#fear of expression

[bubblegum-bassarisk]

I wasn't allowed to feel and express. Now the one that doesn't allow it is myself.

The hand that covers my mouth and the fingers who close around my wrist are my own.

I writhe against a binding that I didn't create but was infused deeply into my core.

[myfeeeeeeeelings]

Fear of expression

It's hard to communicate your feelings when it feels like no one is listening. It's years of telling stories, looking around as you speak and realizing no one is even paying attention. It's those times when you go to pour your heart out, only to have someone nod and make a comment about something completely unrelated. It's having someone disregard your feelings, because what you're upset about isn't a big deal to them. It makes you feel unimportant, stupid, and childish when you're only a little more sensitive than you wish to be. When people come and act like they care...it seems like it is just that,acting. Then you're told not to shut down, but the whole time you feel that's the only thing you've been invited to do, because when you've tried to be open, everyone else closed you off.