#feeling apathetic

[50rd1d]

Wowww I love living I’m having the time of my life just sitting here and letting it pass me by

[sunmiswh0re]

besties i think i have emotional burnout

[therisingsun777]

Thoughts

It becomes itself, a question. A constant never ending loop. Staring out within the strings of fate, pondering. It’s here that I am, with nothing to do. Passionless, devoid of empathy. Wishing I could go back to find where it went. Wishing I knew exactly where I was. I’m in a blue room, but where am I, the person that once knew what it was like to cry, like to be angry; the person who felt within them, the sparks of humanity.

Of course that makes it sound like I’m fourteen again, being edgy as shit, goin’ all,

“I remember a time when I had emotions.”

Imagine I’m three steps away from having throat cancer; from smoking cigars for fifty years of my life, when that voice is deployed. 

I guess the point of this whole ranting thing is, I hate apathy, if it’s at all possible to ‘hate’ when I feel as if I don’t have the energy. Part of it is, I feel like I’m fading, losing some sense of reality that I used to have. I don’t exactly know what it’s like to fall away from real, and into a realm where nothing tends to make sense, but if it’s possible to do that, than that’s what I feel is happening.

I just...Don’t like anything anymore. I don’t dislike anything either. It’s just...Maybe I’m hiding everything, and pushing it all away. Perhaps I’ve, thrown away a part of myself in the hopes that I don’t have to feel.

I don’t know, if you’ve read through all of this, or even seen this. Thank you, I guess. There’s something that I just needed to relieve from my chest.

[guapisimo-guy]

Lethargy at its finest

[apatheticgyale]

I don't care mum.

[plaguedaddy420]

Flying solo on my first official supervisors meeting.

[carmelblood]

there is nothing more terrifying than being told your peak is behind you