30 Days of Character Development!
20.) Does your character have any irrational fears?
Ok. THIS ONE IS ALL THE SPOILERS. FACADE PEOPLE, DON'T READ IT IF YOU WANT TO FIND OUT IN THE STORY.
Oh gods. WELL. I KINDA ALLUDED TO ONE IN THAT LAST POST.
Taoshaid's a derp. He's not afraid of heights if he's on the ground. SO UH. MOUNTAINS? THEY'RE COOL. CLIFFS ARE ALSO COOL. BUT. FLYING ON SOME DRAGON'S BACK OR SOMETHING? OR EVEN JUST FLYING ON A FLUFFY LITTLE MAGICAL CLOUD, EVEN AT A LOWER ALTITUDE THAN THE CLIFF OR MOUNTAIN... no.
He'd sorta flip some shit. LOL He'd probably flip some shit even if he was on a horse, or on a thing that wasn't solidly 'attatched' to the ground somehow.
This said, he would be really uncomfortable 'riding on someone's shoulders'. He doesn't approve of being picked up either, but he'll deal if necessary.
The next one is kinda more hilarious.
Taoshaid gets really nervous around people who aren't in his sect / of his race showing him 'positive' emotions. Like. If someone was happy that he showed up, he'd sorta weird out a bit. Likewise, any act of kindness or any show of fondness towards him from 'outsiders' MAKES HIM ALL THE UNCOMFORTABLE.
All he hopes for is civility and a certain amount of respect. He expects, however, to be treated like shit. But if anything goes beyond his hopes, he's in completely unfamiliar territory, and doesn't know how to react to kindness from these people. LOL
For one thing, he believes he 'exists on a different plane' than they do, like, completely. IT'S LIKE HE'S A GHOST OR SOMETHING. He's there to observe, and sometimes direct and 'correct the balance', not to interact and become a pivotal force in someone's life. Especially something that is contributing directly and personally to their happiness. So. WHEN THEY LIKE. ARE NICE TO HIM. It's like, you've been invisible all your life, and someone suddenly sees you and starts talking to you. You're all like. WAIT. WAIT, WHAT? WHAT'S HAPPENING?!?!jndkf
Also, he believes in his sect's 'suppression of emotions'. HONESTLY GUYS, BUTTFACE IS A PERSON TOO. So he does have emotions, he just tries to keep them 'in check'. But when someone compliments him, or does some random act of kindness for him, ESPECIALLY given he's expecting to be treated like shit all the time (and usually is), he can't help but notice and feel something about it. And honestly, it scares him. Because they teach that emotion makes one 'unbalanced' and 'tilted at times of utmost importance'. So, he's pretty much fearing that he'll essentially 'fall from grace' so to speak, if he lets himself be happy over something from an outsider.
TLDR: HE'S DEATHLY AFRAID OF KINDNESS. But he secretly likes it, he just doesn't want to. LOL
He'll usually react badly to someone being nice to him cause of this, OR IF THEY PERSIST GET VIOLENT.. and then feel bad about it later, and hate himself for feeling bad and just GET ALL MESSED UP. ROFL
I await the time someone actually does this, because it'd be so hilarious.
EDIT: FORGOT THE MOST OBVIOUS ONES.
* Failing his sect / being banished.
^ that's actually number 1 in giant flashy seizure lights. He'd be so lost without them, his whole life would kinda fall apart and he wouldn't know what to do with himself anymore. Likewise, Taul'nn is a big chunk of this too. He'd be pretty devastated to lose her, but he doesn't fear for her on a regular basis, just if she gets to be in a REALLY tight spot.