Working 2 jobs while on a weightloss journey is hard.
I AM TIRED Y'ALL. I'm focusing more on my diet than I am on working out right now. I'm seeing some wonderful changes, so I'm still pleased. But. One job has got to go.
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Working 2 jobs while on a weightloss journey is hard.
I AM TIRED Y'ALL. I'm focusing more on my diet than I am on working out right now. I'm seeing some wonderful changes, so I'm still pleased. But. One job has got to go.
OVERFLOWING struck me as an utterly perfect description of just what it means to be a fat woman in the world today, for much more than just the obvious reason or two. Yes, my fat is overflowing. I have plenty of it! But there’s way more to me than that. I’m overflowing with love. I’m overflowing with hate. I’m overflowing with joy. I’m overflowing with sorrow. I’m overflowing with fun. I’m overflowing with boredom. I’m overflowing with forgiveness. I’m overflowing with stubborn refusal to just let it go. I’m overflowing with life. I’m human and I’m not perfect. Each of us is overflowing with all that we are and all that we have to give, and that is so much heavier with purpose and meaning than just the amount of fat on our bones.
Jana Overflowing
No Dress Code for You Girls
Yesterday I was over at Brain, Child Magazine writing about my daughter and dress codes. Here are the shorts that my kid's school deemed inappropriate. She is 11.
The takeaway:
What is there to say? That middle school, for most girls, is an introduction to the way their bodies are not their own, and that now they’re defined by the way other people, in particular boys, may or may not respond. Boys are to be protected and girls are to comply. The burden of consequence, girls begin to understand in middle school, is on them. That’s not to say that boys don’t have their own problems to deal with—like closing off their hearts to emotions for muscles—but dress codes were not made for the respectability of boys, they were made to send crystal clear messages to girls: your body makes us uncomfortable.
None of this is new, I know that. But it is new for the girls among us and that infuriates me; that girls—my girl in particular—are still asked to put their value not in how they see themselves, but in how teachers, adults, boys, view them. On that particular day it didn’t matter that my daughter was comfortable with her body in motion, that she was so proud to have found denim shorts that didn’t guillotine her middle; an arbitrary rule was broken and for that it was worth it to the educators to hold off on teaching math and language arts and instead give a girl a lesson on why rebellion isn’t so bad, after all.
The rest.
Going to Tumblr Savior "beforeandafter" because every time I see a "before" picture I see my body. And then there's a blurb about how the "after" worked super hard to no longer look like "before" and that it was totally worth it and they love themselves.
Fuck "after", I'm going to love my "before". This "before" is in better shape than she has been in a long while. I much rather be comfortable buying an XL than freaking out over a large.
I just don't like how I'm supposed to feel bad for having more mass.
Nope not happening.
Starvation mode
> walked 5 minutes to work today > must have burned 1800 calories > better load up on donuts before my body goes into starvation mode > still not losing weight. Its genetics
Omg Es Tan Bonita
So Fuckin COOL
Book I Want To Read: "Beautiful You: A Daily Guide to Self Acceptance" by Rosie Molinary