Sometimes I really get sick of having an invisible disability.
"Oh but you are too young"
"Oh that's just hypocondria speaking, stop over checking yourself"
Yes, bitch. Are dysautonomia related stuff off limits to younger people, just because I can have "good" days?
Am I faking feeling faint? Am I faking constantly feeling like a ghost? Always having to think five times and take it easy even for such a basic thing like standing up? Not being able to tell if my heart is actually racing or if it's a panic attack?
Knowing that exercise would help me, but not even having the energy for the walk to the fucking bathroom?
Having a constant low key headache? Starting to feel afraid of going to places because of "what if I faint again"? Having trouble deciding whether or not I should take the meds, or which dose, because it depends on the circumstances I can't always guess?
Perfect bonus of having it together with also a metabolic disorder?
Sure, I totally love making it all up and being "dramatic", because you saw me ride my bicycle long distance.