No but seriously I have SO MANY Ray Kowalski feelings, like not to overanalyze this (spoiler: I am about to overanalyze the shit out of this), but like:
My partner is an emotionally insecure wickedly smart man with ADHD who nearly flunked out of school and couldnât hack college but has figured out a way to find a profession that works for him and his awesome fucking brain (who is simultaneously the sexiest man on the planet and SO VULNERABLE HE MUST BE PROTECTED AT ALL COSTS to be all clichĂŠ about it sorryyyyyyy).
My oldest child is an emotionally volatile gender nonconforming wickedly smart lanky kid with ADHD who the school is failing miserably and who gets in, shall we say, physical altercations like ALL THE FUCKING TIME.
I was queer (meaning both âweirdâ and ânot straightâ) since literally forever (it was obvious from at least 5 years old, and I came out officially and pretty fully when I was 14), but have only been in love with one person, so society tends to assume Iâm straight (unless they actually *look* at me), but like hahahah no.
My partner is reserved in public but witty and more overtly an asshole (in the good way) in private whereas I am emotive as fuck pretty much everywhere and insist that he actually let down his stupid ass walls with me or I will punch him in the face (not literally, because we are not a buddy cop show and those things never go as well in reality).
And just
THERE ARE A FEW RAY KOWALSKI PARALLELS TO MY LIFE YOU GUYS OKAY
And I have more than a few feelings about him and use fanfic and fannish flailing to cope with them and thatâs pretty much what Iâm here for.
âŚthat and the pretty pretty men.












