So, do you remember my last post? When I said that I will give up on you because clearly I have no chance. It’s crazy but things took a turn.
I was drunk the other day, and I, somehow, decided to message you on facebook. I didn’t think you would reply as here I was thinking that I am not worth of talking to you. But, you did. Like asap. I thought I was seeing things but you did, and it was awesome even though you were also drunk. I kept sending you videos of me saying things like ‘kocham cię’, and you responded saying the same thing but in english. You have no idea but my heart dropped at the time.
The next day, I didn’t think you would talk to me as like I said we were both drunk. But, I woke up to a good morning text from you, and you asked how I was after last night. We had a normal ‘sober’ conversation throughout the whole day! And this happened the next following days. It’s so surreal! But, Im not going to lie. I love waking up to your messages. It makes my day, a better day.
Although, at this point. I still haven’t talked to you in person. I haven’t even been 60cm away from you. So, I decided to go to your restaurant again. I made a bunch of excuses to go there so no-one will know but really, my main objective was to see you, even if you were busy. It was enough for me to see you, and I did. You looked beautiful. You’re eyes we’re radiating. Unfortunately, I was sat on a table that was too far from you but it was okay. It was good enough.
There was times when you came out of the kitchen. I have no idea why you did. Surely, you should stay in the kitchen especially when it was super busy! Idk, I couldn’t see you that much because my back was facing you. But, apparently, you kept looking at me and kept trying to get my attention. That’s kinda cute. I already thought it was cute of you to smile at me from the kitchen but coming out of the kitchen just to see me was even cuter! Especially, that time when I was talking to bebe, telling her off for touching tsunami. I was waving my finger at her, and then you came over and thought I was waving at you, and you waved back at me and said hi. Honestly, that scared me but it was funny. It was our first time talking to each other! I’ll remember that moment. Then, I had to leave. We said our goodbyes to each other and I thought that was the end of it again. I felt sad and disappointed that I didn’t go up to you. I lost my chance.
But, I am a fighter. I don’t know what made me do it. My original plan was to just buy bebe food because I knew that she hasn’t eaten at all. But, somehow, I went and bought food for you as well. Judging from how busy the restaurant was, I had a feeling that you haven’t eaten properly too. I don’t have much money but it doesn’t matter as long as you’re well.
Before I had to catch the train, I went back to the restaurant. In hope to see bebe but not you (sounds stupid, I know). I was just going to drop off the food and leave because idk, I didn’t want you to see me. I was scared. But, bebe made me stay and told you to come out of the kitchen. At the time, I was FREAKING out. Like literally. I kept walking in circles. I didn’t know what to do. I wanted to sprint out of the door but stay there at the same time. My heart was racing. Butterflies were fluttering. It’s unexplainable.
The moment came when you were right in front of me. You hugged me and said hi, and I was speechless. You looked even more prettier close up. Your eyes. They’re just. asdfghjkl.. You’re smaller than I thought you were though. I like it.
Anyway. Yes! We talked. Finally. You have a cute accent. I didn’t expect that accent. But it was cute. Unfortunately, I couldn’t stay or I’ll miss the train. As much as I wanted to stay and talk I couldn’t. I said goodbye once again and left. You said thank you for the food and hugged me once again.
But, surprise surprise. You messaged me on facebook after, and told me that you were coming to Plymouth that night to drop off bebe. I asked if you were sure because I knew you were very very tired. It was 11 pm already, and I was pretty sure that all you wanted to do was go home and rest. But, you told me, ‘Im going there to see you’. Wow. just wow. Does this mean that you also like me back? .. or is that over estimating it? WHAT DOES THIS MEAN? omg.
Skip to the time when you were outside my door. At this point, I’ve showered, put on new clothes and a new face. I was acting blunt so my true feelings won’t show. I opened the door for bebe and you and I went upstairs. Few moments later, I hear a knock on my door and there you were. Standing right in front of me.
When I saw what you were like, very hyper, talkative and lively. I didn’t know how to feel about you. You were too loud and I was super tired and weak and something like that would irritate me. But, when it was just you and me walking together. Getting to know each other. A whole new light came upon me. I like that side of you. It’s amazing how happy you are even if you’ve had a tough life. You’re amazing. And I think Im falling for you even more. This is bad. But I am.
