#fandom exclusion

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I cannot believe I missed what happened… You were the community itself. Accept it or not you still are. You can’t leave Just because some dickhead ignored your existence in the fandom. I mean come on! Anyone who knows the old games would appreciate people who loves Bi-Han. I might be a slut to different fictional men but Bi-han is definitely different. I appreciate you, loved your works. Fuck’em Sol, let’s create a group on tumblr for that, but we need to be careful about who we took in. I know you run a discord server but still, it would be fun. Think about it…

Once upon a time this was true, back when I wrote requests and head canons I was definitely part of the community. I was included in all the fun and games, people chatted with me regularly, I had loads of friends but the community has changed now, they’re mostly teens and 20 something’s who don’t care about an old dinosaur like me, especially not one who doesn’t create content anymore. I serve no purpose in today’s fandom, I’m just someone for them to block and ignore despite my trying. I feel as though a big part of the problem is that there’s so many minors now and as we all know I am not a minor friendly blog, that doesn’t mean me as a person isn’t friendly towards minors I just don’t want them reading my thirsty ass fics. I appreciate your kind words immensely though and am overjoyed you enjoy my works. I’m not entirely opposed to a tumblr group but wouldn’t have a clue on who to invite, I’m so very ostracized right now I don’t know that anyone would join. I just don’t know, I feel very lost, I still love Bi-Han more than anything but I also don’t want to annoy people further with it. The fact that very few people cared when I said goodbye to the fandom is proof that I just don’t belong anymore. It’s difficult, especially considering I’ve been a fan of the game longer than most of the new fanbase has been alive, but no one cares about that anymore. They’re all just in their little friend bubbles and won’t let anyone new or old in. It sucks but what can you do, like I said I just don’t belong anymore. I’d rather remove myself than be left out of everything and see Bi-Han constantly being at the bottoms of everyone’s charts, be the butt of “incorrect quotes” and be painted as a woman hating misogynist. It’s exhausting and I just can’t do it alone anymore. I’m still not opposed to a tumblr group but I can’t promise I’ll come back to the fandom, it’s just too lonely…

[ygpgsgl-public-records-only]

You Can Erase a Tag, But Not 400,000 Words

A short reminder for those trying to rewrite history.

As of 10:30 p.m. JST on July 8, 2025

I have six subscribers. 151 kudos. 42 comment threads. 18 bookmarks. 409,814 words.

This is not the footprint of someone who “only shows up to cause drama.” This is the record of a writer. A creator. A person who worked, reworked, revised, posted, got up the next day and wrote again — long before you decided I was a problem.

You want to define me by someone else’s name. You want to flatten me into a label that makes your narrative easier. You want me gone, because if I stay, you’d have to admit I exist outside your control.

So you ignore what I write. You refuse to read the statement where I distanced myself from Autumn. You pretend not to see the receipts, the context, the full story. You accuse me of things I never said, and block me before I can respond.

You think if you say "she’s just unhinged,” it’ll invalidate the 40 chapters I wrote with care. You think if you call me a troll, nobody will see the care I gave to character, language, nuance. You think if you speak loud enough, my work will disappear.

But the numbers are still there. The archive doesn't lie. Every hit, every comment, every kudos — they are witnesses. Not of popularity. But of presence.

I am here. I have been here. I am not a shadow of someone else. I am not your scapegoat. And I will not disappear because it makes things more convenient for you.

So if this is about control, say so. If this is about power, admit it. But don’t dress your erasure in the language of “safety.” Don’t pretend your silencing is kindness. Because this — this is not about safety. This is about rewriting history. And I’m here to say: Not on my watch.

Click the link to view my experience

[jenatwork]

fanofacertainage.blog

So. The reason for my url change was to link my tumblr to a project I’ve been working on in the background.

www.fanofacertainage.blog

My birthday is just two weeks away now, and I’ve genuinely been wondering if it’s okay for me to be active in fandom at my advanced age. I mean, when I started out in fandom, everything was on Geocities and Yahoo Groups and Livejournal. Now everyone’s talking about Discord and everyone and their mother has a YouTube channel and I feel like the awkward parent chaperoning the party. I felt out of touch with fandom.

But then I thought, no. It’s the children who are wrong.

Okay, not really. But I know from talking to others that exclusion of older fans is a Thing, and I know that there are other people my age and older who are still active in fandom. It’s just that, as you get older, it gets harder to meet people online just like in real life - you can’t just join a Discord server (is that the right word?) or turn up to a cosplay meet, because chances are you’ll be ten years older at least than everyone else there. So I want to connect with other fans my age and celebrate fandom from a grown-up perspective.

It’s also a chance for me to flex my creative muscles and actually use the Broadcasting Studies degree that my dad still thinks was a waste of time. 

So here you’ll find essays and reflections on fandom, links to fan content by other older fans, and weekly round-ups of the anime I’m watching and other fannish things I’ve been up to.

Please reblog and help me promote this, even if you’re not a Fan Of A Certain Age yourself. You can also follow me on Twitter @oldanimefan.

www.fanofacertainage.blog