Hi @hunnybunnyerza! I'm really sorry for taking so long to answer your Ask! Things are pretty crazy lately ! But here it is and I really hope you'll like it! Let me know what you think of it!
"The heart wants what it wants.
There's no logic to these things,
You meet someone and you fall in love.
Erza sighs as she opens her eyes, her gaze focused on the ceiling. She is tired and her body aches from the mission she took earlier but she’s been laying on the bed for what feels like hundreds of hours and somehow she is still not able to fall asleep.
The bed shifts a little and her attention settles on the body that lays next to her. Lucy is fast asleep, breathing softly, her features completely calm and at peace. Her long hair is falling gently on her face. She is perfectly tucked under the blanket, her face and shoulders the only visible parts of her body. And yet she looks ethereal as the moonlight falls upon her skin, coming from the window that they once again forgot to close.
Maybe that’s why Erza can’t sleep. Because she is sharing a bed with a woman who looks to be a part of another world, a woman she feels has no reason to be laying next to her.
Lucy has always been so pure, almost like an angel, to Erza’s eyes. No matter how many years passed, and how much danger she faced, Lucy still had this vibrant light in her eyes.
And Erza doesn’t understand why such a person chose her to spend her life with.
Because Erza is tainted with darkness, has been since she was born. She is broken in so many ways, at so many places and she has so much scars, physical and mental. She is far from perfect and still has to fight with her demons.
Erza brings one of her hand up, and gently remove the strands that are on Lucy’s face.
She feels selfish, because even if she knows Lucy should definitely not be with her, Erza can’t help but still want to be with her, to feel her presence always.
“You deserve so much better than me...” She whispers.
Erza can feel her eyes fill up with tears and her throat is suddenly too tight. She knows if she stays here any longer she will not be able to hold her emotions in.
She’s about to get off the bed when a hand wraps around hers. Erza stills and lifts her gaze towards those brown eyes which she loves so much, and is surprised to see that they are now looking directly at her.
“Stay.” Lucy says, her voice soft, tender.
Erza can’t find the strength to say no, just settles back next to Lucy. Neither of them says anything, but Lucy brings her body closer to Erza’s one. She feels the way Lucy gently lets go of her hand and it’s not long before there’s an arm around her waist, while the blonde tucks her head under Erza’s chin.
The red-head doesn’t dare to move an inch, while the tears she tried to fight are running down her cheeks.
“You’ve been off for this past few days..I was worried about you and now I finally know what got you so worked up..”
Erza closes her eyes. This is it, this is where Lucy tells her that she is too fucked up to be with; that she doesn’t want someone this broken by her side.
“Erza… I don’t care if you think you don’t deserve me, or whatever else goes through your mind. I don’t want anybody else but you. I love you and I wouldn’t have it another way.”
This...is definitely not what Erza had expected but somehow it eases this weight she has on heart. So she built up some courage and wraps an arm around Lucy’s frame, keeping her close.
She doesn’t say anything, not sure of her voice or if she’ll say the right thing, but she hopes Lucy understands. Understands that Erza loves her too, and that she is thankful for having her by her side, always.
And thank you so much to @gaymirajane for taking on her time and do this beta job for me! It really means a lot!
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