Apr 11
just ate #hatemyself
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just ate #hatemyself
feeling dysphoric as fuck tonight chat who's up ready to chop off their tits
god i want a dickKKK
i guess things were easier for you when you just had to text me and see me on holidays
i thought you'd miss the time we didn't get to spend together but you don't act like you do
unrelated but can anyone else view the four comments on my intro post cause tumblr's filtering won't let me sobs,,
i'm so tired of being wrong time and time again thinking that i can start to fully unmask around someone
this one just hurts more bc they made it seem like they were a completely safe person
but yet i guess no one knows how to direct their irritation at the person they're irritated at instead of simmering in it and letting it leach out onto innocent people
i can not possibly be expected to somehow know when you're in a shitty mood and i'm sick of it putting me in a shitty mood i'm not your pitiful excuse of a partner who treats you like garbage and speaks to you with no love in their voice i actually give more than two fucks about you but you're ruining it
i'm going to give up and stop trying soon but i bet you won't even notice then either
somehow that'll just be me "being weird"
i wish you wanted to spend time with me, not just out of pity,, or got at all excited when you see me
i feel like when i speak to you i just irritate you sometimes and i can never tell if i did something wrong or if you're just in a bad mood
but i don't want to just lie down and give up, you're basically the only family i've got and i care about you
but clearly this isn't hurting you the way it is me so i don't know what to do besides what i've already done to make you see how much i miss you
i fear i may have just witnessed something heinous and utterly disturbing in every way but im not positive yet so i cant form an opinion
but holy fuck if that actually just happened there is something deeply wrong with this mfer