#fantasypd

[fantasyproneworld]

Fantasy-prone disorder (also known as fantasy personality disorder) is a disordered form of fantasy-prone personality disposition.

It is sometimes formed by childhood neglect and can cause someone with it to become dependent on maladaptive fantasies in order to function. Said functioning can also be stunted by these same fantasies.

These fantasies are considered real, and have the ability to take over the memory and thought process of said person. Entire personalities, versions of the self, and egos are instead created by people with FPD instead of being naturally formed.

[fantasyproneworld]

At some point, fantasy prone disorder will get bad. It will hurt and you will lose some part of you as you continue to have these fantasies. They will quickly replace who you are and your memories as you delve back into your mind.

You'll lose track of time and energy as you think and behave differently. Some of us rock and some of us sway, others may pace and talk to ourselves. That doesn't matter. We're still people.

I think being able to safely communicate, stim, twitch, and mumble shouldnt be taken away from people who just want to do their jobs and go home. You shouldn't have to be seen as scary or unloved for it.

People with fantasy prone disorder shouldn't have to be seen as immature or too naive because we live in worlds crafted for our safety.

[fantasyproneworld]

Is fpd applicable if the fantasies arent creative? Mine are basically always imaginary continuations of daily life when awake (ie I default to imagining doing what I plan to do instead of actually doing it and it takes conscious effort to move and leave the imagination) and become most difficult to come out from when triggered, otherwise it blends with reality and I function in the exocosm alongside my imagination. I can dissociate and imagine with my mental eyes and then come back and forget what happened in reality but when sober I don't think it actually happened- well, it feels like it anyway but I know they're separate realities. I'm also autistic so not sure if that would deem it inapplicable to me. OSDD/UDD isn't enough, Fpd fits.

Yes, I would say FPD fits in this case. I have many times in my own life where I cannot physically move because my fantasies are playing mundane things I want or need to do and how it could play out if I did it, land locking me in one area or making me frustrated when I experience a sun up from an episode.

The fantasies are yours, coming from your brain, they don't and can't always be about fiction or creativity. Right now, I can feel a fantasy episode right at the tip of my brain, so I am sorta dissociating while writing this in order to imagine myself saying these words to a friend or family member. I'll get stuck here writing and writing as if I am actually speaking verbally but I am not, which is why text sometimes sounds too natural or forcefully neutral.

TTheres also a sharp relationship between MADD and FPD that is often overlooked as them being thr same thing. Fantasies and daydreams are not the same, given that for many with FPD, one doesn't need to consistently have fantasizing thoughts, fantasy just has to rule or alter their life in significant ways to the point of lifelong indulgence. You don't need to constantly fantasize to have FPD, the possibility of fantasies and getting lost in it just have to be detrimental in a way.

Dreams and Fantasies: What is the difference? - Quirky Essence

Dreams help us to act on fulfilling the vision for our lives. Whereas, fantasies are our imaginations running freely. Dreams and fantasies..

[fantasyproneworld]

I discovered that I have fantasy prone disorder because the fantasy won't leave me alone

Hi!

That's unfortunately a symptom of a lot of things and narrowing it down to fantasy prone disorder can be hard considering it's medically unrecognized. However, if you have done your research and have come to that conclusion still, you may find it useful to speak to a health care provider or use methods from Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder to lessen daydreams and fantasies.

If you are not displeased with the fantasies, then I hope they're nice ones!

[fantasyproneworld]

what's the difference between fantasy prone and fantasy personality disorder

Okay!

If you mean the terminology, then the terminology changed exclusively to distance from the idea that fantasy personality disorder was a personality disorder. This is mainly due to the fact that it had no basis to stand on as a personality disorder and was already in a spectrum called the Fantasy Spectrum.

If you mean the difference between being fantasy-prone and having fantasy-prone disorder, one is disordered while the other is a personality trait - meaning the fantaisies can be controlled easier or aren't maladaptive.

[isuggestforcedeviaesis]

me and my partner were staying somewhere for the night and while he was sleeping, i kinda woke up, and then started just weeping silently. no ugly cry, no wail. just laying there, sniffling with tears down my face. i get up a few times to go to the bathroom, and he cant tell whats wrong bc hes dead asleep, so im in the bathroom looking at myself hoping he doesnt wake up and see me talking to myself in full back and forth conversation.

my partner said multiple times that night that he liked my hair, my weight, and my body type, but i just kept looking at myself in the bathroom mirror and holding myself and looking at my skin.

and i swear, unhealed, internalized misogyny and ableism is wild. i should not be woken up at 6 AM crying about whether or not ill be like, discarded by lovers because im androgynous, mentally ill, and look like a fat boy with tits. i should not have to stand in the mirror and find a perfect angle in order to feel good about my body when i am in perfect health. im looking at my brown skin, flabby arms and body and im just like, "what am i doing with my life?"

because i look like.. this. i can tell that im not just being used for my sex traits, but i cant help think that i am because when i look at myself I always think, "who would ever want an androgynous person??"

and thats - thats the fear talking! the fear developed by one trans man i dated who was mad that i have a voice in my head that i communicate with. he told me that "only a figment of [my] imagination could love [me].".... you dont tell someone, who is hearing the voice of another person in their head and actively wanted to live with that voice as part of them and their lived experiences, that. you do not say to someone that the voice that has been physically and mentally protecting them is the only person who would ever love them. and then expect that to just be.. okay.

right now, its just like so help me God if i fuck up this relationship just because of this fear of mine and the fear of him treating me the same way (he hasnt its almost been a year), im going to blame myself. i should not have to hide that part of me nor should i just be like "oh yeah im insane but not a murderer." i should be able to say openly that i live with fantasy prone personalities in my head without needing to prove that i am not a danger, that i am not violent, that i am not weird, and that i am a living person deserving of care.

and like the entire time im crying, guess who is comforting me - my personalities. that voice in my head that got me in so much trouble in school and in relationships, that voice in my head that creates images when i close my eyes that scare me out of my sleep. that voice in my head that is jealous and afraid that i am giving my body to my partner and that i am living the life they wished they could before they died. that voice in my head that is literally telling me that it loves me while cringing when my partner does the same thing. it is that voice that is its own living being with its own thoughts, words, images, and appearance that lives in my head that is comforting me.

and if i could look at my trans ex in the face, i would tell him that he did a good job beating down on mentally ill people for a living. that he ruined all future relationships until this point in my life by telling me i had to abstain and that i had to be scared of being hurt over and over again. this partner i have now, we tried to date once but that voice got in the way because of my trans ex's wounds. but were back together and im happy, im happy he loves my androgyny. im happy he's happy. im happy he knows that the voice is there for me and cares for me, that the voice is its own person. im happy, but it took fucking hell to get here.

[clowncaraz]

that does get me thinking about it all, being a perpetrator and in my past life - usually the one haunted by my own paranoia and mental illness that went undiagnosed for some time due to my transness and lack of funds - how i became this kind of villain instead of a person signaling literal signs of help and struggle that kind words can't fix.

they asked how long i intend on shaming myself for what's happening. i didn't give them an actual answer. i can't bear to actually forgive myself and also give grace to those who seem to distrust me now. i have taken steps, letting people find me and block me instead. ignoring their socials, looking the other way, not commenting. i don't wish to forget, i wish to remember that i did something bad and i am at fault but i am not going to give that mistake any more power over how i choose to heal over the next few years.

i can make documents shaming myself publicly for the safety of others all i want but when will I actually ever get better- when will i stop hurting? thats what i need to find out..