also. Drunk customers trying to destroy my tables by dancing on them. Please don’t? I have a floor that’s perfectly dance-able, and I believe you’re a killer during karaoke, please don’t prove it to me. (Unless it is karaoke night, of course.)

hyacinth: what makes you get jealous?

Jealous? Me? I – pff, what are you even talking about? Who do I even have to be jealous about? Jongkook hy–oppa? Don’t be ridiculous, I don’t care. He can talk to whoever he wants to. And those pretty girls can just continue to stand there and smile and giggle all they want, it’s not jealousy, it’s pity. Do they think he cares? Ha! Let me tell you something about that! He doesn’t care, so what does it matter? And touching his arms like that will just annoy him further, ugh. Amateurs.

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What is something that causes them to question themselves?

Donghoon is the kind of person who lets go incredibly easily. While he likes people very quickly and calls a person his friend very quickly, he will just as easily drop them if they make mistakes or end up not what he thought he believed. He doesn’t really miss his family at all, or lets things really get to him. He’s a master in letting go, in moving on, in not holding any grudges or past regrets – except sometimes, sometimes, that makes him wonder if maybe he doesn’t love right.

If he truly loved a person, truly cared for them, then how could he just discard them because they’re gone? How can he say he loved someone if them walking away from him means he will spare them no more thought.

Sometimes he fears that, that something inside him grew wrong or twisted, and now he can’t truly love anymore. He doesn’t doubt that people love him, or trust him, but he’s so used to lying and letting go, that he’s really afraid that pure, honest love isn’t something he’s capable of.

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☎, ❤ and ☾.

☎ :List three or more people they would call out for during an emergency.

The first one is the most obvious one, of course: his hyung and personal bodyguard Kim Jongkook. Donghoon very heavily relies on his protection and his know-how to fix any and all problems he finds himself in. Often to the annoyance and eye-rolling of said hyung.

If he was in an emergency where he needed something fixed quickly, he’d call for his lovely dongsaeng Moon Bin.

Uhm. His mommy?

❤ :

Describe a physical action that shows complete trust.

As mentioned in the previous post: if you can touch HaHa without him seeing you do it and not have him flinch away, you know you have his complete trust.

While not being a physical action, but since it’s related to his physical appearance, I’ll post it here too: if HaHa shows you his true self, not some kind of illusionary disguise, if you know Ha Donghoon and not Eunhye, or another mask, then you know you have earned all his trust. For him, there is nothing that leaves him more vulnerable than the truth, nothing scarier than taking off his masks. So being allowed to look behind those, that is absolute, complete, and utter trust.

☾ :On a sleepless night, what would they be found doing?HaHa will most likely be munching away at something and either be fixing something up in the restaurant, or playing around with his illusions. He doesn’t like just sitting around doing nothing.

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❤,✖,☢

❤ : Describe a physical action that shows complete trust.

HaHa is a very tactile, affectionate person, loving to touch people and loving to be touched too, so his physical actions often don’t speak of the level of trust and affection other people assign to it. He likes people easily, and he doesn’t bother holding back on touching people: hugs, pats on the head, stroking someone’s hair, massaging someone’s shoulders, even sitting in someone’s lap – it all goes.

It is a silly gesture really, but being allowed to touch HaHa’s shoulders – without him flinching away – that shows his trust completely. A simple massage, a backhug, or even wrapping your arms around the back of his chair, if he doesn’t freeze before trying to play it off, you know HaHa trusts you completely.

✖ :Describe a way to make them uneasy or apprehensive.

Honestly, there are many ways to do this. HaHa is almost phobic of conflict and really hates arguments and fights, so naturally, he doesn’t like aggressive or blunt people. Perhaps the easiest way to make him apprehensive is the way to make any consumate, regular liar apprehensive: by questioning him. He doesn’t like people not trusting him (even if sometimes he shouldn’t be trusted), or people trying to pick apart at his white lies, questioning his motives, trying to find flaws in his stories. It’s not that he has no answer to the questions – catching him speechless is a true miracle, but he would still prefer to just have people go with his stories.

Also.

Do not mention the height. Just don’t go there.

☢ :Describe a thought or dream that would cause them to have a mental meltdown.

For Donghoon, nothing is scarying than the truth. The thought of being viewed for who he really is and being found unworthy, being discarded by his friends and being left alone – nothing scares him more than that. It’s that singular thought: of being unworthy of respect, of love, of friendship, that causes him to hide behind all his masks and illusions. That way, if they dislike a version of him, it wasn’t his true self.