Top 5 Most Loved Fan Fics
Okay this is an evil ask but you’re great so I’m gonna try anyway.
IN ROUGHLY CHRONOLOGICAL ORDER
1) Learn To Fly by ?????( I’m not even totally confident on the name), YYH, Hiei/Kurama: Okay I cannot actually find it anymore, but that may be for the best. I am including it because I loved it as a tiny youth just getting into fanfic and discovering the wider world. My internet time was limited so I printed all 200~ish pages so I could read and reread. This was my jam. Of course, thinking back, it was very…baby just learned about homophobia and decided to write a fic about how bad it is. There was a lot of “my family and friends don’t/might not accept me” and also a lot of “don’t have sex you might get AIDS”. In retrospect, I do not think it was that great a fic. But I loved it, and it was important to me, so it goes on this list. I hope I left a comment.
2) The Whispers Arc by Maldoror. GW, Duo/Heero: Again, it’s been too long since I read it to know if it was actually any good or not, and honestly I am afraid to reread it so that’s not happening now. This was very important to a young Rio for…several reasons, actually. One reason is that, regardless of how it holds up now, Maldoror was one of the best writers in the fandom at the time. Another is that I was just starting to realize both that my sexuality was a little, shall we say, dark, and also that my emotions and emotional attachments weren’t really as….strong as most other pieces. A large part of this is Heero learning to listen to, notice, and value his feelings/emotions/emotional attachments, while also having fraught sex. So that mattered to me. Also I waaaay over identified with Duo, so the ‘has an attraction to danger and death and it is a Problem’ characterization worked for me. Also, I’m pretty sure Maldoror was the one who wrote Duo explaining being bi as “double the chances for a date on Friday night”. Which is problematic and not strictly true yadda yadda, but I’m pretty sure it was the first thing that I felt gave me words/permission to be bi. I am confident I left at least one comment on this one.
…tbh I’m pretty such I’m forgetting some fic between these two because it’s, like, a 9-year gap, but I’m drawing a blank so we’re moving on to…
3)Lamb and Martyr by Dira Sudis ( @dsudis) . MCU, Steve/Bucky: By this point I am/was an old hand at BDSM fic. But this gave me something so rare in such fic: a top- a sadist who struggles with how much he likes it (sidenote: I think sometimes we avoid saying words like that because we’re uncomfortable with the idea of the top genuinely being a person who likes hurting others). Because… it is uncomfortable! It is not an easy thing to say “This person loves hurting others. They get off on it. And that is totally okay and fine and not at all a sign that they are a Bad Person.” It’s harder still when it’s “I love hurting others etc”. It’s taught very young: hurting people is bad. wanting to hurt people is bad. Do as you would have done unto you. And it’s not wrong! Which makes it so hard to believe that you can find a place where it’s okay. A place where someone will, of their own free will, ask you to do things to them. ….Anyway I’ve typed a bunch so moral of the story this story Matters to me because being a sadist is hard and no one understands (joke).
4. Putting Down Roots by Poetry ( @featherquillpen) Animorphs, Rachel/Tobias: okay so this was written for me so of course I love it. And honestly? I feel like you can see what I asked/why I wanted it pretty easily if you know me my weird alien sex/intimacy kink is showing. It is always showing. I am literally writing this as a break from composing a new alien LARP. Also the gender stuff was a pleasant surprise I didn’t even ask for! (also Rachel and Tobias have always been important to me individually and as a couple) ALSO POETRY IS A GREAT WRITER END PARAGRAPH
5. Things We’d Held in Secret by Dira Sudis ( @dsudis ) AGAIN, BECAUSE I LOVE HER WORK, UNRELATEDLY I AM A DEEPLY EMBARRASSING PERSON THE END. MCU, Steve/Bucky: This one was also written for me; and again, you I feel like an explanation of why I love it is unnecessary if you know me at all and also read the fic. Hell, even just the tags. But ASIDE from my weird narrative kinks, I’m fond of this because of all the talking about it we did together. I kinda feel like we became friends, and I really like her so that makes me happy. Also I cherish the awkward
(“so how do you feel about writing cannibalism?”
“I mean you don’t have to!”
“…how much cannibalism are we talking here?” )
interaction we had before we got on the same page because I collect awkward memories.