Listen do you want to know a secret
Do you promise not to tell? Closer
Let me whisper in your ear
Say the words you long to hear
“I'm in love with you."
It was a very uncomfortable situation. Calum was embarrassed, regretful, crushed to say the least. His timing was terrible. He should’ve waited. So many thoughts were running through his mind, but none of the were helping the current situation. His mind playing every mistake made on a loop.
“Please come over, I need you.”
“What did he do?” Calum quickly typed the reply before shoving his phone into his back pocket and quickly packing an overnight bag before grabbing a few snacks out of his kitchen.
Calum looked down at his phone reading the text message from Karla. He sighed, wondering what it was now or more like who it was. Karla had absolute shit taste in men. They would always lie, cheat, or do something of the sort. Of course he had to be her hero, he couldn’t bear knowing that she was in pain without trying to be the one to fix it. This was the third time this month, the sixth time this year that he had to drive over to her apartment with ice cream, reassuring words, and the warmth of his arms.
“He doesn’t deserve you”
“You can find someone better, that’ll treat you the way you deserve”
He couldn’t have been more obvious. Calum was wrapped around her finger, to put it lightly. Whenever she needed him, he was there with no questions asked. His hugs would linger just a few seconds too long, hoping that she would get the hint. When they’d say goodbye, he’d put a little more emphasis on the love in “i love you.” He could be himself with her. As soon as she stepped into a room, his face would light up and his heart would beat a little faster.
“I’m sorry, I know that it’s late and you were probably busy or tired and I just called you out of nowhere. I sh-“
She was cut off mid ramble by Calum pulling her into his chest. She immediately broke down, finally feeling safe and secure enough to do so. “It’s alright, I’m here now, let it all out.” he cooed, rubbing her back. “You don’t ever have to apologize for needing me”
He tried to let go of it, to suppress his feelings for her a countless amount of times. No matter what girl he had in bed, lying beneath him, he’d think of her and couldn’t seem to stop. Every moment, every second of the day, she consumed him. During interviews, he’d sit quietly, everyone noticed that he was spacy, even the fans. His mind always wandered to her. He would be picturing her face, hearing her voice, the smell of the coconut shampoo that made her hair soft to touch. He’d smile to himself until realizing that she would never see him the same. If anything about Karla made him angry, it was her taste in men. She’d go back and forth with the same shitty guy, only for him to fuck up, hurt her, and send her crying, crawling back to Calum.
They were sitting on her couch under a huge blanket watching some show that he couldn’t focus on. All that he could think about was the feeling of her head leaning against his chest, and her hands tracing the tattoos located on his forearm. She had just calmed down about two episodes ago and he couldn’t stop thinking about how much he wanted to help her. Show her how she should be treated, what real love felt like.
He couldn't confess. It would just fuck everything up. She couldn’t possibly love him back. Too oblivious to notice him. It would make things awkward, ruin the friendship.
“Karls,” Calum said after letting out a deep breath.
She changed the position of her head, looking up at him with puffy eyes, “Yeah, Cal?” She answered, her voice still shaky and scratchy from all of the crying.
“Want to know a secret?”
“It would be easy,” he told himself. Just say it. “Karla, I love you.” “Karls, I’m in love with you”
“Cal? Are you just gonna stand there staring into space?” she giggled. “What goes on in that head of yours anyway?”
“You do.”
“What?”
“I was thinking of you.”
“What about me silly?”
“I…” Calum looked at her, really looked at her before squeezing his eyes shut and taking another breath.
“I was thinking about how much I love you.”
Her face instantly lit up and for a second he had hope. “Really Cal? That’s all?” Karla giggled again. “I love you too, you know tha-”
“No Karls, I-I mean I’m in love with you. I love you more than just a friend… and I hate seeing you with other guys, especially guys that treat you like shit. I wanna be wit you Karls.”
He halted the word vomit as soon as he saw her change in expression. Was it disappointment, confusion, shock, disgust? For once, he couldn’t read her. He didn’t know what was going on in her head.
The sound of nervous laughter escaped her lips as she ran her fingers through her hair. “Cal, I… I don’t know what to say.”
“You could say that you feel the same?” He offered, scratching his head.
The look on her face told him everything that he needed to know. “I should go.” He stood up, turning away from her as the feeling of embarrassment washed over him.
“Cal-”
“What?”
“I don’t know… I- you don’t have to go anywhere. We can figure this out.”
“There’s nothing to talk about. We’re all good. We can just pretend that this never happened. I’m okay... It’s okay. I just think that I should get back home now. Duke’s alone and I forgot to put his food out. I’ll call you tomorrow.”
Calum quickly grabbed his car keys and exited her apartment building. When he reached his house after a drive that seemed to take forever, he stayed parked in his driveway. His head on the steering wheel. He had finally done it. Confessed his feelings and she fucking laughed. It seemed as if the universe was against him. He just had to pretend that it didn’t happen. Everything could go back to normal again.
“I could pretend. Even if it kills me.”
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Imagine going into a haunted house with bestfriend!Cal. He would’ve begged you to go for days, promising to protect you the entire time. Then when you finally give in and allow him to take you he’s squealing and hiding his face in your neck every time he sees a shadow bounce off of the walls while you guys walk through the dark hallways. “So much for protecting me huh?” You giggle, jumping when something pops out at you. “Shut up.” He blushes hiding his face while his grip around your waist tightens.
eeee im going to a bonfire tonight, sadly not with cal, but that gave me some inspiration :) enjoy!!
your best friend would invite you and cal to a bonfire she was having and of course you guys would go deciding you had nothing else to do and you never minded being around your friends. since it was fall and you would be outside, your friend insisting the fire will keep everyone warm, you and calum would dress in layers galore. you’d bundle up in flannels and jackets and beanies and fuzzy socks and once that was done calum and you would drive out to your friend’s place. the drive there would be so cozy with the heater on and soft music and you and cal’s hands intertwined. when the night was in full swing you and calum would be having lots of fun even though you didn’t know lots of people there it was still a night full of laughs and cuddles. you guys would push your lawn chairs together so you could be as close as possible and to keep warm. calum would look so cute with rosy cheeks from the cold air hitting his face (fricking picture this!!!!!) and you’d get little sniffles because fall and colds don’t mix well. you guys would even offer to go inside to make some hot chocolate for the rest of the guests because you needed a break from the cold and it was kind of in you guys’ nature to be the parents of the group, but you didn’t mind. this little get together would be something you and cal needed since you usually spend time just the two of you and even though it was almost freezing, everything was alright when calum was snuggled up right next to you. everyone you didn’t know at the party would gush about how cute you guys were and laugh at everything calum said which made you happy to see him smile sooo big. when the fire was going out and people started to migrate indoors you and cal would leave this incredibly fun night and hug your friends and once you were in the car calum would full on blast the heat and pull out the blanket he kept in his truck for you to use and you yell at him “cal where the hell was this when we were freezing our asses off out there!!” and he’d just shrug and kiss you and you’d be on your way home. this ride would be similar to your ride there except this time your head was leaned against the window as you fell asleep and calum would sneak glances at you at stoplights whispering how much he loves you.
