#failing student

[pet-goblin]

mom said it's my turn to stop wasting time and procrastinating

[walkingintowalls]

10. Handwriting

My handwriting is awful. I know… And I’m sorry

I’m trying to make it better and neater, but it’s not working...

Hope y’all are having an amazing day/night/whatever time it is and stay beautiful!!

🎧 BIGBANG - FXXK IT

[walkingintowalls]

[1/100 Days of Productivity]

Finished my English speech and finished my English Tutor questions on the short film Two & Two.

Got around to posting my bullet journal. This is this week’s with a grey and white aesthetic... I’m sorry for the blurry ass picture...

(yes that is Yugyeom from GOT7 and Jimin from BTS... don’t judge me please)

🎧 GOT7 - Fly

[walkingintowalls]

[2/100 Days of Productivity]

Wrote up notes for my Circle Geometry exam that’s coming up next Monday.

Completely terrified but hopeful these notes help a bit. Mostly chord, angle, tangent and cyclic quadrilateral properties and theorems.

Tip for drawing quick circles: USE A COIN!!! It has literally saved my life and is so much quicker than a compass. 

Wish me luck and have a wonderful day/night/whatever time it is!! 

🎧 Troye Sivan - YOUTH (Son Lux Remix)

[walkingintowalls]

9. Favorite Font

If we’re talking non practical, I’m gonna be real with you, but it is the American Horror Story font. Mostly ‘cause I love the TV show but it’s also a pretty cool font.

But for all my speeches and all my essays, I use Times New Roman. Generic and basic, but can’t deny it’s pretty efficient.

[rookiemutt]

I’m going to lose my scholarship just because of this fucking math class whyy

[yagakkou-blog]

Synopsis of my school/moving stress.

Well, after much stressing, anger issues, and tears... maybe some extra naps. I have accepted the fact that I am very behind on school from moving and I have gotten over being hard on myself, being paralyzed by anxiety.

Joyce Meyer said one morning that God won’t just *insert “slooping/shooping” noise* Suck up all your problems because you won’t learn. I should have gotten way ahead before moving. I haven’t moved during school time before. Or had to take care of a toddler while trying to do work at home. I have lots of things to do around the house, errands to run, phone calls to make, things to fax. I still am not done switching things over to this State and address!! UGH!!!! I underestimated how hard this would be. By the time I am done with other things I’m either exhausted or a kid needs something or I am just paralyzed by being so anxious.

I have that perfectionist-type procrastination. It’s “all or nothing” in my head, which holds me back from starting something. Feeling like I should just give up BUT the perfectionist side still yells at me saying YOU MUST NEVER GIVE UP. YOU KNOW WHERE GIVER UPPERS END UP?!?!?!?!?!? Then queue the fear of being a nobody in life and having nothing to offer my family finance wise and nothing to offer myself calling/career wise. Plus I feel like all my professors are MAD at me. They are probably just wondering what the hell happened and if anything they are mad that I am too scared to even open my messages and read them, or let them know what’s going on.

I don’t think I am gonna push to make up work, but I am going to make sure I am caught up in my brain and finish things way ahead, so I can ask for clarity if I need it. The FTP (”fuck this place”) Server is the bane of my school existence right now. Math is always known as hell to my brain. The only thing that makes me mad is.... NONE OF THIS HAS TO DO WITH THE CAREER I WANT!?!?! USA just tryin to suck money out of us while they can. “ HEY let’s make them pay thousands to repeat what they learned in the last 12 years!!!”

Anyway, this post is for a memory for myself, but I’m sure some can relate. You should follow me at @lyinglikeleos because I’m a terrible studyblr example to follow. But at least I’m honest??? LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES, KIDS. DON’T TURN OUT LIKE AUNT HEATHER. Unless I do end up being successful and traveling and interpreting.

@scalingtheprecipice THANKS FOR YOUR ENCOURAGEMENT. <--- This girl visited me in Pittsburgh over the long weekend. #BESTIE

[a-co-ni-tum-blog]

I want to throw my laptop and run away and never do school and bury myself in the wilderness. Fuck, I'm pissed.

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