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Whom Morgoth Made

Speculations on my favorite baddie: part 1

“Some say also that Morgoth at whiles secretly as a cloud that cannot be seen or felt, and yet is, and the poison is, creeps back surmounting the Walls and visiteth the world; but others say that this is the black shadow of Thû [Sauron], whom Morgoth made, and who escaped from the Battle Terrible, and dwells in dark places and perverts Men to his dreadful allegiance and his foul worship.” --History of Middle-earth vol. 4: The Shaping of Middle-earth, The Quenta, Section 19

This language from the Quenta paralells a similar description of Morgoth’s continuing influence on the world via Sauron that Tolkien writes in the earliest drafts of The Fall of Numenor (as published in HoMe 5: The Lost Road). Christopher places the writing of the Quenta in 1930 (and its earlier drafts as early as 1926) and the early Fall of Numenor outlines in 1936, both after Thû has been “created” and established as “Morgoth’s mightiest thane/lord/chief” as well as Lord of Wolves and a dread necromancer/sorcerer in The Lays sometime around or after 1925. But most interesting to me in this passage (and unique to it, from what I can tell) is Tolkien’s use of the phrase “whom Morgoth made” to describe Thû.

It seems doubtful he meant this literally—Thû (who is for all intents and purposes Sauron by an earlier name) is an independent, extremely powerful, thinking entity—clearly a rational being. If he can be said to descend (in the Primary World) partly from both or either of the abandoned characters Tû/Tuvo and/or Fankil/Fangli, then he likely remains a “fay,” the same as Melian, a type of being that was a precursor to the maiar—hence, not a creature Morgoth could literally “make” by demiurgic means, even at this early stage in the writing of the Legendarium.

Another possibility is that Tolkien had not yet entirely abandoned the notion of Morgoth having children. In the Book of Lost Tales, Fankil/Fangli is once referred to as Morgoth’s “child,” and the earliest reference to Thû in The Fall of Numenor refers to his “ghastly temples” as being temples to Thû-Morgoth where Thû is represented as almost speaking for or as the exiled spirit of Morgoth. Perhaps some of this could imply literal heredity rather than figurative. However, I am not familiar with any other mentions of Melkor begetting children in the Quenta (the “son of Melko” origin for Gothmog/Kosomot appears to have been abandoned by this stage) and so I suspect “made” does not mean “beget” here. Plus, in what may be the very first use of the name Thû, he is referred to as a great thane under Morgoth, a title that, in the Primary World, implies the granting of lands and titles without hereditary right.

No, I have to imagine that Tolkien almost certainly means “made Thû what/how he is.” In fact, concurrently, Tolkien conceived of Thû/Sauron as following Melkor back during his escape with Ungoliant from Valinor. In Valinor he had been suborned and become Melkor’s servant—meaning Thû/Sauron would have had to learn a lot of dreadful magic from Melkor and rise in the ranks in a very short period of time, presumably all under Morgoth’s direct tutelage, in order to be his “mightiest lord” by the time of the events of Beren and Luthien’s quest. Can we take this to mean that this Sauron is a Sauron whose Fall happens much faster than his later characterization will suggest? Is whoever he was In the beginning nearly “overwritten” via Morgoth’s influence?

Eventually Tolkien emends the passage in question and removes the “made” language: “Sauron, who served Morgoth and became the greatest and most evil of his underlings.“ When this happened is not clear, but it is part of a long progression of changes to Sauron’s early history, which will, at some point after 1951, include pushing back Sauron’s “Fall” deeper into Arda’s prehistory (see Tolkien’s letter 131 to Milton Waldman in which he is still referring to First Age Sauron as a being of Valinor). Did Tolkien think this later Sauron began his own Fall before Melkor got to him? Did Tolkien see him now as a distinct enough character in his own right (after concieving an entire Second and Third Age for him to torment) that he felt it best to lay more responsibility for his own nature and choices as his own feet? Or did Tolkien simply want to avoid imprecise language that could be confused with, say, Melkor’s “making” of non-rational underlings such as dragons and orcs?

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FANKIL & LANGON HEADCANONS

Fankil is afraid of loneliness. He is terrified of being alone, of being unnecessary.

He grabs onto anyone who shows him a little more attention, onto anyone who treats him differently. He also grabbed Melkor with all his hands, hoping to receive his father's love.

But he ran into Sauron. Fankil swore, quarreled, scandalized, fought.

"Perhaps I would like to hear at least once in my life those words that you yourself hear from HIM every morning, lying in bed" ©fangli to sauron ////

“Maybe I would like him to call me son at least once in his life”©fangli

(Время шло, чтсло сменилось - ничего не изменилось) Time passed, the number changed, but nothing changed. Fankil accepted the bitter reality. He lowered his hands. It meant without Melkor.

Resentment, rage, and anger flared up in his chest once again, but he realized that even if they were with them for centuries, it wouldn't change the fact that Melkor didn't need him.

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And Fankil turned to others.

He clung to Langon, and he let go. He wandered among mortals, and he wandered among elves. He spent countless nights in the beds of the children of Eru. Perhaps someone would love him?

It never happened.

He was too selfish, too willful, too arrogant. Fankil could not truly love. He can't genuinely fall in love, express affection, or form deep bonds.

Jealousy and fear of loneliness consume him, leading to accusations and a lack of trust.

Constant bickering, arguments, and fights ensue.

He fights desperately, to torn out tufts of hair, to scratched to the blood of the faces. To hematomas on all bodies. He grabs a knife.

He demands excessive, absolute attention, demands LOVE and loyalty, which he himself is not able to give in return.

Not receiving it - he goes into a frenzy.

But.

Langon will not let himself be offended. Langon was forbidden too long and too much by the "Lights". Now he does not limit himself in anything. Langon won't allow others to treat him this way. He always fights back, so much so that Fankil is the first to retreat and run away to lick his wounds. Sometimes, during fights, when they're choking each other until they lose consciousness, the situation changes dramatically, and they end up in bed. They continue to fight and struggle.

They can't be gentle.

Even in bed, they hate, tear, and bleed.

They cut each other with their fingernails, with the blades of their daggers, and they try to bite each other's throats in a quest for intense emotions and sensations, in an attempt to express their anger, rage, and hatred.

Fankil knows that Langon is capable of killing his living, fleshly form. That's why he's afraid. That's why Fankil leaves. However, Fankil's attempts with others do not lead to any significant results. In a fit of jealousy and rage, Fankil may even commit murder. But he always ends up alone. Absolutely alone.

Fankil returns to Langon again.

and again he abandons him, publicly humiliating him in front of others.

Langon takes up the blade. He finds Fankil. He pulls him down the stairs, makes him roll down the steps, cuts his throat, cuts his chest, his stomach, wanting to end him forever. Langon r*pes him, making him choke on his own blood.

Fankil tries to run. But there's nowhere to run to. No one wants him.

Fankil escapes. He licks his wounds again. And Fankil comes back to Langon.

Because there's no other option. It's only when he's with him that he feels like someone might be interested in him, that someone might need him. That someone might have any feelings or emotions towards him. Fankil knows that their relationship is doomed from the start. But perhaps, in those rare moments of tranquility, Fangli can feel like he's not alone.

Even if it's through fights, anger, or hatred, he won't be alone.

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Angband in these time

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Why are they posing.

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Well..... My dad. And his husband.

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When i saw Fedora Basmanov i realized, that my Fankil is literally him!!!!!!

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