Well tonight was great. And I truly mean that. I faced my fear and told my best friend I really do wanna be with him, more so by just going and kissing him. I think it was easier than talking about it. I just still can't believe after all this time between me being a bitch to him, turning him down , and him being hurt by a couple girls that he still likes me. I'm just glad I faced my fear because I feel amazing now, because they always say you'll never know unless you try. It didn't feel weird like I thought it would be. It felt normal and good because I know he cares about me. I felt safe. He's truly a great guy and I'm so thankful to have had him as a friend for all these years. He's been there for me through it all, no matter what the circumstance. It's time to realize that I'm worthy of a guy like him, and not all the casual hook ups I've done the past couple years. It still doesn't feel like tonight happened, but it did because I faced my fear and kissed my best friend of 7 years. Damn, I didn't see this coming at all, but I guess life is filled with surprises. Well that's my personal post for the night. Goodnight